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How would the S boys to her S/O dying when giving birth? (Pretty sad ask xD) (Your blog looks very cute

death tw?? suicidal thoughts tw?? honestly idk how to tag tws but it’s a sad one, ok??? and also under a cut because it’s very long. thank you for requesting!! your blog looks very cute, too ^^

Shu:

• obviously, he’s devastated.. he always knew it was a possibility, but.. if he thought the chances were high, he would’ve never gotten her pregnant

• and honestly.. he’s not sure if he can take it. he.. fell in love with his s/o, and married his s/o. yeah, this baby is made from both of them but… he never planned to do it alone

• like any person, he starts off with the stages of grief, and he’s in denial. no.. she can’t be dead, that’s.. that’s impossible..!

• he embraces his baby, staring down at them, as tears started to drop. even if they didn’t look like the mother, it’s the only thing that shu can see.

• he sets the baby down, his eyes red, still in shock and he goes back to his s/o’s cold, lifeless body.

• is this.. this is the last time he’ll ever see her again.. just hours before, they were happy, and in love and the thought of this happening never crossed his mind

• …how.. could this happen to him..? he can’t raise this baby on their own; especially not in this state

• he looks miserable. he never expected to lose someone so close to him yet again.. and he can’t help but wonder if their baby is going to die, too

• he even wonders if the baby is better off without him; he just doesn’t think he’s going to make it, and he thinks that the baby is better off with another family.. a family that isn’t so… messed up.

• i’m sure he does keep the baby, and as time passes, he’ll realize that this baby needs him

• and he will never let anyone hurt them, because now.. the only thing this baby has is him

• and he knows it’s going to be hard, and it’s going to be painful.. but for the sake of their child’s happiness.. and the love for his s/o that still remains in his heart, he knows it must be done.

Reiji:

• that.. can’t be…? that’s.. he… he made sure that this wouldn’t of happened..

• well.. not only did he just lose the love of his life, the one that made him feel love, something so foreign to him, he also failed.. he failed to keep his s/o alive.

• and.. now what? now what is he supposed to do? he can’t just.. take the baby and go.. right…?

• i mean, he was nervous at first because.. giving birth can be a scary thing, but he never would’ve thought anything like this would’ve happened

• he messed up, and this is all his fault. his baby… they’re the reason why she’s gone.

• he doesn’t want to blame anybody, because.. it’s no one’s fault, but he just.. can’t believe it

• he refuses to let anyone near his dead s/o, or their baby. yeah.. this.. this is their fault she’s dead- not the babies fault, and not his fault.

• he’s gently holding the baby in his arms, but does not yet bother to even look at them. he’s just extremely upset about his s/o being dead

• he really wants to love his baby.. no, their baby, but it just seems so impossible.

• after taking the baby home with him, he just feels so lost.. he’s glad that his baby is here but his wife.. his wife. who is he going to wake up and look at every morning? and what about the sweet kisses, and the happiness, and all the love his wife gave him..?

• his baby.. he knows over time, he’ll feel happy with them but… it won’t ever be the same. even if he found a new person in his life, it will never be the same. and he doesn’t.. want to go through this again.

• he promises to not let his anger and fear get to him, for the sake of his child.

Ayato:

• what.. the fuck?

• there’s no way she’s dead- she’s.. she chose me, she can’t just die that easily!

• poor ayato probably just leaves his baby and is smacking his s/o’s face, desperately begging for her to stay

• also, assuming there’s more people in the room other than his baby and his wife,,, he might end up either killing someone, or just.. hurting them really bad

• he’s feeling so sad, and he feels so weak so of course,, he has to let everyone know he’s still in control

• ayato may even blame it on the baby for a little bit, and refuses to touch it, or look at it.

• he knows it’s his and his wife’s child together but.. if this baby didn’t exist, his s/o would still be alive

• he knows it’s harsh, and yeah he knows it’s kind of his fault because.. she didn’t produce the baby on her own but… it’s the baby’s fault

• either someone knocks some sense into ayato, or ayato just comes to realize himself that.. that’s his child.

• and.. all of those dreams he had with his s/o about starting a family? it can still happen, but instead.. it’s just going to be him and his baby

• maybe even his uncles..? …or maybe not because some of them are shitty, but..-

• obviously, it still bothers him, and it’s always going to. but, grief works differently for everyone, and ayato.. he’s not used to this feeling, so he’s going to take it out on people. i think about maybe 4 months in, he’ll fully come to realize that it’s just the two of them, and ayato’s going to be the best parent his child could ever have.

Kanato:

• no? no she’s not dead, you’re lying! you guys are all stupid, she’s not dead!!

• honestly, even seeing her body just.. lay there, dead and lifeless, he refuses to believe it.

• and like ayato, he has to blame someone for their s/o’s death, and he decides it’s the doctor’s fault (assuming that there was a doctor,, or nurse)

• once.. that’s all out of the way, he turns to his baby, and looks down at them as he holds teddy in his harms.

• “this is your fault. you know that? because of you.. your mother is dead..!”

• and.. now he’s back to stage 1 and is screaming and destroying everything in his way

• honestly i hope someone’s in there with him because..?? if not… it’s a disaster.

• by someone, i mean one of his brothers, or maybe even a relative of his s/o’s or something?

• also, he still hasn’t touched his baby yet. after more screaming, kanato heads over to his s/o, and begins talking to her.

• just things like, oh, you look so beautiful.. .fufu.. i didn’t think.. you would become my doll yet but…

• and then he starts crying- and then more destruction.

• his baby.. well, it might work out if someone pushes him but otherwise..? bye!! never wanted you anyways

Laito:

• wait.. no? that’s.. that’s not funny, don’t say that-

• omg.. no no non on on n on on o

• i don’t know how to explain this, but basically starts having a mental breakdown, just with out.. the physical aspects..?

• all of the real love he shared with her.. she taught him how to love.. she taught him what real love is, and he was scared at first because.. he didn’t want to lose her, but he didn’t think he’d lose her like this..

• this baby; it was made from love, and all of the joy that he felt inside his chest whenever he was with her.. so how..? how could.. the universe..? just take her away from him like that?

• she… she was his everything; and everything they planned to do with their future.. it all just disappeared. because she’s gone, and now she’s never coming back.

• so.. what now..? everything just feels so… pointless. he finally had felt true love and happiness, and with in seconds.. it just ended. was there even a point to living such a pathetic life anymore?

• well.. his baby… their baby.. what’s he supposed to do, now..? can he really be a good parent for them…?

• there’s no way.. he… he can never be a good parent.. he doesn’t even know what to do,, and his s/o… his s/o’s gone, and now he’s going to be very very very unstable for a while and.. his.. baby…

• would the baby really be better off with him..? he asks himself, tears starting to fall from his beautiful green eyes. he holds his baby tightly, and just begins to sob.

• it’s hard to tell as of now, but they look so much like her… is he really able to do this without her?

• of course, he can.. and months after, he slowly starts to recover, knowing it’s best for his and his baby’s health. besides, it’s what she would’ve wanted..

Subaru:

• ?? no ??? she’s.. she’s not dead?? look, i’ll even feel her..- oh..

• his eyes are wide, eyebrows furrowed as he looks down at his s/o, he sees her peaceful, lifeless expression. letting out a strangled noise, he starts to cry.

• “i knew.. i knew you never should’ve…-”

• he can’t even speak because he feels so horrible.. this.. is his fault.

• his s/o.. this wouldn’t have even happened if he only stayed away from his s/o.. damn it… how could he let this happen? to such an innocent girl, who had fallen in love with him.. and he just… kills her…?

• he eventually has to move away from his s/o because the more he looks at his s/o.. the more his thoughts start to just.. go crazy.

• all of that hard work of loving himself.. just evaporates. he wants to die. he knows he has a baby to take care of but… are they really going to be okay in his care?

• he.. he can’t be a bad father; he doesn’t want to be.. but there’s just that thought that sticks with him that he will never be good enough to take care of them.

• he immediately cuts off his thoughts, his paternal instinct kicking in. he rushes over to his baby, wiping his tears as he gently held his baby, stroking their small little face with his finger.

• does he know how to parent? no.. he’s done a little bit of studying with his s/o but… to do things without her just sounds so much harder.

• and yeah, it’s probably going to be, but.. he wants his baby to be happy. and in order to give them that happiness, he’s going to have to work hard to be a good father to them.

• it sucks that his s/o isn’t there to raise their child together but.. he can do this.. it’s what they need. he’s is never going to be a bad parent. never.

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