I finally watched Nimona and I really relate to her, especially the itchy insides she describes. Both in terms of the gender allegory, as I am bigender and do (only on occasion, thank god) experience dysphoria, but also in terms of literal shapeshifting. I don't fully understand why or when it started, but I often experience physical discomfort that I can only describe as an urge to shapeshift. I've never felt comfortable having a human body and the majority of the time the discomfort with my body can be (mostly) fixed by wearing a pair of cat ears and a tail (which I have worn 24/7 nearly 356 every year for the past 5-6ish years, but did attempt to start doing all the way back in 1st or 2nd grade. Though that only lasted one day, since a classmate ripped my tail off and I was banned from wearing it again, and I wasn't able to try again until 7th grade) but sometimes the ears and tail don't work and I instead need to wear horns or wings or a centaur costume, etc.. None of which I currently have access to unfortunately. I did recently get a pair of pointed ears from hot topic so if I ever have a day where I need to be an elf, fairy, or vampire I can do that at least.

If anyone can think of what this might be please let me know. I briefly thought I was a therian but I've realized that doesn't really fit because a) not just one animal and b) not just animals, so I'm not really sure anymore.