#shit just aint right man this is so super embarrassing lmfao
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reacclimating to life in civilization remains arduous & it's weird what parts of Being Hunted For Sport mode have fallen off already & how much i'm already taking it for granted & how HORRIFICALLY BAD the parts that should be easy are going
#it's like. i'm not scared to leave the house but also i start going places & get SO SO SO SO scared#had a low grade freakout the whole way to the mall yesterday cuz conceptually. Going Places is scary. and then i got to Target and it upgra#ded to a Level 78 I Am Being Hunted For Sport Freakout cuz all the Targets here are the normal size Targets i went to exclusively like.#2009 - Nov 2019. but then 3.5 years of only having access to a microscopic one where i would routinely be attacked by people has given me#The Fear TM#so it's like. i'm in this area that's 3x too big; there's more than 12 people; THEY'RE ACTUALLY MAKING EYE CONTACT WITH ME & ACKNOWLEDGING#WHEN I SAY SOMETHING (i.e. try to get past them) and i don't know what to do cuz i've been conditioned that if somebody looks at me at all#in Target they are about to do some absolute fuckshit that will likely result in me being injured or stalked or both#and like. i don't go most places with fear in my heart anymore!!! like it's really wacky how quick that fell off!!!!!! it feels like it sho#uldn'tve like. it feels like almost too much of a cop-out that it fell off that quick & i can mostly conduct my business feeling safe/fine.#but then oop!!!! i'm in target & boy on all levels except reality am i being hunted for sport#shit just aint right man this is so super embarrassing lmfao
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