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2023 Writing Round-Up

Rules: Share what you wrote this year! It can be works you posted to Ao3, Wattpad, Tumblr, or anywhere else! You can share everything you wrote or just the ones you’re most excited about.

thank you @bidoofenergy for the tag :D it is, like. a little embarrassing to realize how obvious it is when the dndads hyperfixation started XD i opted for sharing everything, but i highlighted the best stuff (in my opinion) 👍 italics for stuff i love, bold and italics for my favorites. also a warning for a rare time that i link my nsfw fics from this account, mind the ratings

tagging: open tag!! do this if it seems fun. and @ me in it so i can see. pspspspspspsps

january

with words i thought i'd never speak | aftg, andrew/kevin (background kandreil) | <1k words, rated G

swamp talks | naddpod, hardwon & moonshine | 1k words, rated G

feburary

a sweet revelation | naddpod, beverly/erlin | 1.1k words, rated G

and still i will live here | drawtectives, grendan/york (background polytectives) | <1k words, rated G

march

this is your brand new brother | naddpod, jens & nyack | 2.8k words, rated T

(can you kiss me more?) | crossover (drawtectives & naddpod), grendan/hardwon (background polytectives) | 7.2k words, 3/3 chapters, rated T

i lie awake and dream about you | dndads, darryl/henry (one-sided) | 1.3k words, rated T

april

quiet morning | dndads, darryl/glenn/henry | <1k words, rated T

infinitesimal | dndads, nicky & taylor | 2.2k words, rated T

underneath this flickering light | dndads, henry & lark, lark/nicky | 2.1k, rated T

(beautiful beautiful beautiful) beautiful boy | dndads, nicky & taylor | 1.2k words, rated G

'cause now we don't sing so loud | dndads, grant & sparrow | 2.2k words, rated T

wolf time | dndads, henry & sparrow, lark & sparrow | 1.4k words, rated G

cotton candy | dndads, erica/scary | 1.2k words, rated T

give me a try | dndads, cassandra/nicky | 1.7k words, rated T

cracked lips and hands, calloused hands | dndads, lark/nicky | 5.5k words, rated E

a kiss good night | dndads, lark & normal, hero & lark | 2.2k words, rated G

so where do we begin? | dndads, glenn/henry | 6.3k words, rated T

may

there must be more than blood | dndads, lark & nick & sparrow | 2.2k words, rated T

handsome | dndads, henry & sparrow, lark & sparrow | 2.5k words, rated G

here (in your arms) | drawtectives, grendan/rosé/york | <1k words, rated T

the full moon. | dndads, lark & sparrow | 3k words, rated T

Divorced Dad Rock Mix | dndads, darryl/glenn | 5.4k words, 2/6 chapters, rated E

hard-boiled | dndads, nicky & sparrow | <1k words, rated T

june

later | dndads, carol & darryl | 1k words, rated T

your love is tried and true-blue | dndads, normal/scary | 4.7k words, rated T

smitten | dndads, jodie/ron | <1k words, rated T

july

existing filled with love and grace | dndads, autumn/ron's mom | 1.4k words, rated G

vanilla ice cream | dndads, lincoln/taylor | <1k words, rated T

familiar routines | dndads, jodie/morgan | <1k words, rated T

domestic bliss | dndads, nicky/terry | <1k words, rated G

never go to bed mad | dndads, nicky/sparrow | <1k words, rated G

you know i love you, right? | dndads, lark & normal | 3.2k words, rated T

august

skip to the good part | dndads, normal/scary | 1.9k words, rated G

soccer practice | dndads, lincoln/scary | <1k words, rated G

unconditional affection | dndads, autumn/ron's mom | <1k words, rated G

stick something in it | dndads, bill/willy | 2.9k words, rated E

dog show | dndads, jodie/ron | <1k words, rated G

these feelings, they're not gone | amphibia, anne/sasha | 2.9k words, rated G

rational and level-headed | dimension 20, cody/pete, maddie/pete | 2.9k words, 1/? chapters, rated T | collaboration with @poluche334 for podtogether :D

september

tying you to me | dndads, lincoln/normal | 1.1k words, rated G

i got a love that keeps me waiting | dndads, lark/nicky | 2.4k words, rated G

i guess it's half timing and the other half's luck | dndads, jodie/ron | 2.1k words, rated T

you've gotta join me on my page (at least take a look) | dndads, lincoln/taylor | 2.1k words, rated T

teenage dream | dndads, glenn/henry | 1.9k words, rated T

always | dndads, lark/rebecca (one-sided, background rebecca/sparrow) | 1.2k words, rated T

bright | dndads, erica/scary | 1.7k words, rated G

a crumpled dandelion | dndads, scary/taylor | 1.5k words, rated T

the first time that you called me 'baby' | dndads, jodie/ron | 2.4k words, rated T

a kindling, of sorts | dndads, hermie/normal | 1k words, rated G

some kind of miraculous bind | dndads, lincoln/normal/scary/taylor | 1.2k words, rated T

the raging sea | dndads, glenn/ron | 1.3k words, rated T

something about the stars | dndads, darryl/henry | 2.1k words, rated G

how can i help it if i think you're funny when you're mad? | dndads, darryl/glenn/henry | <1k words, rated T

in a crowded room, a true love displaced | dndads, normal/scary | 2.8k words, rated T

wanna be | dndads, lark/terry jr. | 1.2k words, rated M

october

i despise my jealous eyes (and how hard they fell for you) | dndads, normal/taylor | 5k words, rated T

and it's life or death to be my girl | dndads, jodie/morgan | 2.5k words, rated T

the red means i love you | dndads, normal/scary | 2.1k words, rated T

oh, darlin', don't you ever grow up | dndads, jodie & nicky | 1.4k words, rated T

november

and on our dates, it's never daytime | life series, gem/pearl | 3.8k words, rated G

ecstasy, tragedy, doom | dndads, lark/terry jr. | <1k words, rated G

i will take good care of you | dndads, lincoln/normal | 2.1k words, rated T

woke up young in lovers love | dndads, hermie/normal/scary | <1k words, rated T

hand in hand | dndads, jodie/ron | <1k words, rated G

[Podfic] Our Friends Do Not Look Fine | undertale | my friend @thefluxqueen invited me and arctic (not @.ing them because i dont talk to them a lot and i get embarrassed LOL) to collaborate on this podfic with them :D

december

nothing yet but um. hopefully i post something!! i have many WIPs XD

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brenheira · 5 years

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SEND ME META @labused asked : meta + carol’s mom

cynthia baker was a secretary when she met him. it was summer of 1965 when she became an intern at hawkins lab. she needed a job , & they needed people. she loved science , had quite the knack for it. she hoped that one day , they’d allow her to become involved in the actual science they created. she was too young for that , though. a young intern , she was. twenty five years of age , & the head scientist became quite enamored with her in the brief time they first met. how could he not be ? petite with auburn hair & blue eyes ? she was beautiful. dr. brenner , she knew him as. he called her cindy , always with a smile & a lingering touch. there was about a fifteen age gap between them , but she didn’t mind too much. & she knew he didn’t mind at all. they begun to sleep together , as quietly as they could. he was her boss , & she was practically only an assistant. by the end of the year , cynthia was pregnant with his child. the baby was a secret for as long as she could keep it , to think & to consider. he treated her with kindness , yes , but only ever in secret. & never for too long. a small brush of the cheek here , a smile there. she needed this job , suffering financially without it. & she had this new life to love & protect , she couldn’t risk it. she told him in private , while he was on the way to a secret meeting. oh , dr. brenner , can you help me over here , please ? she told him when he closed the door behind himself , letting them have secrecy. he doesn’t respond , & leaves shortly after. cynthia makes way to pack up her belongings at the small desk he had given her.

he comes by before she can leave , towering over her & his body stiff. they must speak about this , she knows. he takes her by the elbow , gently , & leads her to his office. marry me , she says. it’s better for the baby if we do. it would be better for her as well , finance wise. a scientist husband must pay well. there’s not really a choice , & he doesn’t argue. let’s go as soon as we can. they marry in secret not too long afterwards , & looking back on it she wished she had just taken their child & run for the hills. in august of 1966 , she gives birth to their daughter whom they named carolyn. a family name on her side. nine months of marriage , but it doesn’t feel different compared to how it was while they were working. he grew more distant than before , emotionally & physically , though he harbored a special interest in their infant daughter. she returned to work as soon as she could , becoming an odd one out within the women of her life. most women stayed home & took care of the kids. cynthia couldn’t afford to lose her job , even with martin’s boost. she blames that decision for her divorce. her daughter was kept at the lab’s childrens room where she could be cared for & loved around other children. cynthia assumed that room was for the children of other scientists. she would drop carolyn off in the mornings , & pick her up at night. martin’s life was at the lab. it was rare he came home , whether it was to see his wife or his daughter. cynthia assumed it was because of the quick marriage rather anything else. she hates herself for ever believing he cared. he never loved either of them. she doesn’t believe , now , that he’s even capable of feeling humane emotions. she wouldn’t be surprised if he took off his skin to reveal something more sinister.

carolyn is six years old when cynthia discovers the truth of the lab. of the children. of her daughter. he never left a mark on her , so cynthia had no reason to be suspicious. they had home schooled carolyn for kindergarten , her husband taking it upon himself to tutor her himself. he was a scientist after all , she rationalized. she sought to discover what exactly he had been working on , what could take up his time & life so much. she can never ask him , she’d never get any answers. so she watches him. at home & at the lab to see where he kept his files. the other scientists avoid her , she is an outcast at her own work. it takes her a week before she manages to find his information , locked away in the confines of his desk in his study. good thing she managed to swipe the key. she opens his drawers without him aware , & she finds what she was looking for. he has a file on her daughter. in the notes , she’s only labeled as zero or pumpkin. never carolyn. she reads more than she wanted to , shaking & alone. experimentation was being done on her daughter by her father’s commands. it all made sense at that point : why there was a children’s room at the lab , & why he had insisted on homeschooling her. he wanted to use her.

cynthia takes carolyn away from the lab against the wishes of her husband. her daughter is so tiny within her arms , her heart racing against carolyn’s ear where its pressed against her chest. there aren’t any signs of experimentation on her body , but the case file was enough for her. she tells martin that she could call the police on him. he tells her nobody would believe her. he’s too calm for somebody whose daughter was being taken away. then again , he was the one who harmed her in the first place. mommy , she hears in a quiet whimper from her child. cynthia begs martin to let carolyn go , to let her go. she’s just a child , martin ! don’t you understand that ? he threatens her if she leaves , men at the ready with guns & force. he doesn’t seem to care much. i won’t tell anyone , i promise. i won’t come back. nobody will know. please let me have her. in that moment , she knew her daughter’s life was much more important than her work or marriage. or even the lives of whatever other children he kept as lab rats. she swears she won’t look for him , won’t tell anybody of what was actually happening. she’ll tell their daughter that it was all a dream. all these things if it meant her daughter could be okay. he tells the guards to stand down , & tells her that he’ll know if she tells anyone. she clutches her daughter closer. i know , she says. he allows her to leave , knowing that she would never risk her daughter’s safety by telling anybody about what was happening. she’s consumed with guilt at this choice , at the knowledge her daughter will never have a father & that she left all those children to suffer. but her daughter is safe. & that’s all that matters to her now.

she loses her married name & returns back to cynthia baker. her daughter’s surname is changed to her maiden name as well , & she knows that on his end , he’ll try to erase any connection she had to hawkins lab & him. she can’t afford to move away from hawkins despite desperately wanting too , & she knows she needs to get her daughter actually acquainted with the outside world. the lab was practically all she knew , but now carolyn was never going back. not if she can control it. she remarries soon after their divorce is finalized , around carolyn’s eighth birthday. he’s a nice man , much nicer than her previous husband. he has a nice lucrative job , & he cares about carolyn. she marries him for security. she & her daughter become part of the davis family. she falls in love with her second husband , rick , eventually. he treats her much better than martin ever did. he calls carolyn his daughter. she loves him a little more for that. despite her new life , she can’t help but constantly remember the one she escaped. he’s still out there , hurting those children & she can’t do anything about it. not if she wants her life to be ruined as well as her daughter’s. hopefully , she thinks , hopefully someone will end his terror. she’ll be the first one in line to give that hero whatever they please. for her ex husband is a monster , & he won’t stop being one until he dies. hopefully she can be the one who kills him. for her , for carolyn , & for the children he hurt. that’ll be justice. it’s what he deserves. he deserves to suffer.

#labused #so i wrote 1.4k on carol's mom #but like .............. not even all of her life #just basically her marriage to brenner + her divorce #i could write a Lot more #tw experimentation #tw neglect #tw abuse

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