the other day someone at work asked me for help installing a specific program. he can install it, but it stops executing right after he starts it. now i have absolutely no idea what could be causing this and i cant even reproduce the problem because every time i try it somewhere it works.

looked through some old drawings and fell over one of my old headworlds and the ocs in it...

todays appointment was not therapy adjacent but i kept tearing up and he told me we can stop if needed and i was like wdym this is just what its like all the time.

im always so envious if what other people do and are, but i think the problem is more that nothing i do is good enough or interesting enough so i have to be ashamed about it

HI

as far as good feelings go cooking something experimentally from leftovers and it turning out amazing is really up there

fun part about having an english name thats rather uncommon here at my workplace is that sometimes people will approach me and start talking to me in english bc they assume im not from here. like hi yes thats fine but also german is my native language.

im currently working with an intern who does EVERYTHING by asking chatgpt. he knows its not perfect and will tell you random bullshit sometimes. but hes allergic to looking up freely available documentation i guess.

more drawing practice today, when i start its always like nooo i dont wanna :( and then i ask myself. why? because its hard? and push through and it always gets easier after that.

i made a voice recording so i could play around pitching it down, and tbh its not even half bad (provided i dont panic and squeeze it out 2 octaves higher than it is when relaxed)

there are currently some efforts in my work group to analyze experiment data using machine learning, and the expert wanted to present his first attempts today. some 10 minutes in the scientists started arguing so much about whether or not the first practice dataset (made by one of them) accurately represents the experiment data that the expert barely managed to finish the presentation.

agh someone called me for work reasons, and i have call redirection set up to my private mobile. but i cant see that a call was redirected, and the guy was calling from his private phone, so i was just like "who the fuck is calling me".

agh i was having bad feelings about transition so i was like uh oh, then i realized that EVERYTHING was bad, and i suspect im mega anxious about next week and my brain has decided to push every button at once in response.

weird omelette time

(i had a hunch id fuck it up while turning so unfinished picture)

"mark for later" on ao3 really is "put it on a shelf and forget it exists" huh