the idea of not achieving my dreams makes me legitimately suicidal I don't think I'll be able to handle it if I don't get my script picked up and produced but the odds are astronomically low even though I'm extremely confident that it's good. like more confident than I've ever been in anything I've ever written. but if it doesn't get made it will always just be a script not an actual show. it'll always be an unfinished project. I need this so badly I would sell my soul to finally just get to write for a living