Long time no post…

lil update

•I started working out last year around October & you could say that’s the start of my fitness journey. It’s been hard and I’m still struggling, but I’m better than when I wasn’t exercising.

•I’m about 5 months into working at my current job. Crazy to me that next month will be 6 months.

•Work has been crazy. I’m moving to a diff unit and I’m sure I’m gonna get floated a lot.

•I’ve been looking for another job bc I’m not happy..

•I’m still trying to figure out what kind of nursing job I want to do.

•Been on the mindset of “Let Go and Let God.” Leaving everything in God’s Hands bc He’s in control.

i’m already gonna be alone next week. I’m scared af.

Work is bearable but still it’s too much.

I don’t think I can do m/s bedside forever.

first day on the floor (shadowing a nurse) ☺️

Back to being a preceptee, but I don’t mind it.

08/04/2023–accepted a job as a m/s rn

09/25/2023-first day of work (orientation week)

Life’s been okay.

I’m not happy nor am I content with my job.

Scared. Anxious. Stressed. Worried

In a few weeks, I'll be on my own. My preceptor ended up leaving because she is finally now able to start her dream job. I'm sad she left, nonetheless I'm beyond happy and excited for her.

Let's back track to last week though--I started having 7 patients & it's been chaotic to say the least. I've cried, I was frustrated & I felt overwhelmed and stressed. It came to the point where I didn't feel like I was meant to be a nurse. I questioned myself if I was even meant to be one. I've talked to a lot of people about this (a lot of my nurse friends to be exact). I was contemplating about wanting to quit as well. But then I didn't necessarily have a backup plan in mind. I've prayed about it & to my surprise God heard my prayers--One of the patients (and his wife) I had told me as I was discharging him said this to me: "You're gonna be a good nurse, I know it." They also kept thanking me. I almost shed a tear because little did I know that I needed that reassurance. Everyone ate work has been helpful, but still I'm scared, anxious, stressed, and worried. It's been helpful hearing from the veteran nurses that they all felt the same way that I'm feeling now/have been feeling.

I'm honestly just trying to find ways to cope with pre-shift anxiety, dreading to go to work, and things that affect mental health.

…and I need to study for an EKG test that I signed up for next Friday.

I’m nowhere near prepared for it & I have to take it next Friday. I’m working Tues-Thurs next week too 🙃

wooork from 03•01•2023

Also, I got my CA nurse license 🤍💜

02•27/28•2023

one of the reasons why I’m grateful for my job 🙏🏼🤍

woooork from like a few weeks ago 😅

There’s a first for everything…so here’s to my first 12 hour shift ☺️

It’s getting real..

Life Update. 

After taking some time off, I started to work & try to perfect my resume and cover letters. I'm still in the process of doing so while trying to apply for jobs. I found out the CA nurse requirements & man, it's a lot. On top, there's a fee as well. As much as I want to go back to CA, I feel that I need to work here for a bit first because I don't want to keep waiting nor do I want to be in this situation for long.

But aside from this, it's still crazy and surreal to me that I am no longer a nursing student nor am I studying for the big test aka NCLEX. It feels so dang good to be on this side. The only thing that sucks is transferring my license to CA & applying for jobs. But hey, all I need to do is trust in God. Tbh, that's how I survived nursing school (even before I started nursing school)/NCLEX.

I'm hoping to catch up with friends soon bc I miss them. I also miss home in CA so I'm hoping to go back later this month.

I passed the NCLEX

I passed my second attempt at the NCLEX!!

This nursing journey of mine has been a wild ride. Lots of days of having self-doubt if I'd ever get into a nursing program. In 2019, took a leap of faith, applied to only one nursing program outside of California and got in. Nursing school was not at all easy. I was close to failing some classes but nonetheless, still continued to try despite wanting to give up. I survived, passed all my classes, & graduated with honors. I took my first attempt at the NCLEX around July but ended up failing it. As much as I wanted to give up, I had more than enough reasons not to. I took sometime to take a break, and then studied harder the second time. I saw a huge improvement on my practice questions. I scheduled my test for 09/07/22 for the second time but didn't tell anyone. I end up getting an email from the state board saying that I have an official license the next day (Sept 8, 2022). I didn't wanna believe it until I saw "pass" on the NCBSN website.

Now with that being sad, I am officially Nina, BSN, RN.

Pray & Never Give Up, Luke 18:1