LINKIN PARK: Numb Live in Texas (2003)

😭😔 with Eddie Guererro?

Eeeeh

He doesn't define you

Pairing: Eddie Guerrero x Fem reader

Description: You confront your biological father after an exhausting tag team match with your boyfriend Eddie

Warning: Emotions, Minor swearing, and talks of child abandonment

A/N: I cried like a baby writing this especially since my biological father abandoned me as a little girl 🥺

The match was exhausting as you and your boyfriend Eddie Guerrero were against Chris Jericho and Chyna for a chance to go against Edge and Christian for the tag team champions title. The two of you did well together but as the match went on the four of you grew exhausted as none of you would give up even when you broke jericho's nose and eddie accidentally fractured chyna's finger, your chewing on your nails as eddie and jericho hit each other with chops but your heart stops when you see a familiar face of the man who abandoned you as a young child and who you haven't seen since you were 15, jumping in when you see chyna with a chair getting hit in the face still seeing your biological father staring at you not even noticing that eddie got the pin and had won for the two of you noticing the tears that slowly brimmed in your eyes as the two of you raise your belts feeling a bit sore from the chair hit before walking out of the ring where you started to shake with quiet sobs backstage and they broke free after the two of you went in his locker room. "What's wrong mi bebita?" you break down telling him everything, calming down and getting up to check on chyna since she was a friend to you with eddie next to you stopping when you see your father backstage in the corner whispering to eddie to talk to chyna waiting until the door was closed "Hey darling it's been" you cut him off angrily feeling rage boil in you "What the hell do you want? I haven't seen you in seven years and now all of a sudden you appear?! It's because I have money don't I?" he stands there sniffling which only makes you scoff as he tries to "Tell the truth" to you only blaming your mom for her telling him to get his shit together and get clean from drugs but instead he left her, you, and your siblings to fend for yourselves finding out later on that he didn't want any of you which ripped your heart out of your body only making the hatred within you grow "You didn't want any of us you didn't give a fuck then! Why give a fuck now huh?! I have mom and I have a dad, he's been there ever since I was born, was there for every birthday and holiday, took me out for lunch for the day, saw me before I went to formal and prom, saw me graduate, always hugged me with a kiss on my head and told me he loved me and the best part was he was there not because he felt like he had to, needed to, or was told to he was there in my life because he fucking wanted to and loved me with all his heart!" you felt your body shake with sobs as your lungs gasp for air, your face covered with nonstop tears, and your heart pounding as Edge, Christian, and Rikishi turned only to see the confrontation you waited to happen for years. They watch as you turn only have him grab your arm fixing to grab security or jump in when you swing and slap him with all your might "I swear to god you put your hands on me again I'll beat the shit out of you as mom or anyone else who was around you should have a long fucking time ago" christian grabs security as you turn feeling ashamed that the three saw what happened before being pulled into a hug by edge while rikishi stops him from reaching you after he gets up feeling anger seeing all the snake trails on his arms you have him stand behind you with edge as you stare him in the eyes "The only difference between then and now is that I actually know the truth and I get to say goodbye and this one is for good, goodbye stranger now get the hell out of here before I really lose control" security escorts him out after sharing a group hug with the boys before walking back to the locker room quietly crying where eddie finds you having heard everything immediately pulling you in his arms "I'm so proud of you for taking that step to truly heal, he doesn't define you and you are not him, I love you carino" you cry in newfound emotions in his arms before heading home feeling safe and calmer in his arms feeling a long heavy weight lift off of you.

I’m so fucking tired, the switch to being a morning person is wild. I’ve never been that girlie and I never thought I could be but I’m loving my new job so far. Literally couldn’t be happier, I’m sure as it goes I’ll find things I may not enjoy but so far it’s been amazing. But again this was my first week and I don’t know shit yet. Enough about that, writing wise I’m so sorry I’m super behind. I’m still determined to keep weekly updates for the sibling verse, (delaying posting cause I’m supporting Palestine.) But I want to do multiple updates and at the very least give Vordark my beloved the weekly updates. But I’m too tired to try and write right now, so it’ll have to wait till tomorrow or maybe even Sunday. I’ve been working like nonstop the past three weeks and I don’t even have my Pens to keep me energized. Don’t even get me started on irl relationships with people, I’m still upset. But yeah I’m hoping to be on it soon

Update: dreaming up yet another shinshi verse I can’t write cause I have too many WIPs and I just can’t. But I’m hoping to start the next chapter of the sibling verse before I have to actually get up and ready!

Update 2: I started the next chapter of the sibling verse but had to do some errands and now I’m tired again. I’m gonna nap then watch the mean girls movie then hopefully finish the chapter. We shall see (I did finish the chapter!). Alright, I should have the full day today besides football and airport run way late. So I’m hoping to pick back up on the valentines event, then midnight rain, then the pov series that’s taken me too damn long already to start *sigh but also I would like to read one of my book books too. I’m feeling so behind in everything, and while it’s cause I’ve been so busy. I just wish I could be more on top of things, but I’m only human and it’s been very exhausting existing lately. Most of it is still very filling and I really do truly love my new job but there’s so much I have to learn!

Update 3: irl continues to be a lot. I did not get to go about my day off the way I wanted. It ended up being way stressful, but on the bright side I booked another trip cause of course I did. Okay now I’m gonna try and write. The curse of my main character energy continues, please just let me live my filler episode dreams!!! 😭😭😭

I’m halfway through with the valentine event I think, and idk why I’m exhausted. But I guess I’ve had a long week and today was a lot also. I’m gonna take a nap before I have to go to the airport and pick someone up. Idk if I’ll get more writing done after, and any tomorrow but I will try. At the very least, I’m going to update either the sibling verse or midnights. I believe I’m caught up on comments now, I love when I get to read fics! But now it’s time for bed cause unfortunately I need to be a morning person. One more day off but it’s going to be very busy with rl stuff again *sigh hoping I get some writing done but I’m not holding my breath. Now excuse me while I continue to dream about this fic I have no intention of writing, it’s another memory loss one cause of course it is

Update 4: I’m about to go to sleep cause I need to be a morning person (yes I’m going to keep talking about this until it actually happens) but I think I’m done with the valentines event! Super short chapters so it wasn’t that hard to do, but I’m just glad I got it done! Now I can go back to working on my projects I wanna do once I get used to my schedule. Also I ended up updating the sibling verse instead of midnights cause of my time stamp thing, but I will try again tomorrow