theories as to where Grace got the cigarette she was smoking after fucking Max's ghost:

she has actually secretly been an active smoker for a long time and always carries a pack with her

she bought a pack of cigarettes when she was on the run from the cops because she was stressed, and figuring that she had already disappointed the Lord by touching herself and lying to the police and dismembering a body, decided that she might as well relieve that stress by taking up smoking

Max died with a pack of cigs and a lighter on him and they stayed with him when he turned ghost and Grace pocketed them from his clothes after they had sex

she just found them in the school or on the ground somewhere after the Lords in Black meeting, and perhaps her mind made the association between sex and cigarettes and that's how she came up with the idea of giving up her chastity to end Max's reign of terror

Grace had immediately thought of giving up her virginity as the sacrifice after the Lords in Black meeting, and the entire time Steph and Pete are running away and tearfully coming to terms with Steph having to kill Pete to stop Max, Grace is running around the school or off to a drug store for cigarettes because she felt having a smoke after was that necessary

1: Talk about the first time you watched your favorite movie. Who even remembers that? I remember watching chucky or some scary movie when I was really young tho. 2: Talk about your first kiss. It was during the summer. I think I was 14. I was over romans house with a bunch of my friends and we were watching wax museum I believe and he pulled the covers over us and kissed me. I didn't even kiss him back lol 3: Talk about the person you’ve had the most intense romantic feelings for. He broke my heart. He left me in the worst way. With no words, no explanation, no closure. I'll always love him though. If he came back, I'd probably let him back in. I don't want to though. I doubt he will. 4: Talk about the thing you regret most so far. Getting involved with David. Catching a felony. 5: Talk about the best birthday you’ve had. I've never had a good memorable birthday. For my 19th I got really drunk and went to see a movie and fell asleep thru the whole thing and ended up throwing up crackers on the floor n fell asleep. Lol 6: Talk about the worst birthday you’ve had. They all sucked. None in particular really stand out. 7: Talk about your biggest insecurity. Probably my face in general. My smile. My crooked teeth. 8: Talk about the thing you are most proud of. I'm not proud of anything. I guess just finishing high school bc I really didn't think I'd make it and maybe making it this far. 9: Talk about little things on your body that you like the most. My little moles. I have them everywhere 10: Talk about the biggest fight you’ve ever had. Physical or emotional? I don't ever really argue with anyone. I guess that one time with David when I screamed fuck you and he was like fuck you too and told me to get out of his house but wanted to block doors and shit. Oh maybe that one time Chelsea got drunk and hit me and tori left her at a gas station in Oklahoma. 11: Talk about the best dream you’ve ever had. I can never remember my dreams. None of them are ever that nice just fucking weird. 12: Talk about the worst dream you’ve ever had. Trump trying to have a 3some with me and hitler and when he got mad he turned into a really tall black woman and busted down the door to get to me. I had a dream about a bus full of kids getting shot up. 13: Talk about the first time you had sex/how you imagine your first time. I was high. Wasn't that good. It was with my first love. It was after some teen club. I was 14. 14: Talk about a vacation. I don't think I've ever been on vacation. But I did go to Florida for my half brothers wedding once and I was on the beach. 15: Talk about the time you were most content in life. Anytime before I was 12 16: Talk about the best party you’ve ever been to. I don't go to many parties. None of them are really eventful. I usually never wanna be there in the first place besides to get drunk. 17: Talk about someone you want to be friends with. No one comes to mind. 18: Talk about something that happened in elementary school. I was "dating" roman in like 4th grade? Or 3rd and he would leave me money in my locker sometimes like 20$ and I was joking and said I'm a gold digger and my bitch ass little friends went and told him and he broke up with me and my friends were going back and forth on the soccer field saying "oh she said this!" And "he said that!" And he told me to suck his dick and I told him to suck his own dick and we somehow ended up getting in trouble and we got Saturday detention and they really had the nerve to sit us at the same table across from each other LOL 19: Talk about something that happened in middle school. I had a few good friends. Alex. Bailey. Angel. Roxiee. And everyone else I don't even talk to anymore. I miss them. 20: Talk about something that happened in high school. I isolated myself from everyone. I didn't have many friends. I didn't bother to speak to anyone or get to know anyone. I spent most of my time in the library reading or doing homework so I didn't have to do it at home. I met a guy named Evan in my fashion design class. He was one of the only guys in the class and he was really cool. He smoked and lived fairly close so we started hanging out. We were drinking and he asked me out and I didn't really wanna say yes but I can't reject someone to their face in their own house. So yeah. I don't really remember how we broke up. He said he liked my hair or something n I said that's gay and I think it pissed him off. lol I think that's why we broke up TBH but my memory is shit 21: Talk about a time you had to turn someone down. I never usually do. Idk. No one ever really pursues me. I guess Luis. I keep telling him to fuck off every time he tries to talk to me. It's been like 2 or 3 years now. Idk how I'm still a thought in his mind. 22: Talk about your worst fear. My worst fears have already manifested. Being utterly alone. Having no one understand me. Catching on fire. Dying in a plane crash. Dying a slow painful death. I plan on od'ing so I just realized I should just get barred out then od so I don't have to remember anything and everything will slowly just fade away. I'm hoping. 23: Talk about a time someone turned you down. All my relationships. I never am the one to walk away. People always end up leaving me. But I mean, no ones ever really rejected me I don't think. I don't pursue people that aren't at least semi interested in me 24: Talk about something someone told you that meant a lot. Idk why but when David noticed how I always taste my coffee before I drink it on our way to work. He said something about that and idk why it meant so much to me but I guess just someone paying attention to the little things I didn't think anyone would ever notice. When john told me he was in love with me so casually. It shocked me. I've never had anyone say that to me before. I never got to actually hear it before. 25: Talk about an ex-best friend. Tori is a fucking cunt. She sucks as a person. Rude mean and manipulative. 26: Talk about things you do when you’re sick. Lay in bed all day. Bitch and moan about being sick. Hot coffee. Lots of NyQuil. 27: Talk about your favorite part of someone else’s body. I really like boys with nice feet. I don't even like feet at all but guys feet rly intrigue me for some reason when they're pretty LOL. Hands. The veiny arms. The muscles. Eyes. 28: Talk about your fetishes. Hair pulling. Slapping. Spitting. Bondage is cool. CHOKING! 29: Talk about what turns you on. All those ^ and neck kisses. Hickies. So ugly but I love how they feel. Gettin my titties succccdt 30: Talk about what turns you off. Long fingernails. 31: Talk about what you think death is like. I have a couple theories. 1. Eternal sleep. A dreamlike state. Does consciousness die when your body dies? If not, I feel like you'd just keep dreaming for eternity. Maybe that's what this life is. My past life's never ending dream. 2. Darkness. Black. Nothingness. The void. 3. Reincarnation. You are reborn into this world or perhaps a different universe. I'm not sure but either one of those would be okay with me. Oh, maybe a heaven type place for your soul. Maybe only in death you can reach enlightenment and pure bliss. 32: Talk about a place you remember from your childhood. The big orange trailer on the end of morning street. The lake/pond thing by it. My cousins house. 33: Talk about what you do when you are sad. Listen to sad music. Shitpost on social media about my inevitable suicide. I don't necessarily want attention. Idk why I do it. I just don't have anyone else to really talk to I guess. So why not let the whole twitter n tumblr world know how I feel. 34: Talk about the worst physical pain you’ve endured. When I would wake up in the middle of the night with a pain in my stomach. Laying down only made it worse. Emotional pain that turns into physical pain and you can literally feel an ache in your chest. 35: Talk about things you wish you could stop doing. Depending on people. Planning my suicide. Wanting to kill myself anytime something goes wrong. Not being able to say how I feel when I should. Not being able to walk away from people and situations I no longer need to deal with. Not being able to let go. Hating myself. Blaming myself for other people's actions. Blaming myself for things out of my control. Inappropriate humor that most people don't think is funny but I just really hate everything and give no fucks. 36: Talk about your guilty pleasures. I never know. Coffee I suppose bc it makes my anxiety a lot worse. Cigarettes. I smoke them when I'm stressed or just when I'm bored bc it gives me something to do. Provoking people to hurt me bc I like emotional pain. I guess I don't like it but I thrive on it. I need it to survive. 37: Talk about someone you thought you were in love with. He ruined me. That ordeal traumatized me. 38: Talk about songs that remind you of certain people. From the edge of the deep green sea by the cure reminds me of john. It talks about how she never wants to leave him and how it's the same thing every time. Idk. Reflect the storm by in flames reminds me of David. He showed me it. So I can't help but think of him every time I hear it. 39: Talk about things you wish you’d known earlier. He didn't love me. Everything he said was a lie. 40: Talk about the end of something in your life. This relationship. My life will end soon as well.

about me

Fancy knowing anything about me?

1: Full name Kirstie Taylor King Turcotte

2: Age: 20

3: 3 Fears: deep water, creepy crawly bugs, pizza place doesnt deliver

4: 3 things I love: music, art, laughing

5: 4 turns on: if you funny, gentle, and can have deep conversations

6: 4 turns off: big ego, doesn’t show he cares, ugly shoes

7: My best friend: nobody wants to be close to me long enough

8: Sexual orientation: str8 

9: My best first date: ohhh maaannnn.... somewhere in a waterfall in a foreign country

10: How tall am I: 5′3

11: What do I miss: not having to adult

12: What time were I born: 7:30 am!

13: Favourite color: dreamy purples and green and blue and anything lovely

14: Do I have a crush: yeessssss!

15: Favourite quote: let it go, let it leave, let it happen. nothing in this world was promised or belonged to you anyway. all you own is yourself.

16: Favourite place: new zealand or anywhere with a beautiful sunset

17: Favourite food: all da food! but mostly hummus 

18: Do I use sarcasm: ....noooo :3

19: What am I listening to right now: bedroom-nostalgic feeling!

20: First thing I notice in new person: the beautiful smiles

21: Shoe size: 7 

22: Eye color: bluuuueee

23: Hair color: dirty blonde

24: Favourite style of clothing: dirty mop grungy just crawled out of a trashcan unique

25: Ever done a prank call?: pretty sure i wasted my adolescence prank calling people

27: Meaning behind my URL: i like to get high

28: Favourite movie: oh maaann! idek. the grinch probs. i know err word. 

29: Favourite song: i have a million favorite songs. but my favorite song at the moment is hodera-breathe easy because the guitar sounds so dreamy and beautiful

30: Favourite band: nevershoutnever is my guilty pleasure

31: How I feel right now: weird

32: Someone I love: everyone who ever made me feel loved

33: My current relationship status: d8ing

34: My relationship with my parents: terrible

35: Favourite holiday: halloweeny because i love being creepy 

36: Tattoos and piercing i have: i only have my belly button pierced but i have 8 tattoos and ive had a million piercings in my life time. 

37: Tattoos and piercing i want: i want to get my septum re pierced annnnndddd i want an avocado tattoo’d on my arm 

38: The reason I joined Tumblr: because it was cool af in grade 10

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?: no way, we were friends for a long time before. 

40: Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?: ermm... sometimes i guess

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?: yep! 

42: When did I last hold hands?: yesterday in the car with my boyfriends mom cause i love her and she loves me and shes the best. 

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?: 10 minutes at the most

44: Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?: loool no? its winter. 

45: Where am I right now?: at work :(

46: If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?: probably my self or the cab driver. cabbies always pull thru. 

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?: as loud as it can fuckin go

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?: no!!!! im a full time adult

49: Am I excited for anything?: summer time 

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?: yesssssssssss, most of my greatest friends are boys

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?: mm  70% maybe. 

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?: yesterday when i was leaving my friends house. noice warm hugs

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?: i would be confuuused. 

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?: no! i learned the hard way not to trust a distrusting person.

55: What is something I disliked about today?: that i had to get up at 8 and go to the bank to get money for my rent. and than pay my grumpy landlord. 

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?: Robert Plant

57: What do I think about most?: im mostly in dream land 99% of the time

58: What’s my strangest talent? i can spread all my toes apart and it looks like i have munky feet. its pretty bad ass. 

59: Do I have any strange phobias? i dont think being closter phobic is strange. but FUCK that. 

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? both! i like to capture beauty and be apart of beauty. 

61: What was the last lie I told? i lied on my time sheet at work because i need the hours but i fucking hate working. 

62: Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? talking on the phone is nice, it keeps the mystery going. 

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?: of course.

64: Do I believe in magic?: yes! i believe we all have abilities we cannot access, only some people get to that point. 

65: Do I believe in luck?: sure

66: What's the weather like right now?: sunny, windy. 

67: What was the last book I've read? celestine prophecy 

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?: i would be dead if i did 

69: Do I have any nicknames?: kerby/kerbz

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?: uhm my brother snapped my pinky in half. 

71: Do I spend money or save it?: both haha 

72: Can I touch my nose with a tounge? no :c

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? yes! my key chain.

74: Favourite animal? red panda

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM? roasting my brain on social media 

76: What do I think is Satan’s last name is? love 

77: What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? heaven must be missing an angel 

78: How can you win my heart?: be sweet and semi obsessed 

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone? tried my best 

80: What is my favorite word? rutabaga 

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr: i dont go on tumblr enough 

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? love everyone. every leaf. every ray of light. forgive. 

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?: nahhh 

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?: read peoples minds 

85: What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? how do i feel honestly. 

86: What is my current desktop picture? a red panda.. hahah 

87: Had sex? i would be pretty sad if i was 20 and still a virgin. 

88: Bought condoms? yessssssss

89: Gotten pregnant? noooo! 

90: Failed a class? ha ha ha 

91: Kissed a boy? yup

92: Kissed a girl? yupppppp 

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? heh yes 

94: Had job? unfortunately 

95: Left the house without my wallet? all the time 

96: Bullied someone on the internet? ya i was a dick in highschool 

97: Had sex in public? how public? i had sex in a park at night. and in the forest. and in a car parked on the side of the road. idk how public that is. but. 

98: Played on a sports team? soccer! 

99: Smoked weed? everyday.

100: Did drugs? yea!

101: Smoked cigarettes? ive been ciggy free for awhile 

102: Drank alcohol? if i could calculate how much vodka i have drank in my life i could probably fill an olympic pool. js. 

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan? vegetarian! 

104: Been overweight? not really. 

105: Been underweight? no

106: Been to a wedding? yess

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? probably. 

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight? when i was younger yeah 

109: Been outside my home country? multiple times!

110: Gotten my heart broken? i think my heart is in a constant broken stage now. 

111: Been to a professional sports game? yeah! 

112: Broken a bone? if my pinky counts than yes 

113: Cut myself? for a year i used to cut my self in highschool. 

114: Been to prom? i live in canada 

115: Been in airplane? yeaaaaaaa

116: Fly by helicopter? noooooo 

117: What concerts have I been to? too many 

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex? mm no 

119: Learned another language? no! :’( 

120: Wore make up? sometimes 

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18? i was 15

122: Had oral sex? duhh 

123: Dyed my hair? not for 2 years

124: Voted in a presidential election? i voted in the prime minister election in canada last year. my dude won. of couuuurse because hes sick. 

125: Rode in an ambulance? yea when my brother shattered his head 

126: Had a surgery? yup!

127: Met someone famous? no 

128: Stalked someone on a social network? haaaahaha i have issues

129: Peed outside? ya gotta do what ya gotta do 

130: Been fishing? yes! i caught the biggest fishy at my bf’s cottage this summer. he was pretty impressed. 

131: Helped with charity? i dated a christian guy in highschool and his parents would take us to the mustard seed to hangout with the less fortunate and feed them :) it was really nice.

132: Been rejected by a crush? YEAA! its the worst. 

133: Broken a mirror? no thats bad luck

134: What do I want for birthday? a big hug and an awesome concert in seattle to happen. 

135: How many kids do I want and what will be their names? 2 kids. they will be boys. Atlas/Onyx. maybe Eli? 

136: Was I named after anyone? my dads highschool crush. 

137: Do I like my handwriting? yeah! ive got pretty nice writing id say

138: What was my favourite toy as a child? barbies/teddy bears

139: Favourite Tv Show? one tree hill 

140: Where do I want to live when older? somewhere peaceful, surrounded by nature 

141: Play any musical instrument? ukelele! 

142: One of my scars, how did I get it? my friend put a cigarette out on the back of my leg when i was passed out drunk. that was fun. 

143: Favourite pizza toping? pineapple!!

144: Am I afraid of the dark? if i watch a scary movie or have a scary dream. 

145: Am I afraid of heights? not really but sometimes when i look down it gives me butterflies 

146: Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? HAHA ya. my mom is smarter than i thought i guess. 

147: Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? all the time. 

148: What I'm really bad at: expressing myself. 

149: What my greatest achievments are: moving out all on my own and paying all my bills on my own without any help. 

150: The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me: my first love told me to go kill myself and that i was spineless. 

151: What I'd do if I won in a lottery: pay my parents debt off and move them somewhere they always wanted to go. 

152: What do I like about myself: im funny i guess 

153: My closest Tumblr friend: jen 

154: Something I fantasise about: having my life be a dream pop music video