#so me and my mom have really bonded over like relearning our culture and i get to go to his sisters to teach me and its just really nice | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

needylittlegirl · 15 days

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sometimes ill be doing some normal everyday task and ill stop and realizing that im doing it pissed as hell cause i started thinking about yolanda saldivar

#brushing my teeth like 😡😡😡😡#selena quintanilla queen of tejano and queen of little mexican american girls that cant speak spanish (me)#when i was like 7 years old i was having a TOUUGHH time at school #cause kids were saying like oh your mom looks weird she doesnt look like our moms!#and my dads white and im very white like visually #so i was getting a lot of people asking like What Are You are you adopted etc etc #and then on the flipside all of my cousins speak spanish but i dont #cause im the youngest and by the time i was born all the spanish speakers in my fam had learned english #so it was very like whatever way i turned i wasnt fitting in #so my mom sat me down and made me watch selena and i criiies and cried #like no i dont look like her but we’re both 3rd gen girls who were a little lost with their cultures and stuff #also dont tell my mom any of this she says im white passing to white ppl but mexicans always Know #which is true ive had mexican people ask if im mixed or wtf is up #its gotta be my nose like 100000%#i think my nose and body type and hair are the noticeable features #i was also raised super culturally by my moms side of the family #also i think its funny that spanish speaking people dont assume i speak it so theyll be talkin shit or something and ill know #i understand it but i dont speak it #but im getting better!! i think i probably can speak it im just not at all confident #i had to drop highschool spanish cause my teacher thought i was cheating #and she did not care when i was like girl i promise i only know this cause of my abuela pls believe me #sorry im rambling i have no clue where this is coming from #but when my grandparents moved here it was like #like 50s racism running rampant #so my grandpa tried to ditch EVERYTHING and like oretend he was italian cause that was more acceptable and all that #so he got rid of every tradition and tried to smash it down as much as he could #so of course that rubbed off on my mom #but my grandpas sisters never tried to hide it #so me and my mom have really bonded over like relearning our culture and i get to go to his sisters to teach me and its just really nice #yeah ok bye

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