actually aside from not calling me my preferred name, it's also bothering me that at my employee review they were telling me "make sure to be at your desk RIGHT when breaks end!" because I go and take a piss after my break before starting back with work. I didn't tell them this cuz I think its fucking stupid to have to explain myself like that. So fine, I'll piss right before my scheduled break and then go on my break. Its 15 fucking minutes I'm not gunna waste it going to the bathroom when I'm allowed to go to the bathroom anytime (SUPPOSEDLY). I'm so fucked up in the head that if someone comments on this change like "thank you for making the effort!" just because I'm at my desk at 3pm and not 3:04pm ill get pissed n maul them to death (in my head). But most likely they'll be like erm we've noticed you leaving your station early and uhhhhhhurzitxkgxitsfhb

AND WHILE IM AT IT they were talking about the pace at which I work and saying I could work faster (BUT STILL without making any errors!!1!) I've honestly been working at a good pace and can get like 3 orders a day done assuming we actually get product in (that's a different story), which is the same as every other person in distribution. When I showed them my notebook where I wrote down everything I did in a workday since the beginning of april (because I have problems), they seemed surprised and were like "oh. Well we're more talking about preparing you for when it really picks up in the fall" ok so why did you try and make it seem like I'm not working fast enough right now?

They said "oh well we want blah blah blah units moved in a day in total and we actually get around blah blah" ok so is that a feasible goal or is it just higher-ups not knowing how things work in the warehouse and just wanting the 4 people max (who you LITERALLY admitted is much less than you used to have) to just magically work like machines (but still not make any errors!!)? One of them was literally like "ok I dont know how it all works down there but-" ok so maybe get a clue first before running your mouth.

And they ended by asking "and what do you think about cake day and pizza parties and awards where you get gift cards?" It took all that I could to not tell them it's a piss poor excuse for not paying employees enough, or allowing unionization, and while I'm at it forcing ppl to participate in "spirit days" is fucking stupid as well, and this entire "culture" surrounding workplaces makes me want to stick razor sharp glass shards into my brain.

But of course when they asked if I'd like to learn how to do another thing I was like "well if you need extra help, I guess" because if I dont play along for a couple more months I won't be able to get health/dental. 🙃

And no talk of a raise of course (min. wage is going up 70 cents soon after all!!)

The working environment and subsequently the society+social rules that come with it and I do not get along.