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dragon-of-timeless-blue · 1 year

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I'm gonna be honest here, Dragon, meu amigo: could you stop being so fucking perfect???

I thought Lágrimas de Abril was soul warming but Estrellas oh my god their little family it's SO adorable! I got into a wrecking Sakura mood yesterday and reading this aaaaaaah it was so nice ٩(^▿^)۶. That last line "Haru estaría mintiendo si no admitiera que vio más estrellas en esos ojos carmesí que lo contemplaban que en el mismísimo firmamento que se cernía sobre ellos" I can't even describe what it did to me, ok?

And just 'cause you're definitely my biggest rinharu playlist motivator (Still Into You was already there even before the 5 songs tag game but you helped with my confidence hehe), gotta keep you updated and say I'm almost happy with it and will get it ready for Sakurathon.

Anyway, that's it, I just needed to come here and praise you (even if it's not even close of what you really deserve), hoping you have a great day (◍•ᴗ•◍)!

U LITERALLY GOT ME LIKE

LIKE THANK U SO MUCH U R LITERALLY SO KIND AND ALWAYS MAKES ME FEEL SO OSIDBKDKDOSBD♡??!?!

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HAPPY IT MAKES ME THAT YOU LIKE BOTH FICS ～⁠(⁠つ⁠ˆ⁠Д⁠ˆ⁠)⁠つ⁠｡⁠☆♡

Sakura as a concept is just so important to me, It's been a long time since I wrote something that included him, but I LOVE with my soul the sharkbait family,

ALSO

The last line of Estrellas was actually what took me the longest to think about, I literally already had everything written down and I couldn't think of how to end it sndkskzn, I had to clear my head for a while (and by that I mean I started doing the dishes) before writing something i was satisfied with so yeah, FEELS SO SO SO FREAKING HEARTWARMING THAT YOU LIKED THAT PART! ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ💙💙

OOOOH, I AM SO HONORED TO BE A MOTIVATION FOR YOUR RH PLAYLIST (⁠｡⁠ﾉ⁠ω⁠＼⁠｡⁠)❤️ (still into you makes my rinharu heart race, glad u catch confidence)

(oh and also, i got a rh playlist of my own, if you want i could pass it over to see if you find some inspiration or something, only if u want obviously!)

WOWOWOR WAITING FOR THE MOMENT YOU ARE FULLY HAPPY WITH IT!! (⁠´⁠⊙⁠ω⁠⊙⁠`⁠)⁠！

LOVE U LOTS!! REALLY REALLY AAAAAAH SORRY FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO ARTICULATE A THANK YOU PROPERLY FOR THE TREMENDOUS LOVE YOU SEND ME BUT U REALLY JUST MADE MY WEEK!! ♡(。-ω-) ♡

HOPE U ALSO HAVE A GREAT DAY, WEEK AND EXISTENCE!! (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

#♡⁠(⁠>⁠ ⁠ਊ⁠ ⁠<⁠)⁠♡#love u a ton #se te adora

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un-lawliet · 4 months

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Hello, first I wanted to say I think you're the person who writes the best Dazai characterization on Tumblr, your writing is phenomenal. Secondly, I saw your asks were open and you wanted Dazai requests so I came as your savior I came to humbly request a crumb of Dazai. Just no more angst please, there's only so much I can take ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ maybe one that Dazai actively pursues the reader? Maybe the reader gave up and Dazai is jealous hehe :3. Even if you don't write this request, thanks for sharing your stories (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡

HI ANON !! thank you for this request :)))) i really really tried to make this less angsty so i hope you enjoy it ! i love you and i hope you’re happy and well !

Mistletoe

— in which kissing under the mistletoe isn’t compulsory.

Dazai is no stranger to desire.

He has lived his life interlinked with his wants, achieving them but never truly retaining them.

He’s apathetic at best, and he prefers it as such. Cradling his emotions in clammy hands, tucked deeply inside the stoney walls of his stoicism which he then hides under charming smiles and sweet, sweet words.

And yet.

Dazai is a stranger to the desire to preserve his wants.

And so, when he finds himself, pacing absentmindedly, waiting for you to return from your mission, his hands in his pocket and an imitation of a smile creasing the skin on his forehead, he pauses.

The agency was bright, the light from the windows reflecting only the chartreuse glow from the falling snow. Empty, as lunch breaks were declared and acted upon.

Someone had left the window slightly open again. The familiar, though unwelcome, cool breeze invites itself in, and when it’s cool presence went unnoticed it seemed to rattle the blinds decorating the window frame, as if calling to be acknowledged.

Dazai suspected it had been Kenji, recalling how Kunikida had previously scolded the boy for forgetting to close the window before, glasses slipping down the sharp line of his nose as he chastised;

“If you must have them open, please try to shut them again so we don’t all freeze to death by the morning.”

“But back in my village everyone loved the cold Mr Kunikida sir, feeling the breeze on your skin was a pleasure!”

“Yes, but we aren’t in your village Kenji- And it’s Winter for Gods Sakes.”

You had laughed, Dazai remembers, from across the room.

You had walked over to ruffle Kenji’s hair, a grin stretching your lips and revealing your teeth, before saying;

“Leave him be Kunikida, ‘kid just misses home.”

Your kind, foolishly so.

By your own nature, trustfulness becomes a sin, begging to be repented amidst the cruelty the world in which Dazai knows.

There's a moth on your desk.

It sits idly, occasionally moving its wings, Dazai watches it out of the corner of his eye, boredom encroaching his posture and he slumps over ever so slightly.

He didn’t know Moths could even sustain the cold of December.

The agency door clicks open, and he’s instantly elevated to his full height, a smile poisoning his sour face.

“Well, well, well, you’re back late.” He hums, sticking a tounge between his teeth, eyes scanning over your body as you close the door behind you.

There’s snow on your shoulders, you shiver.

You don’t jump at his voice, expecting him to be waiting.

He’s always waiting for you after a mission.

You nod, chuckling at his expression, and he’s walking to you at once.

“Better late than never.” You reply, humouring him. “Blizzard made me late.”

He laughs, his hands dramatically dancing in the air as he gestures towards you.

“And you look radiant if I may.” He leans down to look at you, his head tilted as he watches your face, “Mission went well I suppose?”

Your head tilts to match his, you frown, “You were worried?”

He winks, reaching out to tap the tip of your cold nose.

“Not in the slightest.”

And Dazai means it, to the fullest its meaning.

He was not worried.

You sigh, shaking off the remains of winter from your clothes, hand moving up to bat away at his own.

“How charming.” You chastise, your eyes leaving his face to stare at the wooden floor of the agency.

There’s a crack on one of the floor boards, someone should really fix that.

Dazai circles you, pulling your sleeve towards the door, gently tugging on the fabric.

“Come, time for a break!” He declares, attempting to whisk you away.

“Wha- Dazai I just got back?”

He pouts, turning a childish face back to you indignantly.

“But I’ve worked so hard this morning.” Dramatically, his shoulders slump, still trying to drag you beside him.

You glance at his empty desk and raise an eyebrow.

Pausing, Dazai joins you in your assessment before huffing.

“Well my dear, you could certainly use a break.”

You look at him, a cheeky question plucks at your tounge and he’s interrupting you before you can even begin.

“Your exhausted! And for a gentleman like myself, I cannot let you go on like this!” He nods, head raising, “No, no! I cannot allow it! Think of your rights as a human being!”

You’re laughing now, a smile breaking your pretence and Dazai cannot help but watch, his tongue clamped between his teeth.

Dazai’s eyes look brighter, that’s for certain, but when you stare, really stare, you see a flicker of determination in them, burning his usually icy allusively.

“Alright, alright, I’m coming.”

And Dazai would vehemently deny the widening of his smile as anything other than a polite acknowledgment to your decision, as much as you would blatantly refuse to comment on the validity of his emotions.

In the daylight, the city wears a muted elegance under a quilt of freshly fallen snow. You speak softly to Dazai as you both walk, bundled against the chill, treading through seemingly silent streets.

“It’s strange.” You mumble, picking at the skin of your nail.

“Hm?” He replies, eyes glancing over your features.

“Crime stops nearer Christmas.” You tilt your head back, eyes following the path of robin.

The sun filtered through the overcast sky, bathing the building in a soft, melancholic glow, revealing the intricate patterns of ice crystals on branches, Dazai listens to the melody of his footsteps against the snow, as you openly ponder.

“I suppose Christmas spirit trumps even the most cardinal of human desires.” Dazai muses, steering you towards an alley.

You nod, squinting your eyes to process his words.

“I guess?” You reply, picking the nail of your thumb.

He gestures his hand towards a side street, “C’mon, this way.”

You watch the back of his head as he leads the way, resisting the urge to run your hand through his hair and catch all the snowflakes littering his locks.

You clench your hand instead, chastising yourself for your affection.

The pair of you walk, further away from the crowded streets of Yokohama. Dazai walks in-front, and you follow, like an obedient dog.

You want to stop, to ask him where you are going, but you don’t, you never question him.

He’s thinking.

You can tell by his chosen silence, you wonder if you’re walking towards a trap, and silently mock at your inability to turn and walk away, simply enjoying the feeling of being near him.

Dazai stops suddenly, and you let out a quite yelp, almost crashing into his back, head lifting to look at him, mouth parting to question.

You freeze as you meet his inarticulate gaze.

You look beautiful, in the muted sun, he thinks.

Your eyes water slightly from the cold, and your hands are shaking undoubtedly and yet you make no effort to rush him inside.

Dazai breathes.

"Mistletoe." He says, his voice is reserved, almost silent as he gestures to the arch above the pair of you, his coat sleeve falling down his arm in his movement.

Your hands are numb.

You glance up your eyes wide, staring at the green embers embedded with small white petals.

It sways blissfully in the breeze, seeming to smile down at you, almost mocking your hesitance.

Slowly, as if approaching a timid animal, he takes your hands in his.

Dazai traces the lines on your palms, as if he was a blind man, searching for answers within your flesh, uncertain yet desperate.

Bandaged fingers tap against your cool skin, calling for your attention and you look back towards the silent man.

Your breath materialises in-front of you, floating towards his face before dissipating in the chilly air.

"It's not…” You breathe.

"Not?" Dazai questions, pushing you to answer your trailed off statement.

"It's not compulsory.” You offer, giving him a way out, a pathetic diversion to your inane desires which are obvious in your inability to look away.

You think you’re sweating, it’s far too cold to sweat.

Dazai smiles, a hand reaching up to pinch your cheek, his head tilted as he prolongs his stare, soft and unwavering. "And if I say I walked us here for the sole purpose of compulsion?" He speaks in rhymes, they slip off the very tip of his tongue and melt in the weak beam of the sunlight barely separating you.

You blink, looking up at him.

"I wouldn't understand..” You whisper.

There's a moment.

A moment when your surroundings become objects of your realisation, in which snow reflects off of the shine of the windows on buildings, and children pull away from their Mothers hand to dash into the gentle blizzard.

And Dazai leans closer to you.

Your oblivion to his feelings is expected, he’s aware of his own hesitance to reveal the true curvature of his pensively rounded motives.

Yet, he looks at you as if he were begging you to believe his honesty, to truly understand his care.

“And for someone like me,” Dazai hums, a finger tracing the curve of your jaw, “That’s both infuriating and strangely beautiful."

His nose brushes yours and you feel the warmth of his breath on your lips, you push back the desire to draw back and question his usually allusive antics.

Biting your tongue just to savour the taste of the moment.

You think he does the same, his finger tracing the shell of your ear, once, then twice.

And then he tilts your chin towards him and proposes the gentlest kiss on the plush of your lips.

Dazai pulls away then, your chin still resting in his hand as he observes you.

Observes how you only appear to follow him, trying to chase the feeling of his lips against yours, eyebrows furrowed in the cruelty of his tease.

He chuckles, and then he moves back to you, his lips parting your own as he kisses you once more.

Your arms trail up the lapel of his coat, clinging to him as you respond.

His lips are cold and so you bite them, chasing your own anguish through shared exhalation. Breathing him in as he breathes you out. You feel him smile against your teeth.

Dazai’s thumb lazily moves in the area just below your eye, if you concentrate you would feel him trace tiny circles to ground you.

It’s snowing and you’re kissing him and you’re confused but not enough to part.

When he does pull away, he keeps ahold of your face, you’re breathing hard and he leans closer, towards you ear.

“You’re ok.” He whispers, kissing just under your ear.

And you are.

You are ok in his hold, under his gaze.

Dazai knows he doesn’t deserve this, doesn’t deserve you and yet, he can’t help but smile in the light of your profoundly soft gaze.

“Now, come, our lunch hour is nearly over and you haven’t ate yet no?”

“Wha-” You’re still taken aback, still stunned by the kiss.

“Food Y/N, we’re going to get you food.” Dazai chuckles, pulling your hand with him again.

You walk beside him, keeping up with his pace.

Dazai pulls you ever so slightly closer, and you smile, choosing not to mention it.

masterlist <3

(A/N): merry christmas !- well early chirstmas PHAHA i wanted to write something to celebrate and i ended up with this THANK U ANON FOR THE REQUEST BTW you’re so so lovely :)) - i cannot lie i’m not sure about this :,) maybe i’ll grow to like what i’ve written but for now i hope this is ok <3

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