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phoenix-before-the-flame · 1 year

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Family- your just not trying hard enough to find work

The jobs im qualified for- *requires laptop*

Me, with an almost 4 year old samsung tablet- its not that im not tryin, a lot of the jobs require a strong system and the tablet just cant handle it. Plus even the remote jobs are still specified to being based in a certain region, not many are fully open to international-

Family- 'just redesign ads for local companies for free, post then on instagram and hope the companies reach out to you. It's not that hard'

#my stuff #phoenixsad #i think im goin to kill someone #i am goin to avtually kill someone in this family #everyone loves havin an artist in the family to parade around until i actually need help with something #literally suggestin i do free art for companies literally what kind of fuckin crack are u on #sick and tjred of this shit #i am literally so damn tired

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 7 months

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Literally when will i catch a fuckin break from life

Haven't i suffered enough

#phoenixsad #im so fuckin tired man #of everything #gettin so hard to stsy motivated nhalf the goddamn time

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 1 year

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#my stuff #phoenixsad #hmmmmm one of those nights where im thinkin too hard on it again #its so hard to find work online specially when ur international #i be seeing jobs listed as remote but still wantin the person to be based in that country and im like #cool cool please consider that i dont sleep and i will stay up regardless of timezone #gimme the job

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 1 year

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Bank account? Empty

Job? Less

Stress levels? Through the fuckin roof

Food? Minimal

But uh, i stay surviving i guess

#phoenixsad #its uh uhm #its been a bad week for me #im very tired #so uh #dont expect me answering any asks or droppin any art pieces for a bit #i need to get my head on straight

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 5 months

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#phoenixsad #hate when i hate to bring this meme out but tis true #my day was goin so so fine then just #goodbye knee #u will be stuck bent and slightly shifted out of socket for an hour before the bones shift back into place #im so tired 😔

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 2 years

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#my stuff #phoenixsad #im so fuckin stressed man #cant find work irl cant find work online #days are blending together bcus every day is the fuckin same bcus im doin nothing #tryna stay afloat n not go broker than i alreaey am #i bought myself a box of milk as a treat and kinda regret it bcus it wqs more expensive than i remembered #i feel like im going crazy #im not gonna do anything stupid like off myself i just need to vent #whys shit so fuckin hard when all im doin is tryin my best

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 2 years

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Tfw ur immediate family that you've known all ur life treats u like a burden but the distant family you've literally only met yesterday treats u like a person

#my stuff #phoenixsad #honestly this is just about my sister #she sucks and i met some distant family on my mums side and they treated me better in one day than my sister has in so long #with my sister i feel like just something she has to tske care of #with my mums family yesterday i felt like someone

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 3 years

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Greetings all

Family fuckin sucks and i would like to move but alas i cannot so i must sit here to suffer because these motherfuckers don't know how to deal with their problems

#my stuff #phoenixsad #everyday this shit gets more unbearable #on the bright side i get vaccinated thursday so theres that

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 4 years

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My mum is coming over to help me carry my dog to the vet.

#my stuff #i had another breakdown again over this #i dont deal well with stress #especially when i feel like this is my fault #ive been so depressed lately over so many things #didnt sleep at all last night maybe 2 hrs at most #phoenixsad

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 3 years

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I think nothing no one ever talks about being an artist with health problems is the guilt

Like the golden rule of art is always to practice but, what about when you have no energy to practice? What about when you can't practice because your body says no? No answer.

Its always said to go at your own pace, find your own flow. But when your flow is slower than what's wanted either by yourself or whoever you're working for then it becomes an issue.

And you know that feeling guilty won't do anything, but then you see other artists pushing out multiple art pieces when you can only put out one. Then you can't help it.

#my stuff #phoenixsad #im fine really #its just hard sometimes #really hard #theres so muchni wanna get done but i cant bcus well #health says no #between fatigue the screwed up joints and general immune system issues its a wonder i get anything done lol #and like #my bighest fear is everything getting to a point so bad where i wont be able to draw anymore #it sure is something to sure

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phoenix-before-the-flame · 3 years

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