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Eliasmichael headcanons

[I rotated the concept of Og!Elias and Michael a bit too intensively in my head, and this was the aftermath I put down on paper, containing my most self-indulgent headcanons.]

Eliasmichael...they could be so pathetic for each other for a lot of fucking reasons. It's literally just angst if you look under the surface. It's lovely.

-> supernatural trauma for both of them: one resulted in relentless knowledge and answer-seeking, with an affinity for the Watcher, the other fears the Eye, because he saw his friend be taken by it, and got so deeply marked that he still walks into the open arms of Jonah Magnus...

-> identity issues: Elias has trauma from home, the treatment he got for simply being trans, so he walks away with such low self-esteem, that he can't stop proving himself to everyone. That, of course, doesn't allow him to show any weakness.

Michael's nonbinary, but refuse to think about it too much because he just wants to fit in, so he's mostly still just confused. He's unlucky enough to also experience dysphoria, because he can't, and doesn't even know how to dress the way he wants, he's bothered by his height, his hair (long or short, sometimes doesn't matter), his facial hair, and everything that makes other people assume, but he still thinks he doesn't care enough for it to mean anything. Results in some pretty unhealthy eating habits.

-> unavoidable faith: Michael being led to his end by threads of the Web and not knowing for the last moment, Elias deep down knowing so well what awaits and still unable to do anything against it.

-> running away: Elias wants to hide and forget where he came from, and Michael still reminds him of it, because he thinks Elias deserves to be treated how he was meant to be, so he can unintentionally use Elias to hide even more from his own life, failure, issues.

-> weed and anxiety meds.

#tma #spiralweed #og elias bouchard #michael shelley #elias/michael #this was some intense rotating and mostly left unedited #so maybe don't look #tw mental health

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