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cannibalisticskittles · 5 years

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moodboard/aesthetic board for my Toreador vtmb oc, Lucia. deets about her under the cut.

Lucia [Last Name Undecided], a Toreador in her mid-20s. her medium of choice is sculpting. she’s working with clay before, and likes it just fine, but at the moment she’s really focused on scrap metal sculpting.

(after hauling around heavy pieces of metal for so long, she’s got Arms For Days. looks fucking fantastic in a tank top or in a sleeveless dress.)

her sense of aesthetics is focused on the morbid and macabre; the ephemerality of all things, the knowledge that every living thing will one day wither and rot and turn to dust, no matter how glorious or untouchable it seems in life. life and death are forever entwined! the cycle is incomplete without death, and trying to stave it off forever is pointless and stagnant and boring! accept it! embrace it! you’ll be much happier for it.

has a tattoo on her inner thigh that looks sort of like this, poppies + her defining mindset — “this too shall rot.”

had a near-death experience in her early-twenties that reinforced her fascination with the macabre and left her with a gnarly scar around her waist/abdomen.

if you asked her what her favorite sculpture is, off the top of her head, she would probably say Lilith. the pose! the height! the eyes! the intensity! just wonderful.

has a tendency to isolate herself when she gets deep in her work; prior to the start of the game, she’d been holed up in her apartment for three months, relying on grocery and food deliveries to sustain herself. she emerged at last to meet with a friend who came to santa monica for a week-long trip; the Bite takes place only two or three days into it, after her friend got sloshed and lucia sent her back to her hotel in a taxi, choosing to linger at the bar for a while and then walk back home. finally alone, she could now be Approached.

(she may always be resentful of this. god damn it, she was trying to branch out and communicate more, trying to soak up the sounds of people and get outside, and you force her to cut ties with EVERYONE, FOREVER? her friends and family left thinking she’s dead? her art, left to gather dust in her apartment? she should have just joined her friend in the taxi. she should have been antisocial and said ‘no, i don’t want to talk.’ how was she supposed to know the dude was a vampire???)

when she was approached by her sire, she was also Kind Of Sloshed, and because of that, she’s not entirely sure what drew her sire to her or what made them decide to sire her, and that is maddening. was she acting ornery and ready to fight or did she turn up the charm? she can vaguely recall talking abt her sculptures and she thinks she even showed them what she was working on, at least in pictures, was that what did it? was she just Their Type?? did she get consigned to eternal unlife because some rando thought she was pretty? what the fuck.

her clothing style is eclectic. it ranges from super ragged things she wears when sculpting/making heavy-duty Artsy Shit since there’s a nonzero chance that whatever she wears will get absolutely decimated, to some Deliberately Provocative pieces — wear a bra as a top! unbutton that shirt and leave it open in such a way that a breeze could be responsible for a public indecency charge! and crop tips out the wazoo — to over-the-top fancy shit, sometimes to please her parents, sometimes just because it tickles her to wear smthing worthy of the met gala to go get a slushee.

comes from a semi-affluent family that tries desperately to gloss over that ‘semi-‘ part; has a subsequent distaste for the glitz and glamor that goes along with their attempts to seem ritzy, but still has no compunctions about mooching off of them to support her art for as long as she can squeeze a dime out of them.

squeezing a dime out of them usually comes with the stipulation of “please, for the love of god, do not make us look bad, don’t ruin the family name.” she gets a studio apartment to live in and make her sculptures, rent-free, and in return, she keeps her shenanigans on the down-low and occasionally makes an appearance at a fancy event, all dolled-up and ready to charm.

is pretty damn good at maintaining different Faces because of that; she can schmooze like nobody’s business. this was helped by her sense of aesthetics; people aren’t exactly vying for ownership of her sculptures, particularly the more disturbing pieces, so even though it’s absolutely dreadful to have to simper and fawn over uninspiring art, it’s important to maintain relationships with whoever is or may one day be a Big Name in the artistic communities. how else is she going to find an avenue through which she can sell her art?

flirts when she’s comfortable. flirts when she’s uncomfortable. flirts because it’s familiar and it’ll either make her feel more comfortable or make the other party uncomfortable, too, so they can be on equal playing fields. flirts with everyone. does she actually like you? probably! does she actually want to act on all the things she’s insinuating? less probable. sorry, boo, it’s just fun to tease, don’t take it personally.

died with long-ass hair, not because she preferred it that way, but because she couldn’t be bothered to cut it when she was focusing on her sculpting. it’s a source of annoyance in her unlife. even if she cuts it short one day, it’s back by the next, which REALLY doesn’t help when it comes to crawling through the sewers.

speaking of which, she does do a lot of skulking around california’s sewer systems, particularly since finding the nosferatu warrens. maybe it’s the atmosphere that keeps her coming back — the warrens ARE rather homey, and the neon lights are very nice to look at. maybe it’s the river of acid blood she nearly slips into every goddamn time. maybe it’s an unwillingness to adhere to the expectations of others and a stubborn refusal to take part in some sort of innate feud that she’s meant to leap headfirst into without question even though she has 0 ties to her clan and 0 reason to dislike the nosferatu on sight.

maybe it’s maybelline.

regardless, she likes the nosferatu. since they get kind of a raw deal by being plagued not only by prince lacroix’s wrath but by horrifying flesh abominations in the sewers that keep them fairly boxed in, she takes it upon herself to pop in between demands for her time to clear out some tunnels of tzimisce influence with her trusty sledgehammer — and to say ‘hi,’ of course.

she’d do more favors for gary if he ever apologized for being Fucking Rude when they first met.

...except, just kidding! that would be boring, and she can’t imagine he’d actually do it, anyway, so she won’t hold her breath.

it’s true that their first meeting was a bit of a shitshow, and she did NOT like being toyed with to that extent, and jesus, man, she’s never even met you before, are you that fucking mad that she still looks good in her unlife??

but after she gets a chance to actually rest and recover from the stress of a whole mess of Fucking Horrifying Fleshmonsters trying to rip her apart, all of whom were creepy enough that even her morbid sensibilities couldn’t embrace them wholeheartedly, and the additional stress of someone dancing fucking circles around her and managing to hide in plain sight to taunt her with some needlessly vicious comments, her irritation fades somewhat.

she’s gonna keep coming back to the warrens, and she’ll find the shit he asks for in his emails, and if he warms up to her a little, that’d be absolutely fucking fantastic, but if he doesn’t, well, it’s fun and pretty fucking funny trading barbs with him anyway.

hey, gary, say something else about her lovely face and sculpted body, she didn’t properly bask in those compliments the first time and she’s ready to lounge across your table with your skeletons while soaking it all in. c’mon, don’t be shy, she’s willing to really listen this time.

this ain’t deep, but a fitting song for her in the game is “loyal for” because it’s just saying “i’m loyal... for now.” once it stops feeling like prince lacroix is holding the sword of damocles over her head, she is out of here.

she’s bi, baby!

she would absolutely try this.

it’s lucky this game takes place in 2004 or else she’d be snapchatting everything.

call her Lu. no, in fact, she quite likes you; call her Lulu.

#lucia tag #vtmb #vtmb oc #i know this is like The most generic moodboard but here it is #i wanted to put in smthing that showed her smashing up shit but its hard to find pics of like #muscular women that aren’t stock photos #or that aren’t rly fetishy.#anyway that's my baby #i wanna know abt other peoples' ocs #also uh #blood #to block the post if that's a trigger

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theboykingofhell · 6 years

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Hey Ricky, prefacing this with I love u but I kind of have a different view on the way shipping culture evolved. Honestly I don't think it's necessarily a bad thing that people are becoming more critical when it comes to ships and unhealthy dynamics- I remember the days of 2009-2010 when things were a lot different and not always for the better (i.e rape being normalized in fanfics and abuse being presented as okay/not really abuse) . (1/Probably 2)

(2/2) Personally I just get kind of wary when it seems like people are jerking it to someone else’s abuse/suffering bc they can- A relationship with no problems is boring, of course, but as an abuse victim it just kind of makes my skin crawl when people who may or may not have been through the situation they’re writing about or consuming in some way present it as entertainment without thinking about who it might affect or what’s really going on inside it

well i mean.. i agree with you haha there’s like ten thousand different opinions i have about shipping culture especially now, especially with the life experiences i have now. i mean, it’s rly hard to make blanket statements about a lot of fandom stuff considering how huge fandom is and how many different individual things are happening… fandom isn’t a hivemind, so a lot of what i was talking about, especially before, is honestly just really specific to my dash and what i’ve been seeing on it in the past year or two compared to, let’s say 2009-2010

like, i understand that abusive dynamics is an incredibly fetishized thing in fandom, and i understand stuff like… i mean, what i’ve come to realize now that i am a survivor of a shitload of bullshit things is how so much of the hurt/comfort genre… can read as really fetishy depending on who is writing it and who actually has an understanding of what’s being written. some hurt/comfort does read as an exploration of trauma and recovery, and then other hurt/comfort stuff just looks like a woobiefying circlejerk over one cute character’s pain

so i do enjoy the fact that it’s becoming more known what’s wrong with this kind of shit but what i’ve found is that now there’s so much backlash towards anything in that vein, there’s no moderation and there’s no differentiation between someone who is being really fetishy and someone who is respectfully enjoying material for more personal reasons. i was talking more about the backlash one ship in one fandom has gotten because, especially out of late (i mean, it comes in waves when you check the tags) there’s been a lot of hate being thrown, lots of death threats, lots of people being blacklisted just because they’re into a ship, and that’s just… WEIRD to me! it’s not like a new thing, shipping wars has always been a thing, but there’s a new level now. i feel like (and this is an overarching problem on tumblr i’ve noticed that is only being aimed at fandom for this topic, but i see it with everything) that there is a VERY black and white, and very basic set of morals that people are forcing themselves to adhere to that aren’t realistic because, frankly, they’re kind of ignorant? in that it seems like, instead of forming their own opinions, people are latching so hard to ideas they read on tumblr and then run off to attack people who don’t conform to those ideas instantly, until that idea morphs and gets more and more extreme, until we’re left with nothing but this really extreme ONE view without any give-or-takes happening, no gray areas, nothing. which is largely because there’s just a lot of young people on here who are still trying to figure out where they are and that’s an unfortunate matter on its own blbhgkj

like, that’s one opinion i have on the subject, and then another is just the fact that, myself as a survivor is different than other people as a survivor, and i get that. there are people who have the opinion that there is absolutely no reason rape should ever be depicted in media as a plot form, ever, and that’s based on their experiences and that’s a valid opinion for them, but for me, when it’s written right, then i’m fine with it. then i’m more than fine with it. i like these kind of topics. i’ve always gravitated towards darker shit like that, even more so now that i’ve experienced it irl, so i’m also aware of the fact that my… let’s say, alarm, about the popularity and shift in tone in how these topics are talked about has changed is just because i’m so used to the 2010 era of fiction, and i’m still in that 2010 mindset where no one ever bats an eye to it, and my opinions and tastes now are the same as they were back then. if bakudeku had come out at the same time naruto had, i’m certain they would be the hugest ship out there in the fandom. now, that’s just not true. which is interesting!

and i hope it also doesn’t sound like i’m saying this is a bad thing. i’m just saying it’s different! for good and bad reasons, because, again, i’ve seen a lot of terrible behavior spurned from this kind of thinking and i think that is behavior that needs to be fixed, but just because other people have a different taste than i do doesn’t mean it’s wrong. so i apologize if it sounds like that’s what i thought cuz it’s not :s

#love you too bby :*#liveblogging bnha #cthulhuoflongisland #ask tag #rape mention //--/#abuse mention //--/

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