#oh they'll misunderstand and i'm not being my 'true self' i'll find a word that fits me exactly if i just keep looking
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i think that while micro labels can seem useful and affirming ultimately they're isolating and kind of an obstacle to your understanding of self. that's because you can never find a word specific enough. there will never be a label or two labels or even ten, twenty of them to perfectly capture and describe all of your thoughts, feelings, experiences, preferences, needs, interests, identities, etc. because you learn more and more about yourself every day and then you change and your wants and needs change with you. having to hop between labels, fearing that you don't 'fit' into a label anymore (both in your own and others eyes), worrying how soon your current label will wear out, questioning if you'll ever fully fit a single one. all that causes a lot of uncertainty and anxiety which could be avoided by just picking a more general thing and molding it according to what it means to YOU. because words will always mean different things to different people, you will never be understood immediately and maybe never completely by anyone but yourself and that's fine
#another thing is that micro labels often feel like they fracture the community unnecessarily#idk how many times i've seen fighting over hyperspecific ace labels and what they mean and if people described in them even belong#and honestly i think this discourse wouldn't be so vile and neverending if people accepted the idea of falling under general umbrella#and accepted that you can't describe complicated weird and wonderful act of human existence with a couple of words#you don't need to explain yourself to anyone#i know in our present pronouns/sexuality/gender in bio carrd era it feels like you have to but you really don't#people aren't entitled to a short summary of your inner world and you can't speed run connection#also feel the need to say: i have nothing against people who use micro labels#if you feel like your micro label describes you perfectly? i'm really glad and happy for you#i'm just expressing my own thoughts and feelings that come from personal experience with exploring these things#at some point i started doubting if i could call myself a lesbian#i thought oh i'm not exactly what a lot of people generally think of when they hear that word#oh they'll misunderstand and i'm not being my 'true self' i'll find a word that fits me exactly if i just keep looking#and then i found out being aroace is a thing and boy did that add a lot of anxiety and confusion to the pot#i didn't feel like i fit in with both communities wasn't lesbian enough wasn't aroace enough#but at some point i just got tired of trying to justify myself to others and to myself#identities aren't houses you live in they're more like seas or rivers flowing into one another#and spaces where they intersect are vague and hard to define and they shift and change and this metaphor is getting away from me#basically#words are complicated#but they're the only direct way we humans can communicate#it is what it is#so make art#a lot of it#oh also unrelated but if you ever tell older queer folks that they're using wrong words to describe themselves i am going to jump you
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Prompt by: @write-it-motherfuckers
From anyone elses eyes, you would assume that I wore such tight looking clothes for a reason. Where that may be true, the reason would surprise even the most imaginative.
I work in what would be known as Uprising Agency, which is connected to my other business of psychology and therapy sessions called M.U.I. or Multiple Universe Industries which both main buildings connect together in S.W.W. or Space Within Worlds. I would share what these specific things do, but that Classified Information due to Universal Law. I can however say that as much as I have helped the ones considered broken, I am the most fractured one of them all.
The only way the others in this line of work knew was on a week unlike any other. I recorded the entire situation on an audio log, but once listening to it, I was so terrified of what happened that I asked someone to put it into word format.
Log Entry:
My spine feels like it's on fire. It's happening again, I know it. Except this time, it's worse. If the others get wind of this, they'll want to kill me.
The last one came from the throat, so speech is the message in that. Shyness? No. Anxiety, maybe. But what about my back? Is that bitch telling me I'm spineless? Ugh God... I honestly don't know what to do this time.
I should take a shower. Chrome!?
Yes, Agent K?
Activate the google home function and pause recording for 10 minutes.
Activating Google Home Function Command/Pause/Recording
Log Entry:Paused
Log Entry:Recording
Okay, this somewhat helped, but I think it's close.
If I scream... and someone finds me, and them... I promise to explain later.
Oh God. THE PAIN! FUCK!
*falls on the floor*
*whispering* damn you to Hell, or bless you to heaven, nothing will work, you're mine twenty four seven.
No. I won't let you do this ag- OH FUCKING HELL!
*whispering* You misunderstand, every Goddess needs a Devil, the third between us, has become nothing but our vessel.
Help... me...
Log Entry: Disconnected
I was on the floor as my back had broken open and I looked at the creature that had been birthed due to my fear and self hatred. Being in the middle of the cosmic embodiments of the Devil and God has its limits... but I asked for this. I asked for full neutrality.
My mind went blank as I passed out on the floor, hearing a rhyme that has haunted me for years.
I am the saviour
Though I can never be saved.
I am the destroyer
Yet I regret the mess I made.
Call it Lovecraftian
As I still have no word
For what their labels truely are
Seemingly absurd.
I am not good
I am not evil
I just am
Even if you claim me a liar,
I don't give a damn.
All I wished to be was neutral
Now I'm to scared to move.
Spineless
Speechless
With nothing to prove.
All I can do,
is help others find their way
Who am I? I'll tell you now.
My name is Agent K.
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