Eyes Closed - Noah Beck
Laying next to him, you were unsure of what you’d do. Everything seemed so mundane now and the need for something more was killing you. You felt broken inside but the love you had for him is what kept you holding on.
Slowly getting out of bed, you grabbed the first bag you saw and began packing your things. It was pretty early, as the boys had spent all night partying so you knew you wouldn’t have any interruptions. Looking around the room, almost all of your things had accumulated here over the past 6 months and it had become more like home than you ever thought it would. The boys had been your family and leaving them was harder than anything you had ever done before but things were fading quite fast and you knew, with time, it would only get harder.
There was now a pile of bags by the front door and the house looked that much emptier. Trying to hold back the tears, you grabbed a pad of paper and pen, leaving a simple note and taping it to the inside of the front door.
“I’m sorry.” Stopping in your tracks, his voice filled the room as he read the two words from the note back to you and suddenly it felt as if every inch of your heart shattered. You were trying to avoid this conversation at all costs. “This is really how you want to do this?” He was never one to show he was upset, he wanted to be as positive as possible but standing there, staring at the note, you heard the pain in his voice. “You weren’t even going to say anything?” He asked, getting more and more annoyed with each passing moment. “Are you still not even going to say anything!?” You closed your eyes as he raised his voice, preparing yourself to turn around and look him in the eyes.
“What am I supposed to say, Noah?” You asked, looking into his eyes for the first time that day. “We both knew this was going to happen. Something isn’t right here,” You said, waving your hand back and forth between you two. “and you belong here, in this house, and I don’t.”
“(y/n), that’s not true! I love you! We can work this out, we can figure out what’s going on with us...just please, don’t leave like this.” Noah begged, taking a step towards you, as the tears finally began to fall from your eyes.
“We’ve been the same for weeks now, Noah. If there was a way to fix us, we would have done it by now. But with where we are now, there’s more reasons to go than stay.”
“The fact that you love me should be reason enough to stay.”
“It’s not enough!” You shouted, afraid of waking the rest of the house. “I love you more than anything in this world, Noah but something isn’t right,” You repeated, not knowing what else to say. “and this is the only way we’re going to figure out what that something is.”
The room fell silent as the pain you were feeling was finally sinking in with Noah. He didn’t want to lose you but if staying with him hurt you, he accepted that he’d have to let you.
“If you really can’t find another reason to stay...then go.” He said, looking down at the ground. His refusal to make eye contact with you hurt more than it probably should have but what hurt more was watching the other boys join you and Noah in the foyer. “Go.” He repeated, still refusing to look at you.
His eyes closed as you began walking away, wondering if you’d ever have a place in their lives again.
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Ok so i might delete it later, so here's this, just for fun
Anger - Noah Beck Imagine
It was pretty fun being an actress, especially when you are given interesting roles that fit you perfectly. This was one of my favorite parts about this job, another one would be the amazing fan base that has created during all my years of hard work.
Being "a celebrity", noun that i don't like using, nor am i ok with people using it to describe me, gave me the opportunity to meet other people, including the wild sway house. I don't even remember how we met in the first place, but i think LA is a pretty small place. We've met several times and also had a lot of parties together, some would say we've known each other our whole lives. They don't lie tho, we all clicked so quickly and I've always gotten along with boys, so having them around is like having a lot of brothers. More or less actually. Earlier this week I've received the script to a new tv show, which gave me the will to take whoever i want for the main male role, as they didn't find anyone who can fit the description of the character.
"Oh my God let me see", i heard Noah from behind me
"What? Why? Are you suddenly interested in being an actor?", i asked a little bit confused by his sudden reaction
"Well, since everyone sees me on their phones, maybe i can make an appearance on the big screen, next to you", he winked and grabbed the script from my hands. Frowned, he started reading patiently all the words, making me think that he really wants to do something with his fame. "It sounds very interesting and the fact that the main character has to be tall, a brown haired guy and has to be fit, muscular, i think i can fit that role"
"I can fit that role too, don't be so full of yourself", Blake stated and i let out a giggle, making Blake space to sit next to me on the couch and he put his arm around me "Ain't that right, princess?"
I laughed because of the nickname and took his arm off of me. "It's Brooke, for you, mr Brunette. Did you forget you dyed your hair?"
He scoffed and facepalmed himself, murmuring "that's right" and giving me a questioning look. "Are there going to be scenes of you kissing? I mean it's a tv show and you're both main characters."
I looked through the pages but nothing appeared, so i thought the tv show is still being written or at least postponed until the episodes started running and the producers could see what people want.
"Noah..", i looked at him, sighing, "it's not easy and you don't have any training as an actor. Are you sure? I mean there's no going back after you sign the contract"
Noah put his hand on my shoulder, maintaining eye contact. "I'm more than sure. I wanna do it, especially because I'm doing it with you and you can help me with everything i need."
"Ok then, tomorrow we start practicing.", i giggled and phoned the producers to let them know i found the perfect guy and everything will be set for the first day of filming.
7 episodes later
It's been already 2 months of filming and the show is going great. We're halfway through the season and we might get a renewal for season 2. About Noah and I... Things got a little bit hectic. We've been at each other's throats for some time now and, unfortunately, the writers of the show chose to make our characters fall in love. It's not hard, i mean I've been playing fake love on screen for quite a time now, but i don't think it will be very well played with Noah. We've been fighting daily on and off set, even at home.
"What started all this?", Jaden asked and i just slapped my hands on my thighs
"I don't know. I came by to pick him up for filming and he didn't say a word to me, he's cold with me and apparently very rude, since he shut the door on my forehead", i said, showing him the little bump above my right eyebrow.
"Does he have any crushes on set? Maybe the fact that he's now so against the love scenes is because he's doing them with you", Blake stated and came behind me in the kitchen and, as a warming gesture, he hugged me from behind. I was so tired of fighting with the boy i get along so well in the house. I really liked him and until the moment when Blake hugged me, i didn't realise i wanted him to be Noah. To have him hug me so gently and rest his chin on my head. As all these thoughts were screaming loud in my head, the 3 of us staying in the kitchen looked to the door when Noah came in whistling.
"Hi bro", Jaden greeted him and took a sip of beer
" 'sup, how's the song going?"
"I'm making the final touches and tomorrow it's posted", with the biggest smile on his face, Jaden showed Noah, Blake and i the artwork for the song and i was so happy for him, seeing him achieve his biggest dream
"Tomorrow at 8 I'm picking you up", i told Noah, only for him to change the mimic of his face.
"You can give Blake a ride. With or without the car", noah winked and took his beer, leaving us in complete silence. Jaden felt as awkward as we were, since what Noah said left all of us in shock. I took a step away from Blake and looked at him. He was already looking at me , but none of us said anything.
Ok so i might post it in parts, because i feel like this is way too long, so we'll see how this is going. Like for part 2 ❤️
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