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taiturner · 2 months

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3, 5, 7, 8, 12 and 20 for Luther

If you don’t want to do all of them which I totally get lol just pick the ones that seem most interesting to you

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character? i wish they would drop the allison/luther relationship, obviously. i almost immediately stopped reading the comics when i realized it started with a rumor to begin with. i generally like everything about his character, flaws and alls, but that plot point really kills me for obvious reasons. i used to at least be able to enjoy their friendship but season 3 really killed that.

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them? my luther playlist is so long, and i made an edit once upon a time with a few of my favorites, but false confidence by noah kahan is one i usually think of first!

8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise? i could go on and on, but i'll try to only list a few. the biggest one for me is the use of any ableist nicknames. calling him a monkey man, especially, really bugs me considering his body dysmorphia + the fact that the body alteration was done without his consent. the "he won't shut up about the moon" memes, etc don't make any sense to me...? he was literally sent to, basically, solitary confinement on the moon for 4+ years (in which he was already depressed + self harming before the first year was even up, as we see in season 3) because his abuser was scared he was finally going to leave and he needed to keep his weapon handy. i also hate the way people associate his lack of social awareness with "being stupid."

12. What's a headcanon you have for this character? i have a lot but i'll name a few off the top of my head: we know that luther wrote poems about comets, but i've always liked the idea of him writing poems for his siblings while he was on the moon, too, as a way to process being away from them, especially as his feelings of resentment for them leaving eventually turn into longing to be with them. i also like the idea that his music collection is so big because he got really into music once his family left, because he was so used to the constant background music of viktor playing his violin that he needed something to fill the silence (+ for many other reasons too, obviously).

20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter? bringing my luther + lila agenda here because there are so many direct parallels between them that after 2x10, when he told her "love shouldn't have to hurt this much," i was certain they were going to capitalize on those parallels afterwards, but we didn't really get any. i don't think their personalities necessarily mesh, but luther knows all about acting as your abuser's weapon and trying to come to terms with what that relationship really was. i was also such a fan of his relationship with elliot 😌

#answered #weirdwildwonderland #i skipped 7 bc of how many answers i have for 8. fkdsjafklsj #ty for indulging me <3 #luther

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whispersnightcinema · 2 years

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July

Oh fuck I've been holding off writing this,

It's just been really amazing, sad, happy... does that make sense? I'm not even sure myself.

So I visited family over the 4th weekend, it was chill ate a little bit, snacked often, saw my aunts uncles you know the family.

It was non stop go go go... just so busy,

Anyway He had booked a layover flight that next Sunday, 12hrs we spent together, tbh I was so happy like all of my anxiety went away when he was physically here! I was so nervous to see him again and full of excitement, I get to my place and I take my heels off... then just like jumped on him since he was alrdy in my bed, omfg I just melted on him. ..I kissed him all over his neck, dug my face in it... just .... ahhh I was so happy. Like asking myself is this real? Like I'm not dreaming ? I don't know but just thinking about those 12hrs makes me so sad...

Before we get to that let me continue.

I changed out of my dress after we smoked a bowl and I got the massage oil out, gave him a full body massage and trying to avoid sucking his hard cock right in front of my face, but I'm good dealing with challenges. He had a full on body massage, he was so tense. Afterwards we get up to smoke some more, grabbed water...

Afterwards he lays down and we cuddle a little bit as I get his cock hard and suck it for a while as he grabs and spanks my ass, I gag as he fucks my throat, then he gets up and starts giving me kisses on my inner thighs, asked if I was turned on... but I wasn't, he sucked and licked my nipples, asked me if I felt anything. Then goes back down to my pussy. And starts eating me out. Holy fuck I was so wet and turned on so quick! Like so insane!

We fucked for a good while, I squirted and had multiple orgasms, I think I blacked out a few times... not sure, but it was so amazing, we ended up taking a nap, well more like I took a nap. I just put my head on his lower chest area, as he's just reading and giving me pets and running his hands on my back, tracing my face with his fingers...

Sigh...

just pure happiness.

I just never wanted it to end, then we went out to eat sushi, as I looked at him from across the table I kept thinking to myself like "damn I'm going to miss you so much, " then he says he feels like he's in a dream... I'm like "awwwwe" he says it's lack of sleep and just being so busy working, which he does work crazy long hours! I guess I thought he was being sweet but he wasn't... ugh! I swear romance is dead in this generation, like why!!! I wish I lived in an Era that was just set on romance and love poems to give to your partner...

Anyways,

We get back to my place and smoke, chilled a bit and went to the bedroom to nap from the food coma....

For some reason my hand started rubbing his cock and well... obviously we end up fucking again... like no tomorrow kind of sex, the I miss you sex, the passion was definitely there.

Afterwards we kissed and cuddled and napped a bit.

His flight was really early so I woke up with him as he gathered his clean laundry.

Then I got so sad after we hugged goodbye, like I didn't want to let go of his hand... I freaking cried like a baby. And kinda took a nap... it made me super sad not knowing when I will physically see him again... yeah we text each other everyday. But it's just. I fucking hate LDR it's driving me out of mind! Now I'm back to not wanting sex anymore, I don't even have the appetite , my thoughts are just mush right now, and I'm having a hard time sleeping!

To be continued....

Alright let's get back to this evolving love story,

So he is now road tripping across country with his team. We talked all day during his long drive, we talked about life together, where we stand in this relationship. Things like that ... tbh it was extremely pleasant, but during his drive b4 we hung up I think he dropped the L bomb. ..!! Maybe I'm hearing things, but I was like ttyl.... he calls me back once he got to the hotel and I really wanted to mention it to him, but like I was still in shock.. I think... because I kept replaying that in my head over and over again convincing myself that I'm tripping...

Me thinking " he's tired and delirious from driving so long, he doesn't feel these things, he's empty. Lol!" He doesn't mean it. He cld never feel as strongly as I do for him. Never.

Or maybe I should have said it back!? I don't know.

I had anxiety but I think I'm just overthinking...

We talked the other night as well and I think he said it again... but I'm still not sure because it was said so quickly, maybe,?!.... I haven't said anything back, I'm just so scared, like I feel as if I ... sigh....

Hold on... I'm trying to catch my breath.

Thinking about how much I want him next to me right now just really kills me,

I miss waking up to his cuddles, me digging my face into his neck, just giving and recieving affection.

But I'm a bit wiery , yesterday he mentioned how he is now starting to feel things, when I said " your empty, you don't care and your not happy "

Because he says if I read the dark towers book it would make him happy . So I giggled and said you don't feel happiness. He then said "some ppl say that but what they really mean is if they feel something they just don't know if they'll put effort "

Something like that, I got so high that I tend to space out.... lol! Prbly quoted it wrong but it was among those lines.

Then he said he's starting to feel things again.. and I'm like " oh so you are feeling things again that's great,"

He says it's like volcano lava... moving and I'm like... hmmm, thinking to myself is he telling me he is Having strong feelings now?

I said, "thanks for being open with me"

And we just either talked more and then said goodnight/sweet dreams... just our usual routine calls.

Our text have been more moderate, not as dry as before, because I tend to mention to him how dry our texts have become our conversations hmmm.... we talk about everything, and sometimes we don't say anything... we're just in each other's ear...

Tbh I'm trying to adapt to this shit still, like it sucks! I'm use to his absence now. I really am but at times I feel so alone 😔 I'm hiding my depression the best that I can. I cried in the bubble bath just thinking about everything, about could somone really have these feelings for me? As much as I feel for them?

I'm sure this dream is really a nightmare and reality is that I'm a Clown for feeling this way...

Sigh.... I'm afraid if I do tell him in person that I.. i

Uhmmm... like I can't even type it out.

Shit could hit the fan and I'm embarrassed for saying those words and gettng the " oh okay I just don't have that feeling towards you" type of sentence from him...

Yeah he is feeling things now, but how much is he going to express them to me in words?! Yes actions speak louder.

But sometimes hearing it like a song is also pleasing, as well you know...

Sucks that I have a huge romance side to me and I'm Here wishing he'd show some of that..

I miss him everyday, but I'm slowly feeling numb.

Could also be my depression, sadness taking over.

Fuck I'm such a mess inside. No clean up in asile #5

Too big of a mess and below pay grade to deal with it , yes I just referred myself to grocery items.

Until the next recap... let's see how long it'll be til he and I meet again... plz don't let me drown.

I'm still very happy with life and everything in it. It's just my thoughts are loud and I do have trouble sleeping... woo. Hoo..... lucky me!

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a-libra-writes · 2 years

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Hello! ✌️I wanted to let you know that everyday before going to bed I check to see how my fellow Libra is doing, and that you made me fall in love with Stannis (another one falls victim to his awkward mannerisms and hot sense of justice 😔👊) and Ned (... actually they're pretty similar on these fronts, maybe you made me discover a new favourite type??), but also Tywin (the complexity of this terrible cold man, istg) and Roose ( *chuckles* I'm in danger) You're officially the kind of writer that make me wants to read everything of theirs, even if I'm not in the fandom, so: thank you for your service!

I've never asked any request in my life, but your soulmates au live rent free in my mind and so, if you feel like it, I'd like you to expand on an idea...? I don't have much, but this: soulmate au with Tywin, post Joanna (set in whichever time period you think best, so if just few years after her death, or with Tyrion already grown up) and he discovers that this lady from a minor house (that isn't exactly in good relations with the Lannisters) is his soulmate. And I mean, he knew that Joanna wasn't, but honestly he could never expect to have a similar connection with somebody else but her, so he always ignored that, hoping neither of them would ever meet their "true" half. I expect he would almost resent this, especially if he found in her something that made him admit she is a good match, but would he give up such a thing, anyway? Depending on the soulmate au you choose it might even not be his choice: if everyone see their connection and there is a certain expectation, nevermind if now she's a possible weakness to get to him through the bond they share.

As I've said it's just an idea. Obv ignore if it doesn't tell you anything/there's something you don't like/you don't want to! Thank you for your attention, and once again I must tell you how lovely is your writing, how adorable are your fluffy pets and how dear you are! Coming to this blog feels everytime like coming home ☺️

Sorry if I did any mistakes, English is clearly not my first language and since now that I found my courage it's likely I'll write to you again (if you don't mind ofc), so to distinguish me I can be your Milkyway anon🥛🛤️ (I'm sorry I had to! 😔😌) I actually have no preference: call me as you wish, I'll know which name to take lmao

Have a good day/night!!

first thank you for all the kind words!!! Im always pleased when I drag others into my Stannis hell >:)

So this is a very interesting concept! I did a lot of chewing on it and I have Some Thoughts

So starting from the top, Joanna and Tywin knew they weren't soulmates. They didn't care; they were close from a young age (childhood friends, imo) and they knew their duties and place. Stories and poems of soulmates uniting and having a Happily Ever After were just as common as tragedies where soulmates determined to be together started wars and destroyed entire Houses. The history of Westeros is already bloody and fraught with war. So, like many Highborn lords and ladies, they were expected to ignore it. And anyway, the ability to actually meet your soulmate is difficult in a society where there's no internet, instant messaging, etc.

(Now obviously all this depends on what sort of soulmate AU you're imagining, bc there's so many and they're generally not AUs I'm invested in anyway, but I digress)

Besides, Joanna and Tywin were very in love. For Tywin, cynical as he was, he believed all the talk and absurdity about soulmates obviously wasn't true. Or at least, people placed too much importance on it. For Joanna, she was content. She was in love and happily married and loved her two children. Who was she to go looking for some stranger, whom she didn't even know the identity or age or status of? The two of them were so in sync, they probably didn't even talk about it. They just silently had the same thought - who cares?

Again, depending on what soulmate AU you believe in - like, some say you know when the soulmate dies - the fact nothing happened when Joanna died felt cruel. Tywin still had a mark, or perhaps thoughts, or couldn't see color - again again, theres so many - and somehow... it's like the gods were telling him that she didn't matter. There's no grand change, because she wasn't "The One." He already dismissed the gods before. After Joanna's death and Tyrion's birth, he truly resented them.

Tywin is so used to purposefully ignoring the soulmate business, pushing it aside, that it becomes second nature. Many believed Joanna was his soulmate, though neither of them confirmed or denied that rumor. Perhaps even his children believed it. He never speaks of it, anyway. And if this is an AU where there's a specific mark, naturally he would hide it. It would become like an ugly scar, an imperfection he doesn't look at and ignores.

(More interestingly - if this is a lady who appeared to him when he was much older and she was younger, a soulmate mark/"tell" might appear in the middle of his marriage to Joanna. There was something annoying about his soulmate being some child and later some woman who would be half his age. Joanna actually found it amusing).

Moving on. A situation where he comes into contact with a Lady and she's "the one" - the one all those damned poems and songs are written about - it might actually silence him. Perhaps she doesn't even speak to him. He just knows when she walks into the room. And perhaps, there's that realization that she might have known before him.

(Imagine, depending on your favored soulmate AU, some poor woman finding out Tywin fucking Lannister is destined to her. What's worse; that it's while he's married? Or after Robert's Rebellion? If she's of a minor house, or a Great one? Hiding it from siblings or parents who hate him? What if she's married at the time?! Wild.)

She might actually believe there's a mistake. She's going insane. It must be someone else. Can these things be wrong? A lot will depend on her personal feelings about the soulmate business. Does she pursue him anyway, to see what happens? Does she stay the hell away, thinking it's "too late" for them?

Tywin would go from uncharacteristic shock, to quickly recovering, to full-blown denial. Obviously he was mistaken. Depending on your AU, this may be more difficult to ignore. But by god, he'll try. He's too prideful to even consider approaching her, unless there's a reason. And then he'll speak to her like any other person, determined to not express anything, to act as he always does. Even when they both know the truth.

It would be a long, painfully circular song-and-dance that would only progress under specific circumstances, like an arranged marriage. And even then. He's so damn prideful, not wanting to admit to himself when he begins appreciating or desiring aspects about her. He's so prideful! It's infuriating. And he hates being distracted from work and politics for things like feelings, even if he and Joanna were constantly involved in politics as a team.

It's a Whole-Ass Thing. As yall should expect from this awful man. And lord, if word got out to his family or any of Westeros about it ... madness.

#this is REALLY interesting and dependent on a lot of stuff so sorry if i meandered or wasnt specific lol #soulmate AUs arent rlly my jam but i like to think about consequences it would have on the world or characters #because yall know me :P #🥛🛤️ anon #can i just say that is an incredibly cute anon tag....#tywin lannister x reader #libra headcanons

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cleverthylacine · 2 years

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P or Q or R for the author ask meme ? [it's guesso but on laptop so I can't use my acct - this is a shared side acct ahah] I hope you've been doing okay ! have a good night <3

Sure! I've been doing pretty well!

I think you missed the poem I posted for Soundwave Week which was probably written and sent via comm sometime between the end of Diamonds and Rust & the beginning of A Few Small Repairs, btw--it's here: https://archiveofourown.org/works/33900481 P: I'm something of both. I have a general plan for Voice of Stanix. I know there will be 5 arcs and approximately what canonical events I turned upside down to anchor them. But I also figure out a lot of things along the way. And the how goals are accomplished is also something that is revealed to me along the way.

I just found out what's going to happen to Getaway, and it's freaking hilarious.

A good example is Howlback and Grimlock. I knew they were at Garrus-9 at the same time and had probably met as prisoners during that shitshow. Then Howlback was standing in Glit's overcrowded waiting room with her broken tail and Grimlock and Misfire came in and it all kind of fell out of her. I still don't know what threads they will eventually tie together, although it's probably a safe bet that it'll have something to do with Overlord, given how many bullets Howlback has carved his name on and all. (That's a tricky storyline anyway, with Howlback being aro-but-not-ace rep and loving him without "falling in love".) Sometimes when it's a couple weeks between posts it's because I know how I'm getting from Point J to Point Q, but I have no fucking idea how I'm getting from Point M to Point N, and that's where I am right now, and it just has to come to me.

Q. Tons. There is a lot of stuff I wrote that was heavily inspired by Darkover, and by Harry Potter (meaning "it used to be fanfic") and I haven't got the heart to go back to any of it right now, even with the serial numbers filed off. Though I will go back to the ex-HP thing eventually, because the heroine is a trans woman and it'll be gorgeous to spit in JKR's eye that way. I also want to go back to Weirdmageddon Tango but the end of the associated RP broke my heart for a really long time.

There are also deleted scenes. In the first draft of Soundwave and Ravage's reunion they reunited much quicker than they did when I wrote the whole trip out. And so he wasn't sure she was going to take him back, and she even slapped him, and she had a good reason to, but by the time I got to the actual end of A Few Small Repairs, they had worked it all out. Obviously he still had concerns about that as per his discussion with Buzzsaw, but they'd fixed a lot of their problems long-distance. I'm glad I didn't have to write it that way. Their relationship would totally have recovered and on a level he knew he had earned that. But the long voyage home gave them plenty of time to hash that all out in a civilised manner. R. Tons. <3 Fanfic-wise, Astolat is the big one, because she made me fall in love with Megatron and gave me my first sense of who he really was inside, what he was about and what his poetry was like, and then that dovetailed right into IDW Ravage's history in the Dead End with Soundwave, and Drift and Ratchet, which gave me their long history of poetic arguments and conversations that nobody else ever saw until Things Changed.

I also have been influenced by Enfilade and Owlix, though my Ravage and Soundwave aren't just friends and are a couple, and my Deathsaurus doesn't have to eat people.

In terms of influences on my worldbuilding and storytelling: Cordwainer Smith, MZB (we didn't know she was a molester in the 1970s, and I really have thrown her version of paganism out the window and down the drain, but I lived in Darkover during my teens, ironically to escape from my own abusive family, and she had a solid grasp of how to write about telepathy and energy exchange, which informs my understanding of EMF dynamics), Frank Herbert, Lev Grossman, CJ Cherryh, Akiko Yosano, and Sei Shounagon and a zillion Japanese court ladies' diaries. Which is probably why I write a lot about the Warworlds. That and because it amused me to make Tarn the worst Pinkerton ever. (re Cordwainer Smith: consider the parallels between Ravage in VOS and C’mell in The Instrumentality series.)

#writer ask meme #my fic #voice of stanix #weirdmageddon tango #dracaena leffoy #lightningwar #world well lost

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