ranting but this time more meta-level ghost transgenderisms.

i don't think i can explain why ghost's whole gender thing is so appealing to me. like even if i tried. but i'm gonna try anyway because it's like. ok. there's the obvious appeal of a performer intentionally dressing up much older/more masc than they actually are. which appeals to my drag king sensibilities and also made me go "ohhh this is how i wanna age, actually." and helped me while i was realizing how much i wanted and needed to transition (rats video had a formative impact on me ngl). but then there's also like.

as a character, copia has this wild stage charisma that's paired with a lot of awkward, repressed, insecure energy in the chapter videos that made me go like. ohhh. oh i think you're also going through it. possibly in a way similar to me. so when i write and post about copia, he tends to be holding back a lot of himself, and whether it's gender or sexuality related, that doesn't matter so much (tbh the likeliest reading of canon is that this energy is just because he's autistic but. he can be autistic And Also Closeted).

and then we have these meta levels of drag. these LAYERS of drag. where tf is making himself look older and more masc to play this character who is in many ways very feminine. and does it in a way that feels absolutely earnest and natural. and that makes me scream. a lot. and the chapters are so camp cringe comedy but they have so much heart and they are so sad if i think about them for more than five seconds. ghost is drag and it is drag that kills me, personally.