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aftgficrec · 11 months

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Can you post fics where Andrew and Neil argue but make up in the end?

Enjoy this walk through andreil feels, anon. The previous asks mentioned lead to a bunch more asks and fics. -A

also see:

andreil arguing here

new andreil breakup/make-up here

fave break up and make up here

andreil or jerejean kiss & make-up here

miscommunication leading to near-breakups here

angst w/happy ending: miscommunication or pining here

andreil enemies to lovers 2 here

Andrew makes Neil cry here

Neil snaps ‘not nothing’ here

‘quicksand’ here

‘low quay, no pressure’ here

‘transience’ here

‘transmission’ here

‘Tumblr Headcanons - Andreil’ Ch 11 & 12 here

‘Neil worried that Andrew cheated’ here

‘Home for Christmas’ here

‘Wake Up to Your Sunset’ here (completed)

‘All I Wanted’ here

‘Some Kind of Disaster’ here

‘I’m Not Dead Yet’ here

‘Can Nobody Hear Me (I cannot breathe)’ here (completed)

‘nice to see your face again’ and ‘Dawn Won't End the Night’ (updated) here

‘please come back, save me from myself,’ ‘ghostin',’ and ‘I ran out of every reason’ here

‘but i don't think i can ever learn how to love just right’ here

‘Shared Custody’ and ‘Shared Custody (The Blame the Cat Remix)’ here

if you really love nothing by seasy33 [Rated M, 39713 Words, Complete, 2022]

Andrew finds an interesting piece of paper. He's not quite sure how he feels about it.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: rape/noncon, tw: flashbacks, tw: alcohol

Undefined Roommates Code by Helpisneeded [Rated E, 56760 Words, Incomplete, Updated Oct 2022]

Punching your roommate is not a very smart idea. Starting a friends with benefits relationship with said roommate is an even worse one. Setting up a string of rules to keep it purely physical and make sure you don’t catch feeling but catching them anyways is certainly the stupidest thing you could do in that situation. Luckily for Neil, he never claimed to be smart.

tw: explicit sexual content, tw: implied/referenced child abuse, tw: implied/referenced suicidal tendencies

Regrowth by Mystrana [Rated E, 4836 Words, Complete, 2021]

It goes like this: Neil's giving therapy a chance. He's dealing with every emotion he's ever pushed down trying to leak back up. When he gets hurt during a game, Andrew gets upset and they get into an argument. And then Andrew apologizes. A fic in which Andrew and Neil work on healing together and cry and have the softest sex in the world.

tw: explicit sexual content

An intimate moment with someone you hate by krasmataz [Rated E, 7414 Words, Complete, 2023]

Neil and Andrew have their first fight after trying something new in the bedroom. Hope they figure it out before they destroy too much school property!

tw: implied/referenced self-harm, tw: blood, tw: implied/referenced suicidal tendencies

over/under by likearecord [Rated E, 9506 Words, Complete, 2023]

He’d thought Neil, with his smart mouth and his wild eyes, would be satisfied with what Andrew was offering. He guesses he’d thought Neil was used to living on scraps—and Andrew has never had anything meatier to give. He’d been wrong.

tw: explicit sexual content

Only Fools Fall. by Random2002 [Rated T, 19789 Words, Incomplete, Updated Feb 2023]

Neil tests how faithful his clients partners are. Roland is a client; he's worried about his boyfriend. It isn't long until Neil notices some serious rifts in the relationship he is meant to test.

tw: child abuse

Cold Cookies by Preludeno3 [Rated M, 11583 Words, Incomplete, Updated Jan 2023, Locked]

It starts off as an abstract, incomplete thought. Andrew’s on his knees on the rug in his Columbia bedroom, going to town on Neil’s dick. Or Andrew wants to try face fucking, trauma is a bitch and Neil is almost too understanding

tw: explicit sexual content, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon

First fight by Olympyas [Not Rated, 3265 Words, Complete, 2023]

"There is no this, you are nothing and nothing doesn't exist." It hurt. A lot. Especially when you spent the whole day feeling like nothing. So he wanted to hurt Andrew in return. He wanted to get, even the slightest, reaction from him. "Well, at least you can't hurt 'nothing' like you destroy everything around you." —hurt him— "You'll still run away like the rabbit you are. Tell me, Nathaniel, why are you staying?" Neil hated this name in Adrew's mouth "For nothing. I shouldn't have stayed in the first place." And he left.

tw: panic attacks, tw: violence, tw: assault, tw: attempted rape/noncon

A Substitute For Please by cadkitten [Rated E, 1911 Words, Complete, 2018]

Please is a word built to make things easy and life has never been easy for either of them. Please is meant to smooth things over, but they're all rough edges. Please is a final ditch effort when hope is lost and, Neil, he knows there's still hope here.

tw: ptsd, tw: depression, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: alcohol

NB: find more about Nicky’s state of mind here

To Be Close With You Is To Be Close With Myself by jostenskeys [Rated E, 20359 Words, Complete, 2022]

Andrew has always been a protector at heart despite how often he bullies Neil for his martyr complex. The summer before Neil's second year, however, he begins to feel the impacts of his life finally crash down on him just as they were finally safe from harm. Andrew fights with himself and doesn't know how he can help. But he soon realises, in order for him to help Neil, he needs to help himself too. Or The Convincing-Neil-To-Get-Therapy Chronicles. Written by Andrew Minyard and edited by Betsy Dobson.

tw: graphic depictions of violence, tw: rape/noncon, tw: self harm, tw: urge to self harm, tw: blood, tw: suicidal ideation, tw: nightmares, tw: panic attacks, tw: depression

Stay series by jaydreamz [Rated M/T, Collection with 2 complete works, Updated Nov 2021]

Part 1: Was Sorta Hopin' That You'd Stay [M, 25740 Words] Neil and Andrew have HATED each other since an incident in college. They really, really do. The Minyard-Josten rivalry is not a sham. But now Andrew's transferring to Neil's team and all hell is about to break loose.

tw: alcohol, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: explicit sexual content

Part 2: Before I Hated You [T, 5974 Words] Before the Minyard-Josten rivalry was on, there was something else entirely. *** Andrew and Neil's first meeting in college that ended up starting the feud between them.

Bittersweet by Mercey [Rated M, 8370 Words, Complete, AFTG Mixtape Exchange 2021]

‘Why would Neil want to be with someone who can’t even care for him the right way? Why would he want that life for himself? He’s not a runaway anymore, he’s not so desperate for affection that he’ll settle for my meagre offerings, and good for him. It’s better that way.’ Andrew's spiralling with graduation coming up, and beginning to question the very foundations upon which he and Neil are built.

tw: depression

Hold Each Other by exactly13percent_OLD (hymbeaux) [Collection Rated T/E, Complete, 2018]

Chapter 12: Stranger [T, 2854 Words] Sometimes, love comes easily. That's the problem.

I took a breath and took the knife by eeveepkmnfan [Rated M, 2271 Words, Complete, 2022]

Andrew and Neil argue. Or, Neil is still struggling through the aftereffects of being drugged. Andrew is forced to confront the consequences of that decision.

tw: transphobia, tw: implied/referenced sexual assault, tw: implied/referenced self harm, tw: implied/referenced involuntary drug use, tw: ptsd

Spring Cleaning with a Man on the Lam by SugarLime [Rated G, 2240 Words, Complete, 2019]

Neil glared at the wrapper Andrew had tossed on the floor next to his chair. He stalked over with a nasty frown and leveled a glare at Andrew. Andrew met his glare with an empty expression. “What?” He asked, following Neil’s gaze as it tuned to the discarded wrapper, “it’s a wrapper,” he said wisely. His gut did a small flip as he tried to figure out why his boyfriend was mad.

I Won't Be Home For The Rest Of The Night by CasTheButler [Not Rated, 1039 Words, Complete, 2017]

Neil and Andrew have a fight, Neil learns to let someone new in.

Stars and Moons by sonyathefairy [Rated G, 1111 Words, Complete, 2017]

Neil ponders about the stars and his fight with Andrew. Or in which they both realise that they can't live without the other anymore.

Where We Belong by conniptionns [Rated T, 1374 Words, Complete, 2017]

prompt: andrew and neil get into this huge fight while andrew is driving so he tells neil to get out the car and walk the rest of the way.

Still here by theresnothis [Rated T, 2779 Words, Complete, AFTG Summer Exchange 2022]

After a fight with Andrew, Neil ran off into the night (but he would go back). Andrew found him and of course with Neil’s luck a robbery would occur.

flashes of intimacy by mostly_maudlin [Rated T, Collection, Complete, 2023]

Chapter 3: conflict resolution [385 Words] Chapter 4: space [507 Words]

tw: mild self harm

Chapter 16: picking fights [554 Words]

tw: mild self harm

“I don’t want your pity, I want your absence.” by markonasurface (idwir) [Not Rated, 1627 Words, Complete, 2018]

After the freshmen find out about Neil and Andrew, a terrible practice leads to Neil saying things he shouldn’t.

tw: involuntary outing, tw: homophobia, tw: scars, tw: anxiety attack, tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced csa, tw: victim shaming, tw: self harm

“So much for not getting involved.” by markonasurface (idwir) [Not Rated, 769 Words, Complete, 2020]

“I don’t want your pity, I want your absence.” pt 2

tw: implied/referenced rape/noncon, tw: implied/referenced csa

“don’t call me that”-andreil prompt fill by @markonasurface [Tumblr, 2017]

Neil heard the door to the roof open and knew it was Andrew. Annoyance flooded his chest and he had the overwhelming urge to hit him. Instead he lit another cigarette and let Andrew pluck it from his fingers even though he hadn’t offered it to him.

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1dastroficfest · 9 months

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Round 2 is officially finished! Thank you to all our amazing authors and everyone who's supported them! It's been a pleasure to bring the astro fest back for another round, not only to explore different parts of all the wonderful mystics in the world, also to see how people interpret them differently. We learned so much in just a few months and we hope this is a collective feeling. Thank you thank you thank you. We intend to do a round 3 next year, again with different themes. Stay tuned, the sun travels fast through the signs.

Under the cut are all our round 2 fics, please check them out! 🌙🪐☀️

Lullaby Garden by rockstarlwt28 / @rockstarlwt28 Harry/Louis, 29k, prompt: the Moon Tarot reader Louis Tomlinson and fortune teller Harry Styles, better known as the Tomlinson's, are the proud owners of a children's home, Lullaby Garden; in the heart of the hilly town of Scarborough. With eight children to keep them on their toes, the pair aren't short of good-hearted family fun.

I Don't Have A Choice (But I'd Still Choose You) by Wishingforloushair / @wishingforloushair Harry/Louis, 31k, prompt: Pluto Louis Tomlinson is the captain of The Dagger, a pirate ship so wicked his reputation as the Spectre precedes him into every quay, dock, and tavern. When a mysterious package arrives for him seemingly giving him the last pieces of the puzzle to find the treasure of the mythical Nymphaea Islands, he sets the ship on a course to find riches that amount to more than the grains of sand on every beach. The men discover a stowaway on the ship, and to Louis' utter shock the man is Lord Styles, the man who broke Louis' heart years earlier and drove him out to sea in the first place. Loyalties are tested as the past comes back to haunt Louis in a way he couldn't imagine.

we don't fight fair by HelloLovers13 / @hellolovers13 Harry/Louis, 2k, prompt: Mars “What, you think I'll just roll over for you now?” The smirk on Louis’ face was almost devilish. “Yes,” He breathed against Harry’s lips, cocky and sure, like it was a fact of life. It sent all kinds of shivers through Harry. God, but he wanted to. Wanted Louis to have him right against this wall, let everyone see how he fell apart under him. But not tonight. Harry fixed his posture, standing up straighter and trying to get himself under control. “I don't think so, omega.” Or: Nothing like a little chase to start off Louis' heat.

Catching A Partner by berzerkshires / @berzerkshires Harry/Louis, 24k, prompt: Uranus This documentary follows the story of two people who fell in love in the last place you'd expect. Louis is a detective at the Boston Police Department investigating a trail of recent murders. Harry is the latest victim who survived an attempted murder and is sent to live at a safe house with Detective Tomlinson as the killer is still at large. This is their story.

It's Only Sunny Cause The Planet's Dying by LetTheMusicMoveYou / @letthemusicmoveyou28 Harry/Louis, 13k, prompt: Sappho The man leans back in his chair and looks down at the tarot cards in front of him. “Wow, that was really impressive. How long did it take you to memorize all this bullshit?” He raises a brow and that challenging look is back on his face, but he’s not even bothering to mask it this time. It makes Louis’ blood run cold. “I beg your pardon?” The man chuckles, but there’s no humor in it. “If you take a peek in my wallet that you just stole, you’ll see there’s a detective’s badge in there. Why don’t you come on down to the police station with me and you can explain your methods to me there?” (Or the one where Louis is a thief and a con-artist who’s used to getting what he wants, using any means necessary. And Harry is is the straight-laced detective who might just be tired of always doing the right thing).

a little party never hurt no one by Kikiberoski16 / @larrysballetslippers Harry/Louis, 3k, prompt: Eros “I did! But now you only want them to be your personal toys. So you get more men to touch you!” Louis pointed at Vang, the one who always wanted to be close to Harry. Harry threw his arms up. “Maybe because I do enjoy their attention, Louis! Maybe I like having them around.” “If you like their attention so much, maybe they should replace me completely.” Or, Louis wouldn't call himself a possessive boyfriend, but can't stand it when the mates touch Harry.

The Heart's Home by homosociallyyours / @homosociallyyours Harry/Louis, 10k, prompt: Chiron Louis is alone in the world, working long hours at a restaurant job that barely pays his bills, when he's roped into helping his bosses with a scheme. All he has to do is guard the special catch they've brought in, the one that they expect will bring them unbelievable wealth. But there's a problem: the creature they've caught is definitely half human, with the heart and soul of a human and the voice of an angel. Louis knows immediately that he can't let this mer-squid, Harry, become a wealthy person's dinner. As they spend more time together, growing ever closer, Louis realizes that he's got to find a way to get Harry back to his home-- the sea --even if the thought of losing him hurts and doing it means risking everything.

Make Me Your Aphrodite by LiveLaughLoveLarry / @loveislarryislove Harry/Louis, Zayn/Liam, Niall/Shawn, 16k, prompt: Venus “I just – I don’t know." Harry sighs. "I go on so many dates, and they’re all just… nothing. The guys are boring, or they’re terrible in bed, or there’s just no chemistry. It’s just so frustrating. Enough to make a girl want to give up on men altogether.” “I mean, I did give up on men, like a decade ago,” Louis says, laughing. “Have you tried dating girls?” It’s meant as a joke, but Harry looks thoughtful. “Maybe I should,” she says. “I’ve considered it, but never actually tried – I mean, goodness knows it can’t be any worse than some of the guys I’ve gone out with.” Louis blinks. “Wait, do you – are you serious?” “Why not?” Harry says, pulling out her phone. “I’ll change my Tinder settings right now, look.” She taps the screen a few times, navigating through the pages. “If it doesn’t pan out, then oh well, I’ve had some nice conversations with some nice girls – not the worst thing. Maybe we can even be friends. And if it does…” She smiles. “Well. You know.”

(Gimme a Solution and) Watch Me Run With It by lululawrence / @lululawrence Harry/Louis, 21k, prompt: Vesta This second, this minute, this hour, this day... hell, this week the trend was for Harry to feel overwhelmed. He was having a hard time not drowning in all of the responsibilities he had heaped upon himself and it had exhausted him. Beyond that, really. He had gotten to the point where he didn't even remember why he used to be so focused on getting back on stage every night. Fine. Maybe this trend had been going on for even longer than a week. It might have even been months. Harry is getting dangerously close to his breaking point, and that is when things start to change, starting with a favorite childhood sweet a member of the touring crew leaves for him in his dressing room.

Daylight by ReynaLovegood2 / @reynalovegood2 Harry/Louis, 18k, prompt: the Sun The change in Harry’s behaviour was subtle for the most part, Louis decided. More eye-contact, more upright posture, and the casual ease with which he handled his words and his fingers—a lot of it could be chalked up to late-adolescence induced confidence. He was a teenager after all. Surely they were all still finding themselves and growing into amazing, mature adults with every passing day. And then school started. ~ Or Louis opened up to Harry more than usual when he's in London and it causes Harry to act different. He expects Louis be vulnerable all the time, and Louis has to choose between shutting away his best friend or letting people assume they're romantically involved.

lost in the silver sea by you_explode / @nobodymoves Harry/Louis, 42k, prompt: Echo Non-AU. From MSG 2012 to MSG 2018; or, Harry and Louis keep having their voices silenced, and they keep finding ways to speak.

Thanks again! See you next round! ✨

#fics #round 2

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bazzverse · 4 years

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@seinnfeld didn’t said: things you said when it was over feat things you wish you never said + hendubhan

❛ Oh, so now you want to talk? ❜ Elizabeth praticamente cuspiu após sentir o corpo ser virado em direção à Alec. Sua voz, sempre tão serena e alegre, agora carregava uma calma gélida e afiada que surpreendeu até a própria, mas não se deixou abalar enquanto cruzava os braços, protetoramente, diante o peito e se obrigava a olhá-lo nos olhos. Os mesmos tons de azul dos quais vinha fugindo desesperadamente nos últimos dias. Só que fugir já não era mais uma opção. ❛ Okay, so talk. ❜

Estar perto do Henzollern era algo que já lhe era quase instintivo. Como se todas as diferenças entre eles funcionassem como os pólos de dois ímãs, sempre os puxando em direção ao outro. Inferno, ainda era assim — não era o tipo de coisa que poderia desaparecer em tão pouco tempo —, mas, agora, a proximidade lhe doía quase tanto, senão mais, que a distância. Ao menos, trancada em seu quarto e com o celular desligado, havia uma falsa segurança em toda a raiva e decepção que tomava cada vez que repassava a cena do beijo dele com outra. Mas ali, parada diante dele, a poucos passos, observando o modo como seus cachos dourados estavam desgrenhados, os olhos vagos e as olheiras, mais profundas e marcadas, sentia tudo aquilo ruir aos seus pés.

Haviam se passado apenas alguns dias que fugia de qualquer contato com o rapaz, mas ele parecia tão mais velho. Tão miserável quanto ela se sentia, e, por tudo o que havia de mais sagrado, a visão deveria deixá-la satisfeita!! Feliz, até, afinal, era exatamente pelo que havia torcido todas aquelas noites em que se acabou de chorar nos braços de seu pai, de sua mãe e quem mais tivesse paciência para aguentá-la. No entanto, a bailarina pôde apenas se amaldiçoar e apertar mais os braços contra sim ao notar que seu primeiro instinto ainda era querer puxá-lo para si e tentar batalhar contra todos e cada um de seus demônios. Deus sabe que ela o faria e, naquele instante, não sabia dizer o que era mais triste em toda aquela história: querer ou não poder.

O nariz dele se franziu um pouco e os lábios se retorceram, da mesma forma involuntária que fazia quando ele lutava para encontrar as palavras. Não era o tipo de reação comum ao seu namorado, que sempre parecia ter as respostas na ponta da língua, era verdade, mas a Donndubhán havia passado noites e mais noites aprendendo cada detalhe sobre Alec — cada pequena coisa que o tornava ele —, e por isso se preparou para o que ele poderia dizer.

❛ Please, Ellie, I know is hard do believe, but it really wasn't what it seemed. She kissed! I swear I didn't do anything. ❜ Seria mentira dizer que, bem no fundo e contra todo o seu orgulho, Eliza havia fantasiado em ouvir aquelas mesmas palavras. Eram, sem dúvidas, a opção mais clichê de todas e não esperava que Alec realmente as usasse. No entanto, ali estava ele, as proferindo com tanta sinceridade e desespero que quer garota não tivesse visto a cena com os próprios olhos, acreditaria sem hesitar. Era tudo o que mais queria, mas não podia.

❛ After everything, ❜ ela fechou os olhos ao suspirar, o ar escapando de sua boca entrelaçado a um riso sem humor, ❛ Everything we've been through, I thought that even if you couldn't be sincere with me, at least you'd have the decency to give me a more creative excuse. ❜

Seu nome deixou os lábios do louro mais uma vez, numa prece desalentada e quando ele tentou alcançá-la, mais uma vez, Eliza se afastou. Já não podia confiar em si mesma perto dele. ❛ No. Stop, stop, stop! ❜ Ela respirou fundo. Ou pelo menos, tentou, porque até aquilo parecia difícil naquele momento. O ar simplesmente não chegava em seus pulmões, e não ajudava nada ter que encarar diretamente aquele oceano sem fim que eram os olhos de Alec. ❛ Just .. stop ❜

❛ I used to think that loving you was the easiest thing to do. And how couldn't when you were just so perfect? ❜ Fincou as unhas nas palmas da mão ao notar suas exclamações já embargadas com as lágrimas que segurava. Ah não, Deus sabia quando pararia se começasse de novo, e Eliza se recusava a se desesperar por causa de um cara. Mesmo que esse fosse Alexander. ❛ And I always thought that I was so damn lucky because, I mean, who really find the love of their life at sixteen? So even when my friends tried to say anything about you, I'd just brushed off, thinking they were just jealous of what we have — had, no, just.. Gosh, this is fucking confusing! ❜

A bailarina afundou o rosto nas mãos. Talvez para conter os gritos presos na garganta, ou talvez na esperança de que quando retirasse, se encontraria na cama dele e tudo aquilo não seria um grande pesadelo. Mas não era. Eles ainda estavam naquele maldito corredor daquela maldita escola, diante do que parecia ser o fim de seu mundo. ❛ I wish I could hate you right now, it would make things so much more simple. But I love you, Alec. I love you so much that it's taking everything in me to not comfort you right now. Because no matter how much I'm hurt right now, it's killing me seeing you like that. Fuck! I love you so much that I wish I could just forget everything and fix your mistake, but I can't! I can't because you were right: you fuck everything up! ❜ E se Elizabeth havia começado aquela conversa com uma calma surpreendente, agora o quadro já era outro. Era como se já não tivesse controle do próprio corpo;; toda a dor já estava bem visível ali para ele ver e as palavras iam escapando sem que pudesse sequer controlá-las, sem oferecer qualquer tempo de resposta para o outro. ❛ And it's not because of karma or some hidden talent of yours or 'cause things just don't go right for you. Oh no, it's because of you! Because deep down you don't really believe you deserve any happiness, so you just sabotage every single opportunity you have! And I tried. I tried so hard for you because I thought you were worth the fight, but sometimes you seem so ready for everything to fall apart that you rather just give up! ❜

Eliza não saberia dizer por quanto tempo os dois ficaram ali, quase que em absoluto silêncio, apenas se encarando enquanto o peso das coisas que disse estendia-se pelo ar. Decerto acabaria arrependida depois por cada palavra — ah, ela sabia bem que sim. Sabia que a agonia e surpresa explícitas naqueles olhos que tanto amava ainda iria lhe assombrar. Todavia, era jovem, impulsiva, e sempre teve aquela certeza de que se você realmente amava alguém, você não traía. Agora apenas lhe restava um orgulho ferido e um coração destroçado.

Aquele transe foi cortado pela sirene que anunciava o término das aulas, que os arrastou de volta para o mundo real. A Donndubhán mudou o peso do corpo de um pé para o outro. ❛ Maybe there's some truth in your words. Maybe that girl didn't meant anything for you, but it meant to me. And I'm sorry, but I just can't keep doing this anymore, Alec. ❜

As lágrimas já corriam livres por sua face e mais uma vez Eliza não esperou por uma resposta antes de girar em seus calcanhares e sair dali, sentindo como se os pedacinhos do seu coração fossem caindo pelo caminho.

#◞ ♡ character ∕ elizabeth d. * ❫#◞ ♡ ship ∕ eliza&alexander * ❫#◞ ♡ partner ∕ nina * ❫

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