I really was a different beast 3 years ago. the start of the chronic pain and other mystery illness symptoms, the 1 year anniversary of my grandma's sudden death and the official start of the (still ongoing!) legal battle against my uncle over the inheritance, started and quit my first job because of the mystery illness, 6 months of being back in my childhood home where I experienced immense trauma over the years, feeling stuck and hopeless and throwing myself into traditional art and mtl at all times of the day to escape the inescapable pain, sleepless nights, and other such things