Things I’m currently insane about thanks @honeypeabrain :

Id and MC, both robbed of nearness to others in different ways (physical and mental isolation) and haven’t fucking touched anyone or BEEN touched in so long

Id secretly regretting never shooting their shot with MC, even though they were with Leith, because they KNEW tomorrow was never promised to them!!! And THEN OH fuck respecting their relationship!!because Leith is gone, MC is alone and Id can’t fucking touch them or be with them and it’s infuriating that they’ve been in love infatuated with MC for so long and didn’t keep MC from going out to find their team and Leith like they SHOULD HAVE and agreed to go with…. Like… fuck, man 😭😭😭

MC feeling something for Id that’s been bubbling and simmering for an incredibly long time,,,,, the guilt of those feelings having been there since before Leith was gone and then the guilt of what happened to Id???? Maybe MC KNEw because of Id’s feelings for them that they wouldn’t say no to looking for the team???and now Id is resentful becAUSE they think MC manipulated them to do it even though they wOULD HAVE ANYWAY because they love have some kind of feelings for MC and seeing them like that was too much and THEIR GUILT of wishing Leith was out of the picture??? And then it building over the years and MC’s guilt and Id’s resentment and both of them thinking the other can’t stand to be around them but that could not be farther from the truth it’s just a fucking MESS

Id thinking MC still holds a torch for Leith. Them holding a torch for MC. MC thinking things with Id are broken beyond repair after what happened to them.