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#there is not enough words to explain how cruel quiverfull parents are to their oldest daughter
im2tired4usernames · 3 months
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God I never get a fuckin break from being a housewife to a house that's not mine or a parent to children that are not mine
#not even ten minutes#I'm tired#my fuckin dad gets so much miss freetime then me and my mom is probably in hell if it's real#though i guess by christan standards she was an amazing cultist so maybe she will be in heaven#I am drained i wake up with no spoons but froce myself anyway to continue playing this role#there is not enough words to explain how cruel quiverfull parents are to their oldest daughter#they demand all of them#all their energy all their thoughts their time their money everything that is a person belongs to the family#i would have no friends no relationship no life if they had their way my only allowed interest is what serves the family#my mom was a monster#a cultist bitch who did nothing but bully me my whole life and groomed me into a slave#my dad was a coward to never stand up to her and incredibly selfish#he's benefits from my trauma because now i am just built in nannybot#i can not think of my mother's face with out getting angry and wanting to punch her#i think of her in her bed and i want to wrap my hands around her throat and tell her how she did nothing good in my life and how#it'll take years for me to heal from her bullshit and that if i have grandkids they will not hear her name from my lips#i know to many people who should not be having children but continue to have children because their stupid cishet fucks#who like unprotected sex and want a perfect lil on the prarie life#ignoring that half them fuckers are the shittest parents and or the most immature selfish pieces of shit#when you have a child you cant be selfish anymore#that child comes first sorry you cant stay up all night drinking and going to concerts and races#your new entertainment is whatever the fuck you kid likes of that's barney then fuck it your watching barney#you want a new game system well clean clothes for your kids come first#i see so many kids in my church neglected because they're parents are more interested in paying for their own interests then kid shoes#i would have been a great mother i feel like#if i had been allowed a childhood#and teenage years and young adult years to grow and experience life to learn to grow and to enjoy being alive instead of being free labor#now if i ever get free?#I'll be getting see what it's like to he a normal 15 year old at 50#if i get free i have very little hope for my future but who knows we'll see
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