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electronicneutrino · 7 years

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list of good things

math is logical and makes sense and it exists

math is fun and i’m good at it

likewise physics is really cool and makes sense and it exists

yells about neutrinos btwtheneutrinostuffieisstillthebestpresent

I don’t have to worry about getting in university at all anymore

no seriously I can get a 70 in english and bio and 80 in maths and i still meet the conditions and i can get higher than that

I am doing well in school. i almost always get my homework done despite feeling lousy

sam is very nice and caring and etc etc and i am grateful and i love her

also reminds me to do the sensible things i should but dont want to the second opinion is very helpful thanks

sandra is fun and great and etc etc and loves cats

she sends me cute cat picture when i am sad many thanks

I have friends who are great and I can talk about science stuff with

I have friends I can talk about math with

in general science and math exists and that s very cool

No one actively wants me dead

i have a general idea of what to do next about whatever’s wrong with me

I went through guidence without a phone call home

Cats exist

One day I will have a cat

at the very least a cat

Dogs also exist

one day I may also have a dog

One day I won’t feel so hopeless anymore

and won’t feel bad for feeling bad and whatever other nonsense negativity

and won’t be tired all the time bc of overthinking said negativity

and said day if i feel bad i can cry without worrying about someone implying im selfish for crying

and also will have a cat

and some proper help if the problem persists

the future looks bright-er

also i’m already better at dealing with it than past me

One day I’ll be optimistic without fear of disappointment

and get over disappointment easier

One day I can study math and physics all day

one day more like probably in less than a year that’s great

ani morphs and k nd exists

moonb abes and moonbase yes. also morphing and a.ndalites

i have some of the an imorphs book in physical copy and all as ebooks

I can read them whenever.

recently reread #19 and #7 and #26 its a nice reminder of the good things and problem solving leading to good things

birds exist

oranges and fruits exists

c olours exists there are some very nice colours and colour combinations out there and i can see colours

I’mstill able to think up good thinks about myself

I have art supplies and a laptop and a graphic tablet

bookmarks are fun to make

I’m slightly better with interacting with people

misunderstandings and stuff are experiences to learn from

also i’ve learned more about canadian/western stuff this year

i found a juice that tastes just like a good candy

i have been drinking it these days and it tastes good

actually switching between the juice and soy milk tastes only slightly meh

the juice still tastes good

there could be something good on the chinese new year gala and if not i’m missing part of it bc exams anyway

I have a strawberry scented lotion and it smells nice

idk if going to china again is good or bad but at the least lanzhou beef noodles aw that i can look forward to. also lots of stationary

small thing but I like the airport

also one day i can go to china whenever i want?? if I want???

honestly half the reason is the beef noodles and stationary

i’ll probably feel better after winter

or at least not as bad as i feel these days?

I’M STILL ALIVE DESPITE FEELING LOUSY and wanting to die every other day

there exists good books to read one day

i like the origami roses hanging from my cieling

the roleplaying i did over the year or so has helped i think

character analysis is slightly easier

i have math every day both semesters

and i don’t have to worry about it like that’s practically having one less course of homework and studying and it’s fun anyway

yells i can’t wait until we do trig derivatives and antiderivatives

and one day I’ll be a theoretical physicist

Despite everything, I’m still trying to be better

and I’m still alive

#personal //#happy tag #i guess ????#shrugs its actually a considerable list #i should write it down and carry it with me or something #i mean god i should focus on the good thingsmore but sometimes its just #'look i spent last night wanting to die and yet im here and actually not sobbing in front of you give me some credit for that at least pls'#shrugs. idk. i'm probably not the only one who feels that way though. at the same time i wouldnt tell them to just 'get over it cheer up' so #or at least i wouldn't intentionally. i guess 'dont think about it' can be taken the wrong way too easily. i should stop saying that #but no i should remember cats and colours and math and people and stuff. i should try making lists like this more often

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