Tanginamo where have you BEEN MERY

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March 20, 2019.. PREACHING 2 Class Theme: FEMINIST Biblical Text: Genesis 34 DAHIL BABAE AKO.. Isang sulat ng kanyang ina para sa kanyang anak... Ikaw na dumaan sa aking puwerta, Siyam na buwan kitang iningatan, Siyam na buwan nagtiis, May mga limitadong bagay na gawin, Pinilit na maging malakas May mga tumuligsa, Nakarinig ng mga salitang di kaaya-aya Ngunit pinilit kong mapabuti ka, Pinilit kong gawin ang lahat para saiyo ikakabuti Sinuong ang mga pagsubok Ngunit matapos ang lahat, Ikaw na aking giniliw, Kinalinga at pinakaingatan Ang siyang wawasak sa akin Ang siyang magdudulot ng aking sama ng loob Ngunit tama bang maliitin mo ako? Matapos ang lahat ng ibinuhos ko para saiyo Nang malaman mong bunga ka ng isang malagim na kahapon Na minsan sa buhay ko nagpatalo ako Na minsan sa buhay ko naging mahina ako INTRODUCTION: FEMINIST THEOLOGY o mas kilala na FEMINISTA/ Teolohiya ng kababaihan ay nabuo/ naitatag/ naisilang. Upang bigyan ng pagkakataon na tingnan ang mga tradisyon, mga bagay na nakasanayan, ang nakasulat sa bibliya at maging ang teolohiya na naaayon sa lente at pananaw ng isang kababaihan. Layunin din nito na maiangat ang kababaihan hindi upang lampasan ang kakayanan ng isang kalalakihan bagkus naglalayon ito ng pagkapantay pantay ng bawat isa, maging kahalagahan ng bawat isa. Na kung saan ang Diyos ay may pantay na pagtatangi sa bawat isa. “Kapag ikaw ay namulat na tunay sa kalagayan ng lipunan, kasalanan na ang pumikit, umidlip, magbulag-bulagan at sasabihing hindi ako kabahagi niyan” Ngayong buwan ng Marso particular ang Marso a-otso na tinaguriang International Womens Day o Pandaigdigang Araw ng mga Kababaihan, Ginugunita nito ang mga pagpupunyagi para sa karapatan ng lahat ng kababaihan sa buong mundo. Kaugnay nito ang mga aktibidad na kung saan kumikilala at nagpapahalaga sa pang-ekonomiya, pampulitika, at panlipunan na mga tagumpay ng kababaihan. Ayon sa pangkalahatang istastika mayroong • Pitumpu’t tatlong porsyentong kakaibihan ang biktima ng pananamantala ng di kakilala • Rape o panggagahasa ay itinuturing na pinaka.under rated na krimen na naiuulat o naisusuplong • Animnapu’t tatlong porsyente na hindi naiuulat/ naisusumbong sa kapulisan • Tatlumpu’t walong porsyento ay pawing kaibigan o kakilala ng biktima. • Apatnapu’t tatlo ng kaso ay kadalasan nangyayari tuwing o pagpatak ng alas sais ng gabi hanggang alas dose ng gabi. • Siyamnapu’t isa ay pawang mga kakaibihan at siyam na porsyento ay mga kalalakihan • Isa sa dalawang babae ang naaabuso sa kanilang buong buhay. • Pitumpu’t siyam na porsyento sa mga biktima ay pawang nagahasa bago ang kanilang edad na dalawangpu’t lima at halos apat napu’t dalawang porsyento naman rito ay unang nagahasa noong bago pa sila mag edad ng labingwalo • Ang iba ay nagpapatiwakal at ang iba ay nagpplano na tapusin na lamang ang kanilang buhay. • At maging lalake ay biktima nito Ang mensaheng ibahagi ko para sa lahat ng kababaihan, nagmamahal sa mga kababaihan, nagpapahalaga sa mga kababaihan, may mataas na pagtingin sa mga kababaihan, sa mga tao ang nais lamang ay pagkapantay pantay ng bawat isa. Para sa naniniwala kaisa natin ang LGBTQ+.. Para ito sa mga taong naninindigan para sa pagkapantay pantay na walang pinipili o itinatangi, para ito sa mga nadapa at nasaktan ngunit nagnanais ng pagbangon at pag-angat sa sarili. Para sa lahat! Ang pamagat ng mensaheng ito ay “DAHIL BABAE” Nabanggit sa awiting ONE BILLION RISING na hindi ko na aawitin pa, baka maging dahilan pa na markahan ako ni Pastor Pacudan ng 3 sa grado pag marinig nya akong umawit ng solo. “Bakit nga ba?.. Di mabubuhay ang bayan.. Kung walang kababaihan.. Ngunit kung tayo’y saktan.. Parang walang hanggan? Bakit nga ba? Nakaguhit sa ating mukha.. Na tayong lahat ay biktima.. Ng kalupitan, karahasan?..Pilit tayong dinadapa.." Minsan ba, natanong mo ang iyong sarili patungkol sa ganitong pangyayari? Paano kaya ano? Baka sa mga oras na ito wala tayong kamalay-malay isang kapwa natin na mahalaga sa atin ay isang biktima na pala. Sinong nakakaalam ng kwento ni Maggie Dela Riva? Pepsi Paloma? O si Lucilla Lulu o ni Elsa Castillo ang chop chop lady? Ang mag.iinang Vizconde.. Ang dalagitang sa Cebu na matapos nagahasa, binalatan ang mukha, tinanggal ang dila, at maging kanyang esophagus. At habang ang iba ay nahuhumaling, naliligayan sa “rape” joke ng ating Pangulong Duterte, isang pangulo na isang misogynist.. Ay mayroon an palang isang naghihinagpis, nalulugmok sa kalungkutan dahil sa alaala ng nangyari sa kanya. Diring diri sa sarili at nagnanais na tapusin na ang kanyang buhay. Ano ang ginawa mo para sa kanila? Ang simbahan, kaya ano ang kanyang pagtingin dito? Ang pananaw ba ng simbahan dito ay “patawarin” na lamang ng biktima ang salarin o tutulungan ang biktima sa pamamagitan ng tulong moral na kung saan pagpapanagutin ang salarin. Paano kaya kung isang taong simbahan ang biktima at ang salarin ay ang kanyang kapwa taong simbahan? Ano ang gagawin ng mga kinauukulan ng simbahan? Mas lalo higit kung ang salarin ay nasa mataas na posisyon ng simbahan? Nakakalungkot mang isipin ngunit may iba sa atin, mas sinisisi pa ang biktima, “Anak nang! Kasi malandi yan eh, nagdadamit na kita na ang singit” Kaya ang ibang biktima ayaw na lumitaw, walang lakas ng loob lumaban dahil sa mga mapanuring mga mata. Lalo kung wala siyang laban, wala siyang pera, wala siyang sinabi sa lipunan.. Mahina sa tingin ng lahat, kahit siya sa kanyang pakiramdam ay isa siyang mahina. And frankly speaking, this happen to the church, we easily judge them and most of the time instead of emphatizing o symphatizing them, we oftenly condemn the victim. Rape is a type of sexual assault usually involving sexual intercourse or other forms of sexual penetration carried out against a person without that person's consent. The act may be carried out by physical force, coercion, abuse of authority, or against a person who is incapable of giving valid consent, such as one who is unconscious, incapacitated, has an intellectual disability. The term rape originates from the Latin rapere (supine stem raptum), "to snatch, to grab, to carry off". Since the 14th century, the term has come to mean "to seize and take away by force". In Roman law, the carrying off of a woman by force, with or without intercourse, constituted "raptus". In Medieval English law the same term could refer to either kidnapping or rape in the modern sense of "sexual violation" Shechem's rape of Dinah in Genesis 34 is described in the text itself as "a thing that should not be done.” The Bible text is sympathetic to Shechem in the verses following his rape of Dinah, at the same time that it does not flinch from condemning the lawless predatory behavior towards her. The brothers' revenge, however, also demonstrates their conflicting views about women. On the one hand they defend their sister. On the other hand they do not hesitate to capture other women as if these women were their booty. The connection of the rape and the resulting revenge clarifies that no easy solutions are available to stop rapists and rape-prone behavior. In this regard Genesis 34 invites contemporary readers to address the prevalence of rape through the metaphoric language of a story. The brothers' revenge killings of Shechem and Hamor, while they might remind modern readers of frontier justice and vigilantism, are an understandable measure-for-measure act in the context of the ancient Near East. In our text regarding the rape of Dinah, what are the things that comes in your mind? Do you think she really wanted to be rape? The story begins with Dinah’s one decisive action – venturing outside of her father’s home to the land of Canaan (You may remember Leah as Jacob’s first, but less-beloved, wife. Her father, Laban, substituted her in when Jacob thought he was marrying her sister, the reproductively-challenged Rachel.) Everything else in the account is done to her, including, of course, the rape itself. “And when Shechem the son of Hamor the Hivite, prince of the country, saw her, he took her and lay with her, and violated her.” What we do know? After forcing himself upon her, Shechem’s “soul cleaves unto Dinah,” and he tells his father, “Get me this young woman as my wife.” At this point, Jacob hears that Shechem has “defiled” his daughter, but decides to stay quiet about it until his sons return from the field, where they are tending to the family’s cattle. We will ask, what is in the mind of Jacob? After he had heard what happen to his daughter. As a father will he protect his daughter? Will do some revenge inorder for her child Dinah to get justice? I think Jacob understands what it is to be powerless. He understands what it is to be a victim. When he hears of his daughter’s rape and capture he remains silent. He knows he is without status in this land. His relationships with his kin (Laban and Esau) who under normal circumstances would be the obvious allies against hostile forces are all strained. He has burned the bridges from which traditionally help would come. The LORD has been his only help, but where was the LORD when Shechem was taking Dinah? Did God allow Dinah to be raped? What does God do while Dinah is raped? The fathers of the daughters, and now the fathers of the sons meet. What began as innocent girls at play has led to clan leaders facing either treaty or war. Jacob and Hamor have struck deals before. Jacob purchased a field to pitch a tent and build an altar. In that case Jacob was coming as the petitioner looking for something. Now Hamor comes looking to deal for Jacob’s daughter, but in these circumstances. And now who is our hero? Jacob, master negotiator, heal grabber, deal twister, but one now renamed at Jabbok as one who wrestles with God and men. How has God changed Jacob? What are the consequences of Jacob’s way of life before? Notice, Jacob will not speak until the end of the story. We would expect Jacob to lead, to lead in dealing with this family crisis, to lead his sons, to deal once again with a stronger foe, but Jacob is silent. Jacob’s silence has been taken different ways why he doesn’t do anything, as a father he must be the one who will lead and to say what they are going to do. Others see him as being an older, more mature Jacob. Yhwh is also silent in this story. We are left with Jacob to wonder at the value of God’s protective promise. Why is Jacob silent? Is he waiting for Yhwh to speak? One of our professor in Union Theological Seminary always tells in our class or everytime she is talking about rape or sexual harassment, she is always saying that rape is not an act that you are lusting over someone “Nararape ang babae hindi dahil sa babae siya, narape siya hindi dahil sa suot niya, narape siya dahil may isang lalake na tingin niya kaya niyang ioverpower ang babae” As a conclusion, A letter from the daughter for her mother DAHIL BABAE AKO... Naging biktima man ako ng napakalupit na karanasan NATUTO NA AKO.. Natuto na akong manindigan Natuto na akong protektahan ang aking sarili Natuto na akong pangalagaan ang aking mga ginigiliw At dahil babae ako.. Hinding hindi na ako magpapatalo sa mga abusado Hinding hindi na ako susuko sa laban sulong sa pagkapantay pantay Na Diyos na siyang tumawag sa akin ang poprotekta at gagabay At dahil babae.. Sa labang ito! Pilit mang ilugmok, pilit mang tuligsain, pilit man maliitin Babangon! Isisigaw ang karapatan.. Ang lahat ng ito ay para sa iyo inay.. maging para sa iyo itay Para rin ito sa mga magsasakang inagawan ng lupa Para sa mga manggagawang walang habas na kinakaltasan ang karampot na sahod Para sa mga buhay na kinitil dahil sa maling paghuhusga Para sa mga batang kailangan ang pagkalinga Yaring katarungan ay matatamo natin dito pa lamang sa buhay nating iyo. SIYA NAWA

November 29, 2017: Run Hue Knighted Colour Night Run - 5.82mi = 9.37km

I don't know why it didn't register 10K but I have the Finisher's medal and I crossed the finish line. I followed the route also.

HINDI AKO NINJA AND I WON'T CHEAT IN RUNS EVER! 🤣

It is nice to be back home as a runner this time. Lakas maka-student feels ee. This is that run na muntik ko na hindi takbuhin because cardio wants to make sure I am 100% healthy. Dalawa yung choice kong fellow runner na pwedeng mag sub for me, yung isa hindi pwede kasi may work and the other naman, hindi ko talaga kinausap kasi baka hindi naman mag reply. Takot ko lang. Hahaha. So I went against my doctor's orders not to run. Matinding iyakan at dasal ang ginawa ko just to go against all odds. More than the fact na naghihinayang ako sa registration fee, I am really craving to run kasi almost 2 weeks na akong walang workout.

I am blessed that I have a priest friend who also happens to run, besides giving me a pre race blessing, he helped me convince my mom that I can do the run in spite a possible weak heart. More of that later in that post. So sabi nga ng nanay ko, talagang matigas ang ulo ko pero alam din nya na ayaw ko magpapigil so she supported me so long as I would cross the finish line alive and breathing.

I did just as I have promised.

Tonight was a night of firsts - first night run, first run organized by the alma mater and first colour run. I have always wanted to run a legit event in Intramuros and to try a night run so I got both tonight - it should really be as memorable as how I wanted it to be. Mejo nakaka pagod lang yung race course coz it is four loops. Yes, FOUR loops for 10K.

At my second loop, I was even pacing with the group of runners from the Philippine Navy - astig these running soldiers coz they really are chanting while running. Their chants are motivating the runners all the more because it is Letran related. I really tried to keep up with their pacing pero naiwan ako kasi I have to keep my mobile phone in my flipbelt as I am to pass by dun sa part ng race course na tubig yung binubuhos sa runners instead of coloured powders.

I remember during college, the Navy boys are running around the walled city every afternoon. Malalaman mo talaga that they are running coz they are chanting - same as that on course kanina. So there, college feels all the more.

On to the third loop, nakita ako ni Idol Villegas - the guard na kasing institusyon na ng Letran. He really took time to say "Idol, ikaw ba yan?" with a smile - I couldn't say something so I just looked at him and showed a thumbs up with a smile. I really find it awesome kasi ang tagal ko na di nakikita yung mga guards na naging friends ko in college pero kilala pa rin nila ako.

Bawal dapat mag beast mode but on the fourth and final loop, I ran as fast as I can dahil hinahabol ko na yung cut off time. Also it starts to drizzle so I have to double time. Worth the effort naman because I finished strong and I got the medal.

I couldn't care less if I got a PR or not but I am happy that I finished the run flawlessly in spite a cramps scare while traversing the Mapua side of Muralla. I want to believe that I finished strong.

Post run, ang dungis ko sobra so I opted not to go up to the Convent of St. John de Lateran where I was invited by Fr. Vic to have dinner. Nahihiya ako sa mga priests kung aakyat ako dun na madungis so I told Fr. Vic na lang na uuwi na ako and that I hope he enjoys the calamansi muffins that I left with one of the guards before I ran.

By far, I wanna believe that this is the happiest Arriba Fest that I have ever been to. Gusto ko ulitin next year.

My cardio said I possibly have a weak heart, I hated him the moment he said I couldn't run and at some point, I even hated the genes that I have because I have a weak heart. But I won over a physical heart that may be giving up on me. I am happy that I finished the run without passing out. Yun nga lang, dogtag ko lang yung gamit ko na natirang malinis coz everything were filled with coloured powder. I don't mind anyway coz I really had fun.

Running this event really is my last for 2017 because I am going to comply with all the tests that the cardio wants me to undergo to ensure I am really healthy and fit to run.

Now, my traditional post run shoutouts. Since last na ito for 2017, mejo mahaba ito:

First, to God for being in control the whole time. Truth be told, each time dadaan ako sa Cathedral while running, I make a sign of the cross and pray. I kept praying that I will not pass out and that I can finish it and God heard my prayers that instant. Thank you God for being in control. I give it all back to you.

To my mom for allowing me to run in spite the objection. I am sure na kabado ka while I was out there on my own, proud ka na umuwi akong buhay at may finisher's medal.

To my co admins sa epitome of a frequent flyer group, lalo na si bae Hanilita and si mahal na reynang John - thank you so much sa mga lafftrip moments natin almost every night. You guys were my disturbance lalo na nung nag start na hindi ako makatakbo. You guys are my dose of good vibes.

Sa mga beshies especially Iyah and Betchay for always reminding me to take things easy when running. Thank you beshies for always supporting me sa kagagahan ko.

To Fr. Cris Cellan for the pre run blessing at sa pag kunsinte sa akin to go out and run, salamat po! Your blessing made me all the more brave to go against all odds and prove that I can. You sure made me see that God is with me all throughout the race. Salamat, father!

To my new found fellow runner friends - salamat din sa concern and for the tips. I sure can learn from all of you. Anhirap nyo isa-isahin kasi andami nyo ee pero thankful ako that I do have online friends like you guys who shares the same passion in running like I have. Special shoutout sa Pinoy Fitness community dahil dun tayo lahat nagka kila-kilala.

To my former NSTP professor, Mam Maggie who took time to message me at the eve of the race to remind me that sometimes, it is not bad to set things aside even if you wanted it so bad. I am touched by the effort because she is in Doha, she saw my ranting posts about my condition and expressed her concern. Truly, in Letran, no matter where in the world we are, the concern for a fellow Letranite is genuine and it doesn't end in the four walls of the Colegio. Thank you so much, Mam Maggie!

To my forever beloved and fave priest, Fr. Vic, this run is for you dahil po birthday mo. Happy birthday kahit hindi tayo nagkita.

To my new bff, Kelvin - thank you for always reminding me about my check ups and for asking updates about how it went. Kahit hindi ka runner, you always listened to my rants lalo na when I couldn't run. You were twice as kulit as I am for trying to convince me not to run pero I won over it pa din. Thank you for always listening to me, Kelvs. See you in a few weeks!

To my mamaw runner friend, JC - wag ka na magalit ha? Nothing happened, di ba? Pasaway man ako, it was worth it. Tara na, froyo na tayo, dali!

To former crushie, John Gerald - special ka pa rin to me and I saw your post before running. I am happy for you for whatever answered prayer you are referring to. I am happy knowing that you are happy. Thank you for the good vibes you gave me since we have met. Looking forward to fly with you soon!

Finally, sa bagong inspirasyon - thank you because you make me brave. You make me twice the fighter that I already am. You are the reason why I ran this and I hope, I made you proud. This may be more for myself but babe, I want to share this to you as well. Thank you for inspiring me to be the best version of me and for reminding me to make myself beautiful again. You are loved in silence, babe. ❤

Mission accomplished! This is Runner Xy-Zha, now signing off.

See you in 2018!

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