It’s like 2am and I just woke up from a Charlie dream but once again things can never be easy for us in my dreams 🥺❤️

Charlie and I were together and visiting my family and he got up to go take a shower. And while he was gone, freaking JAMES showed up. And my mom’s like ‘He looks like the guy from lost’ and I’m like ‘ yeah. Looks like’ ASJJLL And James says, ‘Look, I’m not gonna beg ya. But for the time we had together… is there ever a chance you could love me again?’ And I thought for a second and told him yes. And he started to walk away, looking really self-satisfied, and I realized. No. I don’t want anyone but Charlie. I don’t. It doesn’t matter who they are. Or how good things were between us. I only want Charlie.

So I chased after him, asking him to wait, and I said, ‘My answer is actually no.’ And he looked really angry and asked me to repeat myself. So I said, ‘No, I won’t ever love you again. I’m only with Charlie now, for the rest of my life. He’s the love of my life, and I’m never gonna love anyone else.’

So he stormed off in the middle of me saying that Charlie is the only one I’m gonna be with forever. And I started discussing it with my family for awhile. And after it’d been a good while, I realized Charlie had been in the shower for a long time. So I asked my sibling to knock on the door and check on him. But he didn’t answer. So I panicked and ran up and knocked too. Still no answer.

And I started to call out for him, but nothing. So I opened the door and he was like. Passed out with his head in a puddle of water :( so James had tried to kill him!!!! Which is the second time I’ve dreamed he got jealous of an f/o and tried to kill them!! Oh my God!!

So I lugged Charlie out of the water and started to perform CPR on him. And. He woke up 🥺 thank God… I remember panicking and my hands shaking as I gave him chest compressions and seeing him open his eyes and cough and I was just feeling!! So relieved!! Seeing the life in his eyes… God I was so happy. And the first thing he did was joke that it was a good thing I knew CPR because we couldn’t afford to take an ambulance ADGHJKL this guy.

I wanted to take him to a hospital but James was still on the property and apparently he had friends with him. Charlie said it was a group of guys that ganged up on him. So we all started to find weapons we could use to protect ourselves and fight these people. And I was in the middle of fighting them when I woke up because the stress of saving Charlie’s life was getting to be too much to hold onto adfhjkl

And now I’m like. Lying awake at 2am happy to have had a Charlie dream but annoyed that James interrupted it. And like. So violently too. I’m legit mad at him now afgjkll like this is the second time he’s hurt someone because I picked them over him and it’s just really weird that he just. Showed up and made me choose. Idk it’s probably bc I already had another dream with James in it a couple days ago. But it was that I saw him on the TV so. Idk.

But yeah that dream was horrifying adfhjkl