oh it wasnt that bad but it still irked me a bit. (someone help ibuki...)

Aku [bukan] Seorang Guru

Sejak dulu, senantiasa ingin jadi guru. Hingga selangkah demi selangkah kian Allah permudah. Sejak awal tahun pelajaran ini, aku resmi bergabung di sekolah dengan jam mengajar 22JP/minggu.

Look! I'm teacher!

But! Teacher? Really? Am I the trully of teacher? Jst bcz having my own teacher desk in the office, preparing all of the lesson planning for each day, preparing the test for students, bring the books and marker class to class or jst bcz students call me 'ibuk'?

Sometimes, i think hard bout the real meaning of teacher. And, poor me.. I got my self, not be a teacher yet. Sebab secara sadar tak sadar, mungkin seringkali memasang wajah tak nyaman saat anak2 tak bisa jawab saat ulangan lisan, atau saat anak2 terus menerus menggeleng kepala ketika sudah kujelaskan berulang.

Jika sudah demikian, merasalah diri sebagai manusia paling tolerasi sedunia, sudah memberi sekian dan sekian keringanan pada mereka, membela diri dengan dalih 'salah siapa disuruh belajar, tapi gak mau belajar'

Padahal mungkin guru ini yang tak menarik mengajar, tak membangkitkan minat dan gairah mereka dalam belajar. Poor me. 4 tahun belajar teori dengan beberapa praktik d bangku kuliah, dan rasanya belum cukup. Cz the reality is more more more complex than u think. Ah, feeling guilty for it.

u're learning as a student, and of course me too, learning to be good teacher for u all.. Let's move, let's be better!

Chatting could never replace long walks, and late night conversations. Thanks for letting me spend 2 of my nights with you! >:D<

I love...

301.how you motivate me to go to school. LOL! 302.that I don't mind going to school as long as we have plans 303.how we shared your earphones! 304.that we took turns choosing the song being played 305.how most of UDD songs remind me of you HAHAHAHAHAHA! 306.and at the same time hate that you don't get jealous when I try to make you jealous deliberately 307.that I don't get tired walking when i'm with you :* 308.that I feel the urge to take a shower when going to school even when I'm already late. pota baka ibuking mo na naman ako e 309.how your eyes sparkle whenever you see literally ANYTHING that's matcha-flavored 310.your winks, fuckin melts the shit out of me 311.how funny it is that nobody ever answers each other's i love you. LOL! 312.how you go all lovey dovey whenever you say hurful things! 313.that your jokes freaking pierces me (kase pota half meant kahit joke lang) 314.how we both got goosies nung nagkwento ako ng creepy stories. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! 315.how cute you and your brother are coz you already got future plans 316.that one time, where you left me messages while I was asleep, couldn't have woken up any better! 317.that you calling me bb apple would never ever get old! 318.THAT YOU GOT SCARED OF A POST LIGHT! HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAH TANGINA DAMI KO TALAGANG TAWA NON 319.that your winks can't be less than amazing <3 320.that we were both amazed and cringed with the "article" that you read HAHAHAHAH 321.that whenever I think about marrying you, all I can imagine is draught... poor Ian... 322.the lowkey manyak that you are! 323.that you didn't even feel a little freaking awkward that you went to school, to the mall with me not wearing a fucking BRA! 324.how I'm willing to wait for months, or even years for the day that you'd finally trust me 325.how you'd look back while walking away from me. 326.that there's no one else that I wake up for but you :) 327.to be honest, our chat's isnt that enthusiastic but it's a totally different case in person! 328.that I wasn't completely happy with your revelation. (proves na hindi pa ako psychopath. LOL!) 329.how our status is now perfectly paced. we'll do it the old school way :* 330.you. there's nobody else I want more than you.