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musicrunsthroughmysoul · 1 year

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As much as I've been feeling like a shitty friend lately just kidding I always feel that way. Phew! Is it the insecurity? Probably! Yep, I better fucking work on that, because god damn that is my own fucking problem! No sarcasm, not to toot my own horn but just these past two/three days I've finally felt like I've been a really great friend and said some really awesome shit to them to make them feel supported and :') ...god. God damn. It's just really nice when the words work for me again, and I can finally think of exactly what I intend to say to my friends. Because (as I implied earlier) I do often feel like what I have to offer them is highly inadequate in comparison to what they offer me in our friendship, and since words and being thoughtful (and patient and a good listener) are, I feel, my best qualities that I can offer my friends, it feels so good when all parts of those things finally feel like enough to me. Fuck. It's better than drugs or whatever else people think is the pinnacle of the human experience. lol

I'm just. :') I love my friends so much and I always endeavor to properly convey that to them. Which also means I feel especially shitty when I think or feel like I've failed to do so! Ahhh I am...truly fragile! and insecure, or whatever.

#crystal visions of lilies in the valley #hey if you're wondering how I view vulnerability and why saying this sort of stuff doesn't feel like it has the same objectionable weight #in vulnerability to me as other stuff - don't worry! you're not alone! because damn I wonder how I rationalize this too! LOL #this is about to be me tomorrow: HELLO PSYCHOLOGY? I HAVE SOME QUESTIONS. 😂

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zizidowntherabbithole · 4 months

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La Mia Piccola Amante

The list Bucky is given has a decent amount of 'fetishes' or 'kinks'. He's just supposed to circle, yes, no, or maybe. And then they can chat in person about it later on. Alpine jumps up on him, seating her furry ass right on the papers.

"This mean you think it's a bad idea?" he asks. He cuddles her, resting his chin on her fuzzy head while looking at the kinks.

He just has to circle, yes, no, maybe, and write any additional notes or questions on the side somewhere.

Impact Play: Light to moderate impact play? (Yes) Roleplaying: Will you dress up and chase me around as ghostface :) Foot Fetish: hard(no) Anal sex: Well obviously (yes) Lingerie: I'd wear pretty panties for you :) (yes) Group Sex: Hard fucking (no) Sensation play: (Maybe) Orgasm control: (yes) Bondage: (maybe) Psychological play: (maybe) Voyeurism and exhibitionism: (maybe) Cuckolding: This isn't the same as voyeurism? (maybe) Erotic Humiliation: (maybe) Sprectrophilia: Ghostface doesn't count (no) Dominance and Submission: Isn't that the whole point? (yes) Autonepiophilia: I'll call you Daddy but I'm not gonna act like a baby during sex (no) Urophilia: No piss, or bodily fluids (no) Sadism and Masochisim: a very light (maybe) Wax play: Waxing my hair off is the least kink shit I've ever heard (no) Age play: Daddy Dom/Little Boy but not acting like a baby (yes) Stranger play: I've fucked many strangers so (maybe) Electrostimulation: (maybe)

Bucky just fills it out honestly, will some googling here and there. He texts Brock a picture of Alpine laying on his filled out list.

Bucky: Hai Brock: What is that? Bucky: My kitty cat Brock: Oh? Bucky: You don't like cats? Brock: Cats are fine, I didn't take you as a cat person. Bucky: I'm very much a cat person. My only interaction with anything outside of work, is my cat. Bucky: oh and natasha Brock: Mhm Brock: Do you need something, baby? Bucky: I sent you a picture of my list:( Brock: With a cat ontop of it Bucky: I FILLED OUT MY LIST Brock: Your ability to brat through Imessage is impressive Bucky: 'imessage'😂 Bucky: the way I brat through text is impressive Brock: Very. Bucky: When can I see you? Brock: I will let you know. Bucky: that's not an acceptable answer Brock: It's the answer you're getting. I will let you know Bucky: Today? Tomorrow? A week from now? He waits a few minutes, playing with Alpine, getting no text.

Bucky: Are you ingoring me??? Bucky: Hello?

Bucky: DADDY! Brock: Yes? Bucky: You answered 😁 Brock: Such a brat. I don't know. I'm at work right now, baby. I will let you know when we can talk in person soon. Bucky: But 🥺 Brock: Nope. I'll call you tonight before bed, okay? Bucky: 🥺 Brock: Bye James.

Brock can't help but smile at his phone. Bucky is a brat, but he isn't a bad brat. He converses quietly with Rollins, before finishing up and going home. He does still do work for the mob, but not as much as he used to. He more or less just organises the drug trafficking.

Otherwise he works as a SHIELD Agent. Gives a nice rush, brashing people's faces in legally.

Bucky has now sent him a text message of nothing but this '🥺' emoji. multiple times. "Oh, James," he shakes his head. He can't tell if he's horny or if he's just being a brat because it's fun.

As promised, Brock calls Bucky before bed. That being nine thirty pm. Bucky picks up and gives him a confused face. "Why're you calling me so early?" he asks. The camera shuffles around and he can hear as Bucky walks around, the camera is lazily angled up at his jaw.

"Because this is before bed," Brock says.

"Hah you're one of those old men that go to bed at nine thirty," Bucky snickers. "Mmmm, I'm not going to bed yet," he says, "I have a box of wine and grey's anatomy to binge watch."

"No, I don't always go to bed at nine thirty, I work interesting hours. But I do know that you are a Vet Assistant, and you're going to get up how early? Four, five am?"

Bucky lifts the camera to his eyes, glaring and huffing. "That's so rude. I have plans and you're trying to ruin them."

"Binge drink boxed wine and watch Grey's Anatomy?" Brock asks. "Very important plans, I see. But no. Put the wine back. Turn the TV off. You're gonna hate yourself if you drink all that. And you'll be up all night pissing, won't get any sleep, and be a very very grumpy little brat in the morning."

Bucky gasps, looking at him bitterly. Brock smiles to himself, he knows that look. The look in Bucky's eyes like a bratty sub that know they're going to give in one way or another. And, come on, it's for Bucky's health, and mental wellbeing.

"Don't give me that look, little brat. Do as I ask."

Bucky nods, quiet but not bratty. He turns off the tv, puts the wine back, and picks up his cat. He sits down on a bed and Brock rolls his eyes.

"No, up, brush your teeth. Wash your face. Put your hair up. Don't go to bed without doing that." Bucky pouts and Brock just quirks a brow. It's almost fun to watch the submissive want to give up control wash over Bucky's face.

He sets the phone down, doing a short but good enough bedtime routime. "Better?" he grumbles, showing Brock his teeth.

"Much," he says. "Good boy."

Bucky lets out the tiniest, sweetest little whimper. "Noo, that't not fair," he whines.

"Oh?" Brock, the son of a bitch, laughs at him.

"Noo, not fair because you're being all dommy and putting me to bed," he huffs. His COCK is hard now. He's pretty easy to get aroused, sure. But Brock is trying to get him turned on, only to put him right in bed.

"Shh, watch your tone, little brat," he says. "Get in bed now. You sleep with you cat?"

He shakes his head no, only sometimes does Alpine sleep with him. He gets under the covers in his bed. It's a twin bed in a tiny little bedroom, but it's cosy.

"Set your phone down, don't hang up, I'll hang up later," Brock says. Bucky hums, he does find himself growing a bit more sleepy while Brock talks to him. He gets up at four am so he can get ready and commute. He only works for days a week, but he does have to wake of early tomorrow, and he did wake up early this morning as well.

He sets down his phone and cuddles up under the blankets.

"Good boy," Brock says. "Close your eyes, relax your muscles." He does as he's asked. Brock waits a few moments because he cant see him, but he knows Bucky is being a good boy. "Good boy," he says, "just listen to my voice."

And Bucky drifts off to sleep.

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