SIGH. there is this GIRL in my CLASS who i like genuinely dislike as a person partially bc i tried to befriend her and failed hardcore and it was really awkward but also for a multitude of other reasons. unfortunately she's also one of the only girls in my class i know is gay and she's kinda my type but see point a i genuinely dislike her and i'm pretty sure she doesn't like me or maybe anyone. all this would be fine but the worst part is she doesn't just suck in a normal way. she is a jerk in a way that is psychologically fascinating to me (longtime hobby of Observing People like a weird alien scientist instead of just interacting with them normally) and so i'm just sitting here like. man. kicking my legs back and forth with genuine anger and mentally writing a note that says WOULD YOU LIKE TO BE MUTUALLY FRUSTRATED WITH EACH OTHER BUT IN A KIND OF WEIRD AND GAY WAY ⭕️ YES ⭕️ NO ⭕️ MAYBE. i need to graduate like yesterday before this gets any weirder