#tbfh i shouldnt still be salty about not being able to make friends for whatever reason bc most of the fandom seems so toxic anyway but | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

isa-ghost · 2 years

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me watching all the jse people flood back to my notes/inbox from the depths of lurking and newbies following me bc of shitposts & hype about the probably-distant future, and then looking at how almost 3 years of tryharding to get dsmp mutuals/friends has gotten me like... 2 acquaintances, even during the most active times in the fandom

man, it really is true that most people cant escape whatever their blog “mained” first huh 🤪

#this is a rant/vent kind of i guess #dont reblog is what im saying #but uh #i mean ive always been multifandom i just hyperfixed on the egos #and im not trying to escape the jse community ofc #actually this post is more like. praising the jsec for being so?? involved and friendly? whereas in my exp the dsmp fandom is.....#prob triple the amount of people than the jsec and yet its fuckin crickets. talking to ppl hasnt made any friends #shitposting does nothing predictions abt lore has done nothing memes do nothing. like. ive been so involved in stuff and nah.#its like that meme where the people at the party are staring at you in mild disgust #and a lot of them prob wont even like you bc the fandom is so opinionated abt dif ccs and interpretations of story and whatnot??#idk how to describe it without sounding like the gross kid bitching that he cant make friends w the ''pretty popular girls'' or smth #but like. the same things i did that got me SO MANY friends in the jsec has done fuckall in the dsmp fandom #like how the fuck do you make friends in there seriously bc nothing has done much even when i keep trying to talk to people #i end up just feeling like im annoying them. basically anyone who likes dsmp whos a friend of mine was/is in the jsec before #shoutout to the jsec for being so welcoming and flooding right back to their fave blogs and stuff when we get crumbs of content abt anything #bc the dsmp fandom has been so distant if not straight up unwelcoming in my exp on literally any platform ive tried making friends on #like shoutout to the 2 or so friends that i Kind Of made in the dsmp fandom without knowing them from the jsec first?? but fuck the dsmpf #tbfh i shouldnt still be salty about not being able to make friends for whatever reason bc most of the fandom seems so toxic anyway but #i cant help but scoff at people who are like Its So Easy To Make Friends In The Dsmp Fandom Just Do Xyz Forehead 🤪🤪#guess what my fucking guy ive done the entire alphabet and its done nothing for very close to 3 years #idk how YOU did it but it didnt work for me and ive prob done the same shit #luck or whatever i guess #anyway tldr im a little more than miffed that i can BREATHE in the jsec and everyone comes back and new people arrive from little to nothing #but try EVERYTHING for 3 years and meet like. 2 people. in the dsmp fandom. who i dont rlly even talk to much #bc i try to and its a 50/50 if that goes anywhere and i end up feeling like im just bugging them or coming off weird somehow even tho i know #im def not being weird or invasive or uncomf or smth #im very careful abt that #so yeah uh shoutout to jsec i love yall undyingly and fuck the dsmpf bc ive tried it all and even the people i HAVE made contact with i--#wouldnt call friends rlly. more like acquaintances if anything and i feel awkward as hell

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