and i never know what to say till i'm already walkin' away...

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Claiming Of The Cro

[I pulled into Teller-Morrow with one screaming little girl and a little boy who decided that kicking the back of my seat would be fun.] Jameson Dean! ENOUGH! [I got out of the car and unbuckled my monster boy from his car seat. "Mama, Daddy's not here!" I faked another smile and put my son on my hip.] I know, but Grandma is and I need her to help me with sissy. [My son is smart as a whip, but there are times I wish he wasn't. "Make her stop cryin' Mama! She's loud!" I kissed my son's head as Gemma came into view. "Goodness Tabby Lu, she's testing her lungs out today." I sighed and let Gemma unload my screaming baby girl.] I've tried everything, Aunt Gem. I'm so tired and I have to be at work in an hour. [Gemma kissed my cheek and nodded toward the clubhouse. "I've got the kids, go relax for a bit." I nodded and went inside the clubhouse. What I saw to begin with was Clay sipping on a beer and people that I didn't know. What I wasn't ready for was to be cornered by one of them. I couldn't get away and of course, Clay just sat there. It didn't surprise me, but I was pissed off.] GET OFF OF ME! I'm a damn Delaney you asshole! [I heard the Harleys as my jeans and panties were pushed down. Tears rolled down my cheeks as my son jumped up and down running full speed for his daddy. "DADDY!" I hoped that @OfHarleysNCros could make this stupid asshole leave me alone.]

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Not Again

[My hands shook violently as I pulled into my dad's driveway. He met me before I could even park my car. "Mija, I'm so sorry, everyone will be here soon." I got out of my car and wrapped my arms around my adoptive father, Marcus Alvarez. He adopted me after I was sent to foster care when I was five. My biological father, Jesus Vargas was his best friend and VP when I was really little. My father was on death row in Stockton for killing my mother and her boyfriend at the time for abusing me. When I got to work this morning I got a call from the warden that my father was beaten to death in the showers very early this morning.] I DO NOT want Angel here, Papi. [Marcus kissed my hair and whispered. "I know and he won't be. Mijo! Come get your sister huh?" I was confused, but I couldn't form words. Then I hit my knees as my older brother Esai stood in the garage watching me. "J Bug, what's wrong? Did you spend way too much time in Santo Padre? You look like you've seen a ghost." I couldn't move but I was picked up off the driveway by Esai. "J, seriously what's wrong with you?" I looked up at Esai and shook my head.] You died! SAMCRO stabbed you in the head and Papi paid them! [Esai held me tight. "Pop! Angel told her SAMCRO killed me. You wanna call Charming and get Teller here? That's why she disappeared on us." As soon as I was brought into the house I could smell all the wonderful food being cooked. "Esai! She looks sick. Marcus! What did you do to our baby?" My mother the only one that mattered other than Gemma Teller. "Mama, Angel was telling her lies this whole time. She thought Pop had me killed by SAMCRO." My hands were shaking as I listened to my mother. GOOD GOD! NO! Juliana Marie, you know your Papi wouldn't do that! Jax wouldn't either he's your best friend. He knows how much Esai means to you. Is that why you haven't said anything to anyone in a few years?" I nodded and hugged my knees.] I left him, Mama. I left Angel. [I was pulled into a hug and my mother's soft voice soothed me. "For more than the lies?" I swallowed back a sob as I answered her question.] He got someone else pregnant. [The roar of Harleys in the driveway made me want to hide. Not only was my biological father killed, but I'd just broken my own heart all over again having to tell my family that my marriage was over. "Mija, someone is here to see you." I groaned.] Papi, I really don't... [I stopped talking when white Nikes came into view. I lifted my eyes and saw @ofcrosnangst standing at the end of the couch.] Jax!

Breaking Point

[As I sat on the bed that I shared with @HellOnAHarley, I blinked at his question. He was willing to expand our house so Esai and @ofwhispersncros could stay with us. There were so many questions I had, but the one that screamed at me was loud and clear.] Are you sure that you want to do that? I’m not saying that I don’t want that. I do. It’s just that Esai is going to need a lot of care. All of the time, baby. He wasn’t fucking breathing that day, I have no idea how he’s sitting on our couch right now taking care of DJ like he always has. The urge to murder Diana is strong right now. [I was going to say more when I heard Esai yell for me letting me know that @ofsnarknflames was here. I popped my head around the corner and sure enough, Suzie was on the couch with Esai. I smiled and walked out to the living room and of course, Suzie had her questions. Once she was satisfied with my answers I knew that she would go find @hellonaharley and ask him all the same things. I sat next to Esai and yelled for @ofwhispersncros.] BUBBA! Come here, I want to ask you a question! [Esai smacked my thigh playfully. “Loud ass! He isn’t deaf!” I laughed and rolled my eyes.] You act like you’re new here. When am I not loud? [Esai laughed. “Well, uh, do you really want me to answer that?” My mouth fell open and I smacked Esai on the arm.] Esai Marcus John Alvarez! Jesus! [Esai pulled me across his lap as he laughed. “Hey! You asked, Mama!” I smiled as @ofwhispersncros put my legs on his lap once he sat on the couch. “Yes? What’d I do sissy?” [I’d forgotten that Tommy was most likely still adjusting to being here.] You didn’t do anything, Bubba I just have a question that I need to ask both of you and I didn’t want to repeat myself. Jax would like to build an addition to the house so that both of you can live with us. I wanted to know if you two would be okay with this. The idea of letting either one of you out of my sight makes me ill, but you guys have the option to say no. [The thought that either one would leave was causing my hands to shake and my head to hurt. @ofwhispersncros pulled me closer to him wrapping his arms around me. He knew what was going on, but no one else here did. “Take a deep breath, Lexi Grace. You’re safe and I’m not leaving you. I’m pretty sure Esai isn’t either. Just breathe can you do that?” Tommy has done this a few times in my life, but this time there wasn’t a steel door between us and he was holding me tight. I tried to steady myself and make it easier for me to speak. Esai knew about these moments but this was the first time that he had to witness it. Then a familiar comforting scent hit my nose. @gemmaroserp was home. I bolted from the couch and ran to the kitchen hugging her tightly.] Hi, Mommy. [I heard Tommy behind me but I wasn’t letting go. “Mom, she’s really raw, just hold her. She’s emotionally had it and her mind is telling her everyone is leaving her. She looked around and you weren’t there. I think she thought you left her.” Damn, Tommy wasn’t wrong, but I hated it that he was right.]

Doing What I Do Best

[Seeing that my best friend kept @ofwhispersncros from everyone broke my heart. I also knew that @gemmaroserp was struggling with it, so I sat at the table and wrote a grocery list. The only thing I know to do is to make a meal for my family. I needed something to keep my mind off of things. I walked up to @gemmaroserp handing her the list.] Here, I know how you get when you are upset. I'll stay with the kids you take one of the girls and get what I need to make dinner. I've got the kids don't worry about them, just be careful driving the wind is a little crazy today. When was the last time you had dinner with your god-daughter Gemma? I have a feeling I won't like the answer to the question so I'm going to fix the problem now. If you don't like that you can leave. I will not stand for you hating on the one person who allowed you to be her mother when she was not wanted by the one who gave birth to her. You know better, Gemma I know that you do.

First Day Nerves

[I'd been back in @oftellerblues' life for a few months now and when he saw that I knew my way around cars, trucks, and Harleys he offered me a job at the garage. I was hesitant about it, but it was more than I was making on my own. Nanny smiled as she looked me over. "You look nervous, baby love." I nodded and hugged her tight.] I am, Nanny. I don't want to screw this up and let Bubba down. [Nanny laughed and patted my cheek. "Tommy, there's no need to worry. I know for a fact that you could break every damn thing in that garage and Jax would still love you. Have a little faith in your bubba. Give your mom a chance too. She's trying her damnedest for you." I hated that Nanny was right. I just wanted to be the best for @atellersbeaute. We weren't even a couple officially. I don't want her to decide that I wasn't worth her time.]

Long Overdue Gifts

Long Overdue Gifts

[I'd been struggling since Wendy passed away, but having @rebelofredwood back has helped me greatly. With everything going on, I dropped the ball in celebrating @ATellersBeaute's birthday and Tommy's. I wrapped up a lot of Reaper Crew gear for Tommy and I left a note for @atellersbeaute to swing by the house this morning because I still haven't told her that @rebelofredwood was alive. I figured that there would be no better birthday gift than that. When I heard cars in the driveway I grinned. Tommy was here which meant that @atellersbeaute would be here soon too. I opened the door to @rebelofredwood's confused face.] Hey, Bubba, I wanted to throw an impromptu birthday bash for you and someone else. Don't worry, you know her, you just haven't seen her since you got sick. I thought it would be a nice gift if you two were reunited. [I just had to wait for @atellersbeaute to get here in order to give @rebelofredwood the rest of his gifts.]

-- Empty cans and I'll be damned .

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Always Right There

[If you were lucky enough to grow up with SAMCRO then you were lucky. I was born into the Trager family, but my godparents did most of my raising. Having Luann and Otto Delaney taking care of me was the biggest blessing. When I got the text from @biteofchaos with an update about @ofpetalsnash, I cried. I cried for the fact that Kenny and Ellie were in the same boat I was in as a little kid. When I asked for something to do, Nan shot me a huge list of things that both kids would need.

“Teacup! Are you okay?”

I was so startled by Juice’s question I nearly dropped my damn phone.]

Shit! I’m sorry, yeah, I’m good. This shit with Kenny and Ellie is stirring up some bad memories for me.

[Juice wrapped his arms around my waist and kissed the side of my neck.

“I’m sorry, Teacup, I know this is hard for you. I promise you; it’ll all work out.”

I turned my head to look at Juice.]

Why do you call me Teacup?

[Juice laughed and kissed my neck again.

“I call you that because you’re small and cute. I could stuff you in my back pocket.”

I swatted at him gently.]

You ass!

[My comment was met with a gentle kiss.

“You love me, Teagan James.”

I did love the stupid ass especially when he could read like no one else.]

What’s your point, Carlos?

[The whisper in my ear made me turn bright red.

“My point is, I love you and I’m here for you. Even with the bad shit going on in your head? I’m right here, Teacup.”

I turned around and wrapped my arms around Juice as tight as I could.]

Thank you, I need that. Nan gave me a list of things to buy for the kids. Do you want to come with me?

[The smile Juice gave me made my heart race.

“There’s nowhere else I’d rather be, Teacup.”

If I didn’t love Juan Carlos Ortiz already, he certainly made sure that I was well on my way there.]

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Grasping At Memories

[I knew that my grandbabies were getting tired because of the way that they were clinging to me. Every time that I have the chance to watch them, I get a little sad because JT will never meet his grandbabies. When I went through the storage unit looking for things that @ofcrosnharleys and @ofinknsnark could use for Abel I came across the manuscript that JT had written after Thomas passed away. I sat there for hours reading. It wasn’t until I got the call from @ofcrosnharleys that they were going to stop by and get the kids.

Ever since I was attacked I have been grasping at the few things of my marriage to JT that I hold dear. Clay never knew that I kept a second storage unit with just JT’s things in it. He thinks that I threw everything out.

I was so wrapped up in reading that the knock on the door made me jump. When I pulled myself together, I walked over to the front door. I was confused as to why the kids would knock instead of just coming inside.

I opened the front door and saw a man with his back to me.]

Yes? Can I help you?