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#was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled
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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought.#i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper#thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times#like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks.#nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she#was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled#a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where#you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder?#but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what#then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student.#everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have#and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my#leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but#i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying#my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound#by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting#better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that#and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path.#one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do#what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it.#maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for.#unrelated
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Louk's Bad Batch rewatch part 29 !!!
we're in the second half of season 2 batchersss (was gonna say were in the end game now but I'll save that for tomorrow ๐Ÿ˜ซ)
The Bad Batch 2x09
her voice ๐Ÿฅฒ she sounds so down it hurts
"sounds dangerous" *giggles* ilysm Wrecker ๐Ÿ’•
Hunter sniffing dirt again hehe
Tech says "without Echo" and Omega immediately droops her head ๐Ÿ˜ซ
creeper peekin ๐Ÿ‘€
I love how Wrecker was carrying the case with one hand and Hunter needs two and keeps adjusting it ๐Ÿ’ช
Wrecker checking in on Omega ๐Ÿคฒ
oop Omega dramatic sigh count ๐Ÿ‘€
Hunter lifting Omega up ๐Ÿฅบ
"chain reaction, explosion got it ๐Ÿ™„" tbb dealing with teenage fett mood swings now
gentle hands ๐Ÿคฒ
that is not your ship kid ๐Ÿ‘€
Hunter slams the highly dangerous explosives into the ground lmaooo
Hunter hearing the ship power up !!! his turns so fast and jumps over the stairs ๐Ÿ™Œ
the bickering batch
they're literally all so feral at each other rn ๐Ÿ˜ฎ
Wrecker giving Omega water first ๐Ÿฅบ
she's calling Echo for help ๐Ÿ˜ญ
Tech knows he disabled his comms... have they been chattin ๐Ÿ‘€
Hunter's senses on fire this ep ๐Ÿ‘Œ
Hunter pushing Omega in front of him and steering her out of the way ๐Ÿ™Œ
the Lion King ???
Tech: "protect the ipsium!" Wrecker: bruh ๐Ÿ˜‘
the ipsium survived Hunter slamming it on the ground I'm sure it'll be fine
Wrecker: "why don't you carry it ๐Ÿ˜ " Tech: "fine" lolol
Tech is so strong omg he carried it like Wrecker ๐Ÿ‘€
Omega needs something to cover her face in this sandstorm ๐Ÿฅฒ give her a helmet
THEY'RE SO SHITTY BOYS CALM DOWN !!!
Omega bby someone hug her !!!!! ๐Ÿ˜ซ๐Ÿ˜ญ
"what is your issue" ๐Ÿ’”
how soft Hunter said her name ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿคฒ
Tech doesnt understand the emotional connection she has to everything but they probably all struggle to see that being soldiers, they're taught to let go of things, stay in the moment to be able to be the best they can, she's just a kid who wants her brother and her home back after just losing everything, I can completely understand both sides of this ๐Ÿฅฒ I'm blabbing and it's not making sense anymore ๐Ÿ™ƒ
"thats not the only mistake you need to fix" Hunter's dad mode applies to Tech now too
Tech: "but she said she wanted to be alone" ๐Ÿฅบ
they're getting so much better at the whole dad/big brother thing ๐Ÿ’•
Tech said her name so gently ๐Ÿ˜ญ
Omega and Tech having the same ideas ๐Ÿฅฐ
"I am fully aware you are capable of the task" ๐Ÿฅบ
TECH BLINDLY FOLLOWING OMEGA WHEN SHE FALLS MY HEART
oop I forgot the ๐Ÿ˜ซ Tech falls count: we're on 5 now
THE WAY HE GRABS HER IN THE WATER OML ๐Ÿ˜ญ he was so desperate to save her
Hunter sensing they're in trouble ๐Ÿ‘€
Not only do I love Hunter's senses but I also love how aware they all are of him, like they all question him every time he pauses or looks off at something, they're all just so aware of each other ๐Ÿ’•
Tech and Omega lying down out of the water ๐Ÿคฒ
Tech emptying the water from his glasses !! ๐Ÿฅบ
"we are alive" ~ bro I love how often he responds like this I can't wait to hear it again hehehe
Omega's wet droopy hair is getting so long ๐Ÿฅบ
"the narrow crevasse" i love the way he talks he's so fancy ๐Ÿ’…
Putting a bunch of quotes in bc they're iconic ๐Ÿ’•
Omega: "everything is changing and you don't even care"
Tech: "I am not sure how I should care about change, it is a fundamental part of life"
Tech: "I am aware that you miss him, but we have to adapt and move on. That's what soldiers do."
Omega: "we're more than that. We're a family aren't we?"
Tech: "yes of course we are"
Omega: "why don't you act like it?"
Tech: "Echo chose a different path, as did Crosshair. I have to respect their decision. Even though it can be difficult to understand, we must carry on. I may process moments and thoughts differently, but it does not mean that I feel any less than you"
I have to put it all in bc this scene means so much to me ๐Ÿฅบ๐Ÿคฒ๐Ÿ’•
Wrecker's scream and the big *fwosshhh* landing in the water vs Hunter's tiny *bloop*
Omega's wave ๐Ÿซถ
the way Hunter just tosses Tech's stuff out of the water and he's still holding Omega's bow is the difference between brother and dad
wet hair Hunter when ๐Ÿ‘€
Omega "see that wasn't so bad" Wrecker: ๐Ÿ‘
Tech being almost as precise as Crosshair ๐Ÿ’•
Tech and Omega looking at each other ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿคฒ
Hunter noticing somethings different with Omega now after talking with Tech ๐Ÿฅบ
CID ๐Ÿ”ซ I want to hunt her for sport fr ๐Ÿ˜ˆ
Omega quoting Tech ๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•๐Ÿ’•
oooohhhh this ep holds a special place in my heart fr
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