no. no but you don't GET it. harrow saw gideon KILL herself for her. and she screamed and screamed and could not stop. and cytherea tried to kill everyone because cristabel died for her for no reason. and john killed mercymorn and augustine because they turned against him and they didn't love him anymore. and camilla nearly killed herself just to see palamedes again until they both killed their own selves to fuse together. and nona killed herself even though she didn't want to because she knew it was the right thing to do because she loved people so much. and pyrrha dve is alive and she watched everyone she loved or learned to love die.