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exhaustedalien · 1 year

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I struggle to put this into words but the way Arthur deals with his illness is so upsettingly relatable as someone who deals with chronic illness/disability.

How he's not honest with the people around him about his illness. Going along with what people ask of him because the alternative is admitting to them (and maybe himself) just how sick he is and his physical limits.

The frustration that those physical limits make easy, simple, everyday tasks, things he has always been able to do, things he thinks he should still be able to do, embarrassingly complicated and difficult.

Struggling to pace himself even after he knows he's sick, even after he discovers his new limits, because things still need to get done, he just needs to push through it. Just this one more thing, even though every last thing he pushes through will just make him sicker and make the next "last thing" even harder.

Losing his status/position within his community as a direct result of losing his strength and ability. Losing all the parts of his identity that were tied up in that position and ability. Reckoning with who he is after all that is taken away.

#me seeing a very bleak depiction of a man contracting an often terminal illness and doing everything he can to make it kill him faster:#chronic illness king! representation i needed! comfort character!!#rdr2 #arthur morgan #rdr

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