a note for my beidou re: beiguang is that, while it likely won’t come up in threads, i basically write them as exes.

specifically, they are very attracted to each other (  i have eyes  ) and obviously consider themselves still ‘together’ in some capacity, but it’s more of a flirtationship than anything more structured.  i believe they tried to be together in the more traditional sense in the past and it simply didn’t work out for a variety of reasons.  as i write beidou, she specifically felt very stifled — not by the relationship itself, but by the expectations imposed on her with the additional closeness.  and when beidou refused to bend or soften her beliefs or actions, ningguang felt disrespected.  so on and so forth.

maybe in the future they could try again, but...as things are right now, as much as they care for each other and as much as they love each other, beidou’s love of freedom and disrespect for the law is simply in too much conflict with ningguang’s strict devotion to tradition and law.  too many arguments over the right or the lawful thing, too many risks.  sometimes, some moments, love isn’t enough.  beidou thinks it probably will be someday.  just not today.