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#she says people don't ever change so she measures happiness and progress by external things only
observethewalrus
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love the emotional whiplash i feel whenever i spend more than an hour with my parents
#this weekend had everything from arguing to laughing to screaming to crying
#sad crying and angry crying
#mom telling me it breaks her heart that i'm 'never happy' while once again blaming it on me caring about politics and social issues
#and just other people in general
#and me needing to stop myself from going on a rant about how mental illness actually works
#and that i do have things that make me happy
#AND THAT SHE'S THE ONE WHO SPENT MY ENTIRE LIFE TELLING ME LIFE ISNT FAIR AND LOVE ISNT REAL AND YOU'RE LUCKY IF YOU'RE NOT MISERABLE
#she tells me i'm so full of anger like bitch you fly off the handle and lash out at anyone in a five mile radius at any minor inconvenience
#i talk all the time about the things that make me happy but she thinks they're stupid and immature so she writes them off
#she doesn't understand that if i measure happiness on some grand scale like major life changing things
#then of course i'll never be happy
#because i can't sit and wait around for a wife or a house or the perfect job
#none of those things are guaranteed so i need to find ways to be happy with smaller things and i do
#she tells me i'm not happy when ten years ago i didn't even plan to be alive this long
#but i can't say she's undermining all the work i've done over the years because she has no idea i've done anything
#she says people don't ever change so she measures happiness and progress by external things only
#she doesn't understand how much i've changed
#i can't really blame her even tho i feel like she's refusing to see something that's right in front of her
#but at the same time i'm resentful that she can never see me as a fully fleshed out person
#because she insists on seeing me as an extension of herself and her own unhappiness
#this started as an angry post and turned into all the things i wish i could say to her but can't cuz she'll just disagree
#and insist the things that are important to me don't matter and that i'm doing life all wrong
#personal
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