'nother warrior cats design challenge!!

I always wanted to give breezepelt a little ponytail, for no reason, so i'm glad i finally could draw him

[ID: four designs drawn digitally for four cats from Warrior Cats. From left to right, they are Crowfeather, Hollyleaf, Breezepelt and Nightcloud.

Screenshot of a tweet by @/snmenji that reads "warrior cat artist challenge: draw crowfeather, breezepelt, hollyleaf and nightcloud on the same canvas to test your design flexibility (emoji of a coffin)". End ID.]

hi it's your secret santa! first of all HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! i hope you have a wonderful day! how are you celebrating, if you are at all? safely, i hope! either way i hope you manage to find a way to have a great day full of love!! consider my christmas gift a belated birthday gift as well lol. anyway i loved reading your last answer, it was so thoughtful and sweet. i realized after reading that i barely know anything about dove lol so follow up q: what about dove makes you love her so much?

sorry for the late response! the last couple days have been v busy and ive been super tired and dissociative on top of it so i made a point to save this bc i wanted to give it my full attention!

first of all thank you!! i was going to do a virtual meet and greet with one of my favs from jersey boys but he got confused about timezones so we rescheduled but were doing it next week! then i went to a virtual walt disney family museum panel, had pizza for dinner and watched some liv and maddie, my mom made a cookie cake that we ate while watching the grinch musical, and then some friends and i watched the jersey boys movie together over skype!

im so glad you enjoyed reading my last answer! and oof thats another loaded question (i love it tho)

- like i said when first talking about what drew me to her and liv and maddie, a big thing is just how much passion and love she puts into her characters. ofc she puts passion into every character she plays, but its the passion she puts into characters like liv, maddie, and mal that means the most to me. that goes back to the fact that ive dealt with a lot of negativity directed towards me for enjoying disney channel, and then you have dove out here saying “yah im a teenager/twenty-something who not only respects what theyre doing on disney channel, but puts my all into it” not to mention she even won an emmy for playing liv and maddie in season 4! i hope that passion and talent has started to change the conversation about disney channel, and tbh i think it has at least a bit.  ofc, none of this is to say other people her age acting on disney channel arent talented and passionate, but idk, something about her has always stood out to me. i find her to be more animated and expressive than most. it can be hard for me to read emotions in live action movies and shows, so thats been really important for me. not to mention she was not only playing the lead but TWO lead characters on a four season show with distinct personalities but also subtle similarities. AND the main character in the biggest DCOM franchise in years for 5 years running now. PLUS the fact that there was a period where those were both happening at the same time. she was only 16 when she started all this and hadnt even had any big roles prior to it!! she had a lot of responsibility so it was amazing to see her not only pull it off, but excel at it.

- i just love like....her aesthetic?? shes always seemed to be a very old soul to me, into old jazz music and poetry and stuff like that. its just very charming. and for her to have that aesthetic on top of being a disney channel actress is a fascinating juxtaposition.

- this is kind of sappy and it gets tiring to hear it said over and over again but that doesnt mean it isnt true: i love how transparent she is about her struggles with mental health issues, trauma, and such. she has been for a long time but even more so over the last year or two. no shade to anyone else, but a lot of actors dont really give you a look into their personal lives, they just share and promote their product. im not saying theres anything wrong with that, its good to know what youre comfortable sharing, ive just felt all the more close to her with her being as open as she is, especially as someone who has gone through trauma myself, albeit different from hers.

- kind of connected to that, i love how important spreading kindness, positivity, and love is to her. thats another thing thats been said a million times but still, its very important to me.

for example. she’ll randomly tweet things like “i love you” a lot. im one to always think of the thought process that goes on behind whatever someone posts, texts, etc., bc personally i put a lot of a thought into pretty much anything i say or do before i put it out there publicly, probably bc of my social anxiety. even tho its a simple statement and takes her a couple seconds to post, she still had to have the thought “i want to remind my fans that theyre loved” or something along those lines. and she has this thought FREQUENTLY. to just randomly get a notification every few days or weeks or so of her saying something like that is just very heartwarming to me.

the reason i connected with miley so much when she helped me through my initial trauma was bc it felt like even if no one loved me, she loves her fans, thus she loves me. thus the person i love and admire the most loves me. even if its only one person, it can be enough. it was for me at the time. i feel that same way with dove. when she came into my life, i didn’t feel as unloved, but her love was still helpful to me.

- of course i need to specifically talk about her kindness in person too. dont get me wrong (ive been saying that a lot havent i lol), i totally and completely loved her long before i met her, but naturally, i love her 10x more after the experiences ive had getting to know her in person.

i could go ONNNNNNN about the experiences ive had with her, and i have lol, and if you already heard me ramble about this in the server i apologize, but the most important thing ive taken away from every encounter ive had with her is this: she always goes the extra mile. she always goes out of her way to make people feel special. what i mean by that is she could say/do HALF as much as she has when meeting me and i would still leave over the moon feeling loved. you can tell she does this in excess bc she really truly means it and cares about people like me, she doesnt have any kind of ulterior motive and isnt just going through the motions doing whats asked of her, she simply cares about me and the rest of her fans. some examples - the first time we met, i was sobbing (lol) and she hugged me for a really long time, rocking me back and forth, brushing my hair with her thumb, calling me sweetheart and honey. she even started to tear up a bit herself. - a couple months later, i went to my first liv and maddie taping. i was preparing to reintroduce myself (i looked a little different bc id been cosplaying as maddie the first time i met her) and ofc when preparing myself, i fantasized pretty heavily as i usually do and pictured myself showing her the pic of us on my phone, her gasping, jumping out of her chair screaming, and hugging me, thinking that was probably way more than i was gonna get. that is EXACTLY what happened. then she went on to tell me how my costume made her whole weekend. things like this would continue to happen where i would set the bar impossibly high and not only would she meet it but she’d exceed it. - our usual interaction from there on would start with her face lighting up when she saw me, her calling me some kind of cute name like love or baby, and then hugging me without me even having to initiate it. - when i saw her in mamma mia, i didnt know when id be seeing her again afterwards after pretty consistently getting to see her for 2 years, so i wanted to make sure we got some kind of closure. at the stage door, i reminded her how much she meant to me and just expected like an “aww i love you too” or something back, but she said “you are an angel in my life” and i will never forget that. obvs, i havent told her ALL the details about what she and her characters mean to me but like...she can tell. she can tell if im in a homemade maddie costume sobbing into her arms that theres something there, and shes VERY appreciative of that. - i thankfully got to see her at a meet and greet a few months later and every time i thought i should get going cuz i didnt want to hold the line up, she would just open her arms for another hug. speaking of being appreciative, she even said “thank you for being such a supportive fan.” as i left, i turned around to say one last goodbye. i made sure she wasnt with the next fan yet and yelled out “bye!” and she yelled back “I LOVE YOU!!” and blew me a kiss. again, its the little things. - i saw her at a small panel in new york a few months after that. she walked in the room when the lights were down as they were playing a clip, she quietly waved hi to everyone, then saw me and loudly whispered HI BABY!!! and stopped on her way to the stage to give me a hug. (then she looked at me from the stage and asked which way i thought she should cross her legs for the interview lol) - sometimes when she sees im next in line, shell give me a knowing smile or whisper “hi baby!!” or something like that. she saw me in the crowd after clueless and seemed to make a point to come to me last bc she knew wed be talking for a while, which we did. she even told me she’d seen me in the audience, asking if i was in the front on the left, which i was.

even all that is still just scratching the surface. weve “known” each other for 5 years now and every time i think she’s done the most she can do, she outdoes herself again. not to mention when im at these events, i see her treat all the fans she meets with all of that kindness too. naturally all of this has made me love her all the more.

- finally, lets just be honest here..........................shes REALLY fucking hot.

i feel like you faintly rt about your past relationships as a gag, i mean go for it do as you’d like but a lot hint suggestions that these tweets pass by reinstate the current ex situation and bam rted wtvr i guess i’m just in awe again like damn really just rt that weeeiiirrrdddd but like i said go for it that’s why i addressed it and was like this is weird for me and since you probably creep i bet you see reference pointed tweets from me too and i could say you play the same idealogy or ideals whatever term is suppose to be used.. i woke up from a really strange dream it wasn’t about us it was about a strange incident involving a friend and a police officer idk wtf.. anyways i bet you worked a double today and it was long and slow or probably hectic and then you came home did stretches and dabbed shit iono anymore probably went to alex’s :/ i’m just in despair st the thought that we would hang out and i’d crack your back and massage you the best i could.. but it’s on to the next for you.. for me i just contemplate my moments within myself oh but i should just look and wonder my fulfillment with the next idk to me restarting this whole love cycle again is a bit weird for me and i don’t choose nor want to or desire it idk bout you betting this is easy with friends around and their friends popping up and persuading you for a glass and then everything goes that way and you probably indulge on the effort of them..

i mean you added a whole bunch of people you know i didn’t like.. pretty quickly as soon as i was out of the picture kind of a hint reference for rebound well to me wtvr ________ if this is you and you bts desired this sick game of yours... “yeah i’m finally not controlled by you anymore so there’s that” i mean what did i control you from during our time..? like the last month of it what did i say? i don’t ever remember bringing up what to wear? no make up issues? it’s like everything from month prior to that destroyed your beliefs and made you feel like i was going to say things of such degree.. like i wasn’t growing up from it.. “you didn’t have to say anything it’s just in your eyes” really... so it’s assumption same as to your idea of me posting fotos of “you” for some one else to “look” and like... like what do i gain? some subliminal sex ?? i don’t even want anything if i could get what i wanted i’d fucking come to you and tell you i’m sorry tell you everything and then come home as to our relationship finally being closed.. but does it even matter anymore to you.. it just seems like you toy with the idea that if we did talk your friends would imply your stupid for it or that you’re wasting your time and then your own ideas out fogged because you’re going by someone else’s but whatever i’m just stressed out by this and each day i could just kill myself and mute this whole deal as it’s not being taken seriously.. i mean you text break up with me.. and im the “pussy” when i did these things do you see how you are and how st times i’ve played the vice versa role and everything i do is ten times worse or is it just a one sided idea of things for you..? whatever as to you either reading this or not nothing matters feelings don’t matter being a decent human being don’t ... but i wonder it’s funny to me like who hit you up when you had that feeling was it cody? anthony? or lol i’m just astonished cause this is all i can relay slash communicate with you on i don’t wanna text you anymore i mean i do but you vividly hate me to the point where if it was emergency my mind fogs it as you just brushing it off and not caring.. “oh he’s just being extra” yeah this part of life sucks a heartbreak a really constant heartbreak and realization plus maybe this acid isn’t doing much but making me loopy within

i mean i don’t think about u when i’m on it what i do think about is what i see on the internet on twitter the misogyny the subtle hints and degrading im just astonished by the culture and what surrounds our beings with negativity or racism but racism rests within negativity and idk why i get this feeling but i feel that you feel me never mind yeah i’m weird ________ and you just find me open and humiliating on here

people tell me well why don’t you just jump in the pool again and start dating i void it take it in as in i’d do something like that and honestly tell myself who i am and that it’s not something to just jump back in and expect a difference it’s within me that needs to effort itself to work and be better.. but still i don’t wanna jump in the pool again .. i know things are easier for you but to me i envision something baffling and childish to you.. yeah i still envision something stupid

i should just kill myself as to me being unhappy and never getting over this feeling i try so hard to fog you ________ i try writing slash typing reading music i don’t play video games anymore with a nintendo switch just lying around i just work and that doesn’t fog you either because girls replicate your looks and im just saddened because i do think well wtf are you doing are you really trying to hurt me oh no that’s her can’t be is it..? ugh oh it’s not pheeww

but i mean i probably am not the only who felt this way when separated from you.. idk what to _______ i’m happy this is easier for you.. but this shit just keeps descending and refilling me with depressions so often i’d rather just vanish as a whole.. like yeah i’d kill myself id find a way and just forget this whole thing together and all that’s left are these sad posts my phone laptops and a few polaroids of you me the beach

i can’t say it’s you

i dan say i’ve been feeling this way for years prior to you i mean everything hit me when i was 18 and the first every anxiety attack or existential crisis was when i was 16 and i felt so alone and i felt that way till about hmmm 19? sand they would be in n out in n out then we got together and i would have them but i’d be in a better state and you’d be there st times too.. but who cares about how i feel especially on a forum dedicsted about sad shit..