No, seriously, what the FUCK is going on with this summer. Why is everything so weird and happening all at once.

I need it all to stop because I don't know how much longer I can deal with the weirdness.

Personal rant below, to avoid spamming your dash.

My mother cheats with a guy 32 years younger than her. Alright. She wants a divorce from my father and starts spewing shit about him. Um, okay. My father goes into depression, rage, pain, stability, rince and repeat. Sure, no problem, I know his character and I understand what's going on with him right now. My own anger, pain and incomprehension can take the backseat.

My father's water well suddenly stops working for 3 weeks, impossible to water the trees in the middle of a summer from hell. Problem, but after weeks of checking everything, wasting money on pieces of the pump and ferrying around workers, we manage to find that the problem is neither the pump nor the water levels, but the pipe that was cracked on like 5cm and it only needed to be cut. 3 weeks and thousands of dirhams wasted for nothing. Really annoying.

Weird lights in the sky, sudden gusts of wind carrying around sand and dust, heat, no rain, dry storms... Yeah. Eerie on the good days, downright creepy scary on the bad days.

The dog next house that we go give water every couple of days to avoid seeing him die of neglect before our eyes, climbing the wall and improvising a machinery to get him water. Weird, but okay. The owner of the dog actually made an appearance, my father scolded him in his very polite but firm way, told him that I was giving the dog water and to leave the rope we se to get the jerrycan, the owner agreed (he's a distant cousin of my father, welcome to Moroccan countryside, family tree more like family maze).

But now, half an hour ago, my dad is chilling in the garden talking with one of his cousins, my sister is inside reading, I'm on the veranda reading, all lights are turned off, when suddenly there's a guy entering the backyard where we have a peach tree with a couple of green peaches and the windows of our bedrooms. He just. Jumped down a wall, stole a peach, run across the backyard in front of my sister's room where she was about to get changed, climbed the back stairs and jumped over another wall.

... WHAT.

And then my father apparently saw him from the garden, and barefoot went running after him, and apparently ran around the entire village after him, met one of his cousins and his nephew, came back home without catching the guy (not even a guy, a teenager, 15-16yo). Sister and I are just about giving up on trying to understand the weirdness of the entire summer, deciding on going to give water to the dog before going to bed. I'm reaching the top of the wall when suddenly my uncle, his wife, his brother-in-law, my two cousins, my father's cousin that was there at the beginning all arrive. Oh, I forgot to mention, it's HALF PAST MIDNIGHT.

I'm. I'm fucking giving up, how in the name of SANITY am I supposed to write a bloody master's thesis in these circumstances??? I forgot to mention my sister's heart problems, the people building houses all around my dad's field and the weird encounters we have with these foreigners who already know of our reputation (did I mention that my father is kinda famous/infamous in the region because he doesn't bow down to the corrupted authorities like everyone else... That brings troubles too), the countless taxi trips to get to the town to by groceries and counting every coin because we have neither car nor money, both belonging to my mother, my mother moving houses, my mother in general...

I AM DONE. (they say, knowing full well they can't actually be excused from the narrative because their most important people need them)

Holding knives to people's throats, slapping people across their faces, everyone has fucked each other, "I'm not your friend," "What the hell did you say?!"

God, I love this toxic shit!

Give me ethical non-monogamy First and Soong!

"you keep her safe?" "I will 👍 keep her safe 🤡I promise🤪"

the past week has been a telenovela for me jesus chrisrttttt

She’s literally SO PRETTY YOUR HONOUR I’m gonna call the police (pun intended)

did i forget or they skipped this whole drama with kat's parents in the anime?

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this sounds fake coming from a house md stan but im really not that much of a tv person. anyways how are we feeling for tonight's succession?

HOLD ON REBELDE IS BACK HELLO??????

Sisters and I went to spend 2 days with our mother in the city and watching back-to-back Barbenheimer (no I will not stop calling it that) is literally the only saving grace, the one truly good thing, that came out of these 48 hours.

In other words, my mother is bloody insane and it's starting to get a bit scary, Barbie had me on the edge of my seat literally with glee and emotions, and Oppenheimer was a masterpiece of history, humanity and art.

On some days I think about writing down what has happened so far to me and then selling it to Disney

waiting for a new obsession because rwrb is starting to annoy people

it’s not a visit from my grandmother unless there’s some drama that results with my mom quasi yelling at her in Spanish to not do something unhinged

reminder that sometimes when someone resists your boundaries, its actually confirmation that the boundaries you put up are needed. It’s doing its job.

i literally learned three months of economics in a week which im proud of, but idk how to do exercises yet and my exam is tomorrow and im so tired 💀💀💀💀💀