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girl-bateman · 7 months

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Crazy how many kids grow up afraid that someone else will find out abt their parents substance abuse issues when it is something that literally affects 1 in 8 families.

Crazy how many kids grow up feeling lonely and misunderstood while there are likely several other kids in their class going through the same thing.

Crazy how many kids grow up isolating themselves and lying to others for the protection and comfort of parents whose job it should be to protect them.

#obviously this is somewhat generalising bc everyone handles substance abuse differently #but for every single person ive spoken to whos been through the same thing i have growing up #the statements above have been painfully accurate #anyway it makes me so profoundly sad thinking abt how much energy i wasted constructing a world of lies to protect my dad #which like ? protecting him from what? the judgement of my friends? i think he can live with that #i was so embarrassed abt it when i was a kid- i thought the whole world would fall apart if ppl found out #but like why? that shit has nothing to do with me. he embarasses himself. im not to blame for his actions #i remember doing a school project in 8th grade and my friend made a joke like 'dont worry my parents arent alcoholics'#and this boy was like 'no. dont worry. my dad is an alcoholic so i dont judge you'#and im still not sure if he was joking too ? but it didnt feel like a joke #but i still wish i could have reached out and said something. or just acknowledge each other in some sort of shared pain #idk. i still think abt him #hope hes doing good. he was a sweet kid :) my mom rly liked his mom lol

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