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#so intrinsically tied to coping with depression you have no idea what you’d be without it. it’s learned self-hatred of a cluster B needing
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The Darkness really is the best song in the show.
#not musically. like as far as sheer Song goes it’s probably It Was A Shit Show or something but for like. emotion and rarity? I’ve never
#ever seen someone confront that really ugly side to mental illness and it’s done so well. like yeah. it can become your identity to be ill
#and you can fear losing it and it becomes a parasitic relationship that’s killing you and that’s not good and it’s hard to talk about —
#almost impossible. because like. you /know/ how bad ‘what if without this I’m not interesting anymore and people have no reason to worry so
#they have no reason to care about me’ is as a statement like that’s fucked up to think and feel. but it’s also not malicious or really you
#it’s a part of being sick and people who haven’t been don’t understand it which makes it scary to try to confront and best because it makes
#you sound so horrible—it makes you sound horrible to /yourself/ and that makes it hard even for you to confront it alone because you have to
#admit it to kill it. I got so sick when I was dying of an ED and my brain got so fucked I began to believe with intense primal terror that
#it had become so much of my identity nobody would care about me without it. which makes no sense but to a dying addicted head it did. and
#I’ve never seen someone confront and discuss that ugliness so openly or so sympathetically at the same time. the line ‘for so many years ive
#used the Darkness to feel. But now there are things in my life that are actually real. I’ve got to make a choice darling don’t ask me why.
#But will I have the strength? to tell the darkness…goodbye…’ I cry.
#it applies to a lot under that. to trauma associated with social neurodivergence where you learn to fear feeling happy as a kid because you
#get loud or too much or things you don’t understand enough to not do them so the only way to be safe from repercussions is to not /be/ happy
#in the first place. it applies to having clinical depression you’ve survived alone since childhood and your way of making it through life is
#so intrinsically tied to coping with depression you have no idea what you’d be without it. it’s learned self-hatred of a cluster B needing
#to hate themself to keep back the world flooding them when they feel at risk by doing it first
#and it’s not pretty and it’s not easy but it is so fucking important people admit this is such a fucking common thing with serious mental
#illness. how are we to get through self hatred and hopelessness and despair if we can’t even see the things we think are too bad to face are
#as common a symptom as cutting? and just as curable and forgivable and not representative of who we are
#god I love that song
#crazy ex-girlfriend
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