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frontierbound-archive · 4 years

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Positivity Post

@forgedwild said:

i know that 4 or 5 years worth of rping with you should be evidence enough of just how much i love u and ur muses but HERE I AM TO GUSH ANYWAY!! erin you were the first friend i ever made in the rpc and to this day, you continue to hold a place in my heart as one of my very best friends i ever made in my /life/. youve been nothing but kind to me and can put a smile on my face with your amazing wit and your fantastic writing alike! writing that pushes me to put my best foot forward and helps me grow as a storyteller. you are just an all-around talented and incredible human being that inspires me, your muses are never lacking and you have a knack for making them all feel so very real and human. each of them are pieces of art, from your ambitious evil mad scientist to your golden-hearted cowboy. collaborating with you, befriending you, KNOWING YOU has gotten me through some tough shit and im grateful every day that we crossed paths. here's to 5 years and many, many more

How do I love thee...let me count the ways...

Honestly, Sadie, how am I supposed to respond to this when you’ve WRECKED me...hahah! I know that nothing I write in response to this will go even half way to expressing how much I love and adore you frankly. You’re my longest friend here and you are one of my best friends, ever! Your support and friendship mean the world to me and I feel truly blessed to have been lucky enough to meet you and to get to write with you all this time. You are an inspiration to me in all regards and I love and trust you with my whole damn heart girl. I feel like I can speak to you about anything and your advice is always the absolute best. You’re across the ocean but you’re like also...here...with me...and have been all this time and it’s amazing to me.

Also, like DAMN you are so creative I can’t even put it into words and your writing just gets me, like being wrapped in the warmest blanket or being punched right in the soul, you make me emotional about your characters and my own and that is one of my favourite things about writing with you, about RP in fact! Shipping with you is so beautiful and fulfilling and just thinking about that fact makes me emotional. I also got to say though - you have the ability to make me laugh until I’m crying, girl you are hillarious and I love that we both have the same weird sense of humour.

I know we had to put our vacation on hold but as soon as the world gets its shit together, I’m gonna be there and we’re gonna have the time of our lives together!

#forgedwild #positivity posts #ooc post

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felidfavs · 6 years

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it's time to make a "my life sucks" post

so this is just going to be a list of ongoing shitty things of varying degrees of annoyance.

mum is stressed as shit over money. We had to buy a new hot water tank, and her husband a new phone, and both the mortgage and our phone bills have been fucked up and thus are needing dealt with ASAP. On top of really tenuous payments for a fuck up she made involving his work checks and his immigration status awhile ago.

i'm stressed as shit over money. i contribute a small amount to rent and phone, and my own loans every month that is coming out of old loan and no new money right now. I haven't wanted to make money with art because i'm sketched out over taxes and legalities- and since my mom has always done my taxes and is always too busy and stressed out to show me how... not to mention probably not the best at it anyways... it's not something that's likely to change any time immediately.

So i'm trying i find work. I am not doing a super amazing job at that because of my anxiety and overthinking and shit but. I am applying for at least 1 thing a week at this point, which is better then the previous nothing at all so.

But to get work I also need to buy some new clothes, most things have a dress code u know. At the very least i need some shoes. I think. I might just go dig around and see if there's any old pairs that would fit the bill but i doubt it.

and then there's just the general things piling up like; i haven't had a hair brush with a handle for like. 2 years lmfao. it's fine and i refuse to buy myself one cause just having the head works perfectly fine but it's one of those things u look at when ur annoyed at money and just go "jfc what is my life"

I havent had easy access to a shower in like. i don't even know. probably around 4 years now? Again, our bath functions and that does an adequate job so. Not the end of the world but. thinking "i haven't been able to shower in my own home for 4 years" is mildly depressing.

My dog needs to be put down. hard stop if i had the agency to do it i would. He is old. He stumbles a lot. The "fat deposit" on his shoulder is the size of a small cat at this point. He has some sort of wound on his head now apparently. He huffs and wheezes constantly (probably from the weight of that mass or other things) and like. While he's still... fine.. like he eats happily he still manages the stairs with some effort and he's still playful if you bug him... he's old and he's dying and he's not exactly comfortable. And it sucks to have to watch him. But i know my mum isn't going to put him down any time soon until she HAS to because she doesn't take death well AT ALL and won't add that to her stress willingly.

Sadie has had chronic ear infections since she was a pup. We don't buy shit for them, and while it wouldn't do that much good anyways given how impossible it is to get anything in her ear... i'm getting tired of wrangling her and coaxing her into letting me wipe sludge out of them twice a day every day to no improvement.

Apparently i need a new computer. Because i can't get mine to stop fucking restarting. i dug out an old keyboard to try to get to the start up repair shit but it doesn't seem to be able to like... get its drivers in before the restart cycle or it's not compatible idk. it gets power to it but it doesn't work. So idk what to do about that. and i don't.. want to call someone. i really don't. i need a new one badly anyways. but i don't have the money for it.

I also probably need a new phone soon... which is entirely my fault. Being jobless and stressed and battling all my shit i've been using it WAY TOO HEAVILY and it barely holds a charge anymore. But that's what you get when you've been using it to play music all night cause it's the only way you can sleep :/

im supposed to go hang out at ACAD today cause there's an artist talk and i want to get more involved with humans and not being a house hermit but i also kind of just want to go to sleep for awhile and stop existing. I was gunna try to find some shoes too but now i don't wanna make that expense if i need a computer first. If i can bring a bag to work if i get that job i have shoes i can probably manage in they're just very slick and not ideal for actual... work lol. but if i have to i'll make it work u know.

shitty part about if my computer is dead is i started a new painting and it's only like 2 days old so i haven't backed it up anywhere else :-)

oh also i've low key been worried i might be like..... actually ill. probably just me reading into shit looking to cause more stress but my lower back hasn't stopped being mildly sore since that couple days where it was really bad and i still wake up a bunch at night uncomfortable. and just like. general not feeling great. and a couple other choice sore spots. i dunno how much stock i want to put into it because that means i should probably get on seeing a doctor but again. money. and that is a very Big Thing that i don't want to deal with if i don't have to because it will probably put me out of every other stressful thing i try to do to focus on it. but it keeps bugging me cause like.. if it's something bad and i ignore it and it fucks me over even worse u know.

oh and of course there's always "grandma could drop dead any day" stress as per usual.

"i need to learn how to drive" stress

"will i ever have my shit together to get back to pottery" stress

"keep your body and brain demons happy so u don't want to give up and kill yourself again" stress

anyways i'm done complaining for now back to dealing with it all.

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