#the real reason one mustn't do those ''well I'll stop messaging first and see what happens'' is because in some cases that rly is the end
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fwiw i will allow myself a parting moment of undignified whining
clearly the mistake i made was believing others are as invested or interested as i am, i don’t know. i’ve made some truly remarkable connections here that have since obviously moved beyond this website but also i’ve formed what are very obviously unrequited relationships.
i’ve always taken great pride in being the person to check in and message first and keep writing because i remember being on the receiving end of that very many years ago and it’s who i want to be but i simply cannot do it any longer, i can no longer tolerate people who forget to reply for a week and then don’t.
to reiterate again, this is also clearly my fault for getting too invested. sorry i find you all really interesting, sorry i find your thoughts worth reading, sorry i thought u were worth starting a conversation with, sorry i thought i was supposed to be involved. wish i could reblog some pictures and not care, but i guess im not on enough behavioral medication for that
this truly all started when i recognized a decade ago that i had to be better and then just ??? did ??? through discipline and learning from people i looked up to both in real life and on here, because ultimately we do all overshare and it is sincere and intimate cringe as that may be.
“sorry everything doesn’t revolve around you !! i have a life” yeah well literally everyone does as well and they’re managing.
some of you have truly been exceptional and have raised the bar higher than i could have hoped and i’m very glad you did and we will under no circumstances fall out of touch because i know neither of us will let that happen.
parasocial relationships ended with mutuals i once called besties. now swimming and reading are my best friends
#uh oh you posted something serious you are going to lose subscriber#the real reason one mustn't do those ''well I'll stop messaging first and see what happens'' is because in some cases that rly is the end#sowing in tears so by god i may reap in joy#i should not have gone to that concentration camp this weekend look where it's put me
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