40 mil is the highest points i've had for gw ever tbh so i am proud of myself so far <3 also !! almost rank 175 >;D

anyways hi just small update/rambles uhm. i've been more productive w school but also school ew !!! and 6.3 is so fucking soon holy shit i am not ready at all & i hope this week i can finally start omori and/or p4g <33

First therapy appointment is Friday morning. I'm shitting my pants bc I've been doing really well and feeling like myself the past few days so now I have no idea where to start when she asks what I need help with. I have work with Adam on Thursday though and I might ask if there's anything he thinks in particular I should mention since he's witnessed many breakdowns lately, and also if I can maybe meet him for a dog walk on Friday afternoon to tell him about it bc I don't want to be sitting at home overanalysing it all and beating myself up, and he's gonna want to know how it goes but it's hard to have any kind of meaningful conversation at work tbh, especially on a Saturday afternoon. Is that weird? I don't think it is. He meets up with people from other stores all the time. And I said we were walking in the dene by his house the other day and I was tempted to ask him to fetch the dogs out and meet us and he was like oh you should have!! And he gave me a lift home the other night and drove straight past my house bc he was too busy talking so it would be nice to have actual time to just talk. So idk I'm gonna at least ask bc I really can't be spending half my shift telling him about my therapy in the middle of a busy supermarket lmao. Idk how I'm gonna manage this week leading up to the appointment though bc it's only Sunday and I'm already so nervous 🤢