This ended up being longer than i intended for it to be. I think the fact that there's a racial divide between pro breed louis and anti breed louis is also something worth thinking about. a lot of the breed louis fics are by black writers. a lot of the anti feminisation of louis and breeding of louis complaints are by white writers. why is that?

jacob is allowed to be wrong about louis. he was very clear about how in the begining he approached the scenes where louis faces racism in a certain way that rolin had to tell him i know you hate this degradation but i need your character to capitulate to these racist characters. in the same way jacob might hate louis' submission to lestat but louis does submit. in their first sex scene lestat makes him submit. why does louis do it? we can say maybe because he doesn't have a choice or because he sees it as freedom to not have to put on a hypermasculine dominant hat like he does outside.

now back to the racial divide in the breeding kink and feminisation thing. louis being a queer black man means his queerness interpreted through blackness is different that when interpreted through whiteness. that's a cultural thing and not necessarily racist on white people's part. it is common to use words like mother and girls to refer to queer black men and refer to their pussy or coochie when talking about their asshole in black male queer cultures. that doesn't make it homophobic. that doesn't mean all black male queer people do it or like it.

i mean the fandom keeps calling lestat mother which is actually stolen from African American queer communities. the motherisation of lestat is a whole other conversation (his limp wrist and cinched waist are doing a lot of heavy lifting). but the interpretation of his queerness and the ensuing feminisation (which is a misread because the show and sam's interpretation have him as a masculine, dominant patriarch) tends to come at the cost of louis' queerness which is almost made invisible. i think it's cultural and not necessarily racist how the broader white fandom interprets louis' queerness.

I don't know if you want to post this ask. i understand if you don't. i also don't know if you're black. you might already know everything i said. regardless, if you don't know the things I've talked about maybe you can research a bit to see what I'm trying to say. that is if you're interested. i can imagine you're tired of this particular conversation.

No this is really interesting and well-written, thank you for sending this!

I'm not black so i don't want to overstep (though we romani are also often seen as aggressive and unfeminine by white people so i relate to that experience), but it does seem to me that many black fans like or at least don't have anything against feminizing Louis, and majority of the fans who actively dislike it are white. I think you're right that white and black fans look at Louis' (and also Lestat's) queerness through different lens because of cultural differences. The show is also rather ambiguous sometimes and filtered through several layers of narrative, and what happened, how different characters experienced it, how they are remembering it now, what they are narrating, and how the actors are interpreting it can all be different things.

I don't want to start going around policing people on what kind of stuff they're allowed to like reading or writing, and like i said in the original post people have such complex reasons for liking what they like, not necessarily racist ones, and we can't really generalize any group of fans. Like for example i think some people who prefer top!louis and bottom!lestat do it simply because they just want to see Lestat get railed and it's not deeper than that lol. At the same time fiction doesn't exist in a vacuum separate from reality, and i think it's good for white fans, and also for non-black poc fans like me, to sometimes pay attention to how we're viewing black characters and where our ideas and preferences are coming from.

I may be a bit tired of this conversation because it never seems to go anywhere since people don't change their opinions, but you'll probably catch me tomorrow coming here to complain again about some tweet calling Lestat a mother when he's doing something blatantly patriarchal lmaoo

So I just wanted to say I really appreciate this blog. I came in to this because tumblr recommended you as a Breast Expansion blog but there's some nuances to it I never expected. A lot of B.E. kink material that I go through is geared towards cis-het men like myself and occasionally cis women, but I'd never have considered that some trans men enjoyed it too, and with themselves as the subjects! It's a really enlightening experience to get horny through a new lens like this.

With that said, I really like writing stories for you and I was wondering what I could to do tailor them more for a transmasc experience beyond mentioning binders sometimes.

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I'm glad you're having as much fun writing 'em as I am reading/responding. Because...woof. 🥵

I definitely think my longstanding BE/lactation kink was the gateway into me exploring and enjoying my wider re-feminization kink and such. It's been an interesting journey so far, and I know as a trans man I'm definitely an odd one out for having this + related kinks. Haha.

As for tailoring it for a more trans masc experience, I think a lot of it is gonna depend on the individual. I know for me as a trans man, one of the hottest/kinkiest parts about breast expansion/etc is that it's honed in an aspect of my body that's stereotypically aligned with femininity. I'm a fat bear of a dude irl so while my tits are pretty big I can often pass them off as moobs - which is a big reason why the idea of them getting too big/milky to hide is so damn hot to me. Similar thing with my ass and hips (which are already huge and wide but I digress, lol.) I also have forced shaving and lingerie/bra kinks for the same reason. While I don't get off to bio-essentialism, my body betraying me by being forced to grow/develop in a way I find dysphoric/embarrassing/humiliating/etc is very hot. And of course, being teased or praised for my body developing in a more feminine/womanly way.

The other side of that coin though, is being encouraged/taught/conditioned to enjoy and get off to those very aspects of my body that are causing me distress (albeit horny distress.) Especially if they're being purposely grown/developed/etc.

While you didn't ask about it, I'll add that my weight gain fetish doesn't work the same way, even if it's often complimentary to my other kinks. I don't find being fat or getting fatter embarrassing or etc, I'm just a hedonist and get off on it in that regard. Haha.

I'm glad everything went well with your surgery and that you took some time to figure things out... i hope you're on a better head space - i know what is like to deal with suicide ideation so you should put your mental health first. It also makes me happy to know your mom can enjoy her retirement traveling and doing what she wants.

What you mentioned about that policeman who killed Nahel it's the same thing that happened with Zimmerman and Trayvon Martin, remember that case? Conservatives donanted so much money to Zimmerman that he basically retired and could enjoy the rest of his life loaded.

And I dont know what to even think about black women who mess around with altright and white supremacist men. Like I know the men are just thinking with their dicks, but what do these women even gain in these relationships? Is it like a kink or something? You know how Candace Owens one time posted a pic of her kids and people in the comments were being vile towards them, calling them monkeys and ugly and disgusting. Like how can you stand having these kind of people as your audience? She obv deleted the picture and never did it again.

I was thinking that another reason why some tradmen and tradwomen don't mix is because some of them are womanchild and manchild. Basically, there's a breed of tradman that wants his wife to take care of him like he's her baby, never doing any of the domestic work, not even loadong the dishwater or making the bed. And there's a breed of tradwife that wants her husband to take care of everything so she can relax and "rest in her feminity", whatever that means. You would think they would work but they don't, as the both of them can't be the baby of the relationship.

Thank you for thek kind message anon ♡

I'm doing a little better. Lately, God showed me he was still there, and that's the most reassuring thing EVER. I had to let go lf things..and he's currently helping me to rely on faith and faith alone...

Leaving the internet for a while helped me a lot. For some reason I thought of not coming back lol but I love you all so much..i think if I leave Tumblr for good I'll tell you.. that's what you deserve 🩷

Yeah it's funny to see conservatives/rightoid complain about how the immigrants are sucking off the country's money & how they they (the good citizens) are getting poorer, and then turn around and throw money at randos who killed someone 🥴

I'm not surprised about what you say about Candace Owens. I think she's a genuinely smart woman and she definitely knows that 90% of the ppl she hangs arounnf with don't respect her. She knows the moment she steps out of the line she's done (apparently that what happened to Tomi Lahren after she said she was pro choice - I remember homegirl was conservative sweetheart during Trump mandate and was EVERYWHERE 💀)

She's just beneficial to them for being the 'token Black conservative'. The grifting is mutual so I gues there's no victim out there.

The Prophet Apostate did a great job reading her hypocrital support for Andrew Tate when she dunked on Steven Crowder to filth :

Both Candace and Blaire White are similar because they both embody tragic grifter who will have no issue hanging around people they know that. Blaire White loves to defend himself saying "at least conservatives will not tell me to kill myself like liberals do uwu" yeah, and? They still hate you, boo. Just bc they're not as blunt as liberals telling you to kill yourself doesn't mean they respect or genuinely like you.... Imagine having such low self esteem that people you can even state they genuinely like you BUT don't tell you to kill to kill yourself is enough for you to hang around them, go to their show, etc. This man is lowkey so pathetic... (there's no wonder he looks so miserable). Does he even realize that if he wasn't the token conservative trans, his rightoid buddies would clown him like they do with the liberal one?

And yes, the thing with online tradmen is that they're hypergamous (in a way) when that role traditionally abide to women: tradmen want a tradwife to level up (sexually, livelihood, etc) and tradfem want to level up (marry financially secure men to build a family). That's why they fail matching with tradfem who are ALSO hypergamous. It's like trying to stick magnets on the same polarity lol

There's indeed something extremely childish in men stating everything they expect fro from a women, when they are supposed to be the provider.... I guess that's why I find tradmen so repulsive...

Writing Tips for Sam and Dean

I’ll let you all know that Im not a seasoned writer like many of you are, I only have a handful of fics under my belt. Not all are fan faves, some people don’t like the ship (most of my stuff is low smut wincest) or maybe they don’t like the ending, but Sam and Dean are the primary focus of all of my stories (except The One Who Remembers which is all Sam) and I am always told that I kept them in character well, which I take great pride in. For me, if they are not in character, then Im not reading Sam and Dean, Im reading a story about other people with the same names.  This isn’t to say Sam and Dean can’t or shouldn’t be written OOC, they can be written any way you want them to be and thats perfectly fine, but if you want to write them, and keep them real, I hope these tips will help. Choose a Season: This is pretty important because both brothers change over the years. Sam especially. Dean changes, but not as rapidly as Sam does. Like, I cant believe that S7 Sam and S8 Sam are the same person, or that they’re even related to S1 Sam, or become S12 Sam. Dean’s character changes, but more subtly and over a longer period of time. So if you’re going to have a silly yet over protective Dean, dial back to seasons 1-3 and choose a Sam from those seasons. (sure, you absolutely can interchange them, I just personally find the story flows nicer if my head is in the same season for both) 

Pretend it’s an Episode: Even if you’re going to add language, violence, and smut that would never be seen on the show, imagine yourself watching what you’re writing. What does the scene look like, where are they, what would their facial expressions show. It’s good to visualize the scene. This can help you when you’re stuck for their next line. Take a moment to describe the scenary, and think, “what do I expect would happen next” and go from there. Sometimes, its just the kick you need. Dean is Easier to Write For: He just is. This is not an insult to either brother, it is simply because Dean is an extrovert, and Sam is an introvert. Dean always lets us know how he’s feeling, Sam doesn’t. This is a big reason why I think most fics and even most episodes seem to be more from Dean’s POV than Sam’s even when they’re Sam centric. The original formula for the show was to be Sam’s journey, through Dean’s eyes. I don’t think they’ve stuck to that for the most part, but I do think its why the characters are written that way. Most of the time, for us to have a clue what Sam is thinking, we need to watch his facial expressions and body language. 

For an example - Regarding Dean. When Dean is cured and tricks Sam into thinking he still didnt have his memory, Sam didnt say anything, but looked upset. Then Dean laughed, and let him know he was joking, and all Sam said was “Not funny.” But he went through about 5 emotions in his face in 2 seconds flat. Had it been the other way around, and Sam played like he didnt remember Dean, Dean would have been vocal “What the hell?? You said you could fix him!!!” and when Sam let him know he was joking, Dean probably would have laughed, barked at Sam, probably threaten to kick his ass (lovingly of course) and probably hugged him (hmmm now I wish it had been Sam that lost his memory lol)  So you’re writing a scene in which Sam is emotional. He may talk about what’s on his mind, but most is going to be left in his mind, and not become words. You can make him say something, but then show what he’s thinking. Maybe he doesnt say a word, but looks at Dean or, something, and then you express his thoughts.[ Sam’s hands were shaking. Dean put a hand on his shoulder “You okay Sammy?”  “I’m fine” Sam replied, hoping to hide how terrified he was.] If the situation is reversed, Dean will probably say that he’s scared.  Notice their normal speech patterns and habits: Dean uses a lot of pop culture references. Sam does sometimes, but not to the extent that Dean does. Sam huffs a lot. Try to include this the best way you can; words like “huff, breath, breathes, exhales, and sighs are good words to use. Dean uses a lot more words than Sam does to express a thought. This doesn’t mean Sam doesn’t say profound things, he just gets to the point faster, however, when he does use a lot of dialogue, every word has intent, he doesn’t use many extra words like “very” or “really” all that often. He also tends to state things twice, like “I believe you, I do” or “Im happy, I am”  and Dean will often use hyperbole “Its been a really really really REALLY long long long long time” and don’t forget, Dean says “awesome” a lot! Romance, Fluff, and Sex: A lot of you wont write Wincest, and thats fine, but you will probably write fluff and bromance. In true SPN character, Dean is mainly dominant, and Sam is submissive, however, this isn’t the case all the time, so in a sexual situation, since they have no canonical sex, theres nothing OOC about making either dom or sub, or switching it up. Since their onscreen life is platonic, the logistics of sex is whatever you want them to be, any kinks or what have you, is all up for grabs, but if you want to keep the brothers in character, try not to change their chemistry and personalities in bed from what it is out of bed. Sam isn’t likely the one to talk dirty, Dean probably does. Sam probably rolls his eyes and pretends he doesnt like it. Dean is naturally less inhibitted than Sam, and Sam naturally over thinks things. Neither are overly needy, but like feeling like the most important thing in the world to the other. Remember they’re brothers, They have spent most of their lives together and have no need to impress the other, so don’t feel like they wouldnt laugh, make jokes, or tease each other during intimate times. They can be heartbreakingly, and painfully honest, and also immature, giant 12 year olds. Even if you arent writing sex for them, this goes just as well for fluff and general bromance.  If you are writing sex, dont feel the need to establish that one or both are gay or bisexual. This is not necessary given their relationship. Their sexuality is established as historically straight in canon, so if they DO have sex with each other, they are the only male’s they have ever had sex with..... more than likely. Stay away from making either of them too feminine. Both have natural femine qualities that can be used, but they will go right out of character if one begins to act female, or if the other is treating him as such. Stay away from typical fanon wincest terms like “baby boy” or “daddy”, Sam would probably punch Dean if he called him “baby boy” and Dean’s mood would be lost of Sam called him “Daddy”... face it, their daddy issues are not of the sexual nature, but again, this is only if you want to keep them in character. They have their own things they call each other, like little brother, buddy, Dee (a name only used once so keep that in mind too) brother, big brother, which work pretty well, but theyre not the most endeering, so you can get creative, but, if youre keeping them in character, maybe stay away from “honey” or “sweetheart” I hope these hints help, and if you are writing and need help with writing for this wonderful characters, please dont hesitate to message me, Id be honored to help!!