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Boss Audio Logs

 So the lovely @saintcorner made a post a while back of audio logs from her boss like the ones you find for all your homies in SRIV, and I have been trying to make this post since

 One big post as opposed to the 3 separate posts otherwise. Also yeah Tanu’s mute but uuuuhhh text to speech? Also Jay isn’t a Boss but whatever

Tanugatoa “Tanu” Maivia:

“It’s pretty funny, I never wanted to be a gangbanger. I wanted to be anything but another stupid kid getting shot at like Levi. But when Elsie joined? I had to do something. I was so fucking scared, but Julius showed me how to use that. How to use my fear of losing someone to hurt someone else, to kill when they got in the way. He said we were doing good, that Stilwater needed the Saints go save them...and I fucking believed him. But the asshole didn’t believe in me. I don’t know if he just thought I was doing it wrong or if it was his plan all along, but the bastard tried to fucking kill me. That was his first mistake though...his last was forgetting to make sure he finished the job.”

“When I woke up after Julius blew up that damn boat, nothing was the same. Troy was chief of police, Johnny was on death row, Dex was gone, and the fucking Saints were nothing but a memory. And I was fucking angry. Stilwater needed the Saints, it was clear, I mean the Saints disappear and now there’s three more new gangs causing problems! The cops weren’t doing shit, so of course I was going to step up...I let that anger blind me though. I think maybe if I just slowed down some, maybe listened to some of Pierce’s ideas...maybe we could have saved Eesh and Carlos...”

“I should have known when the Syndicate showed up we were screwed. Johnny died. And I just...I didn’t care? Like it just made sense to me. Like of course Johnny died, Levi died, both my parents died, Elsie died...why would Johnny get to live, you know? People die all around me. And I just stopped caring. I didn’t want anymore people to die for me, I wanted to be the one...I got sloppy and when we raided that military base in Steelport, I took a shotgun to my knee. In the moment I think I just...laughed. It reminded me of Johnny when we were up against the Vice Kings. But Shaundi? She was already angry, and when I got careless she got angrier. She punched the shit out of me when we got to the apartment, gave me a black eye and one hell of a lecture...Pierce didn’t talk much then, but I saw him across the room. They were both scared of losing me. I didn’t really think that anyone would care before that, I couldn’t die after that. I wasn’t going to put them through that.”

Elsie Finnegan:

“It was only a matter of time before mom and dad went off the deep end. Growing up in the media’s magnifying glass...we saw people like us, like our parents, just fall apart. I knew it was coming, the day Liam had his trial...he looked so tired, like he knew what he’d done was the beginning of the end...Mom stopped talking to us after that, only focusing on Robbie to make sure he would still inherit the company after her. She looked at Jay like he was some kind of inconvenience. What was I supposed to do after the fire? Leave him with her? After we left...Mom disappeared, just vanished off the face of the Earth...and Pa...Pa was dead.”

“Meeting Tanu was one of the best things to happen after we moved to Stilwater. He was dedicated and thoughtful and patient and everything I wasn’t. He saved my ass more times than I could count, I can’t believe he ever thought I was going to tell him no when he asked me to marry him. He helped Jay come out of his shell a lot too, it was like he was always part of the family...I should have listened to him when he told me he was scared after I came home part of the Saints...”

“Try as I might, I was still my parents’ daughter. I could run and run and run...but it was bound to catch up with me. Sharp took one look at me and knew I was a Corduroy. I think he originally wanted to use me, hold me for ransom or something. He must’ve been pretty disappointed to hear my mom wasn’t willing to pay for my life...Some mother she was. It was only a matter of time...I just wish I had more...I wanted to tell Tanu goodbye.”

James “Jay” Finnegan:

“That first year after Elsie and Tanu joined the Saints...it sucked. It was like being at home in Oregon again. Home alone, taking care of myself, everyone else too busy with some bullshit to even notice me. Tanu tried. He’d come home between missions, all bloodied and bruised and smelling like gunpowder and ash...He’d clean himself up first, he let me watch and tried to teach me how to dress stuff like that...It was nice to know that he still cared. It was feeling like Elsie was turning into Mom though...”

“I wish I could say I was surprised when they told me Elsie was dead, but I really wasn’t. She’d been gone for so long already. What I was surprised by, was the fact that Tanu didn’t come home after that. I still don’t know where he went when he disappeared...instead a cop came home. Troy Bradshaw...It took me a week to let him in the house and two weeks to talk to him...and he waited. I mean, he was definitely getting frustrated with it, but he still waited. He said he was a friend of Tanu’s, I was going to have to stay with him in his shitty apartment for a while. It’s not like I really had much choice in the matter.”

“I give Troy a lot of shit for...well, everything, I suppose. But he’s a really nice guy. I thought he was going to dump me on the streets after Tanu was blown up, but he sat me down that night and looked me in the eyes and said, “Kid, I won’t stop you from walking out of here if that’s what you want. But I’m not gonna fight you if you wanna stay here either.” ....Of course, I stayed. Troy would never admit it, but I think deep down he’ll always care about the Saints, even if that just means me at this point.”

[SP] When everything seems to be overwhelming we all search for another reality.

Sitting in the corner of my room watching the street through my window various thoughts running through my mind. Well it’s not something new, my mind is hardly ever empty it needs something to keep busy with. Lately, it is not able to find something to fixate upon no worries though it’ll come to me eventually I console myself.

There is a child on the street sitting on the pavement with a paper plane in his hand. It was a surprise to see a kid that age sitting alone but not alone at the same time cause the joy on his face playing with that paper plane suggested he preferred it that way. “Oh!” my brain finally found what to fixate upon and poked my head with a question that I did not quite wanted to answer “that kid reminds you of someone, someone you know all too well?”.

All the nostalgia that was locked away in my depths came back to me like the autumn breeze which goes unnoticed at times but is felt by the person who wants to. That child reminded me of the simpler times when things where actually what they were, no secret veil, no malice just pure euphoria. “That’s all in the fucking past! No point in going through that stuff that makes me pity my reality!” I shouted at myself and left the window and the child alone as I stormed towards my bed and lied down. “No point in going through that stuff? Are you sure?” my mind poked me again. “Simpler times they were” I said to myself immediately realizing that I lost the fight with myself and gave the fodder my mind needed to feed on and drain me out. At this point I was pretty sure it was me and only me that’s keeping me away from happiness. The irony did make me laugh. Never needed anyone to make me happy always had my way around it and now surely, it’s me who is nailing the job of keeping me doubtful of my own existence.

I closed my eyes in the hope that sleep will help me ease my agony but the million thoughts running made it hard for it to engulf me. Turning towards the night stand I grabbed my phone and started scrolling through the feeds and emails that were waiting for me to assist. The same old monotony made me cringe more and I kept it back from where I picked it from. A thought hit me and made me giggle at its whimsicality. I picked my phone again and jokingly asked google “OK Google, find me another reality”. The hysteria didn’t leave me until my phone rings and directs me towards a clearing in the forest nearby. It only took seconds to turn my hysteria into confusion and then into an unknown thrill which I was not able to comprehend myself. “Is this some kind of joke?” I asked to myself. It was really hard to believe in something like this. So, I googled it again, same result! Still to be sure, my paranoid self googled whether something like this has ever been resulted in any of the google searches. It was all negative. The vein in my head throbbed and my mind suggested “Only one way to find out.”

“This is insane! How jobless and stupid a person has to be to go after something like this” my minds monologue continued with me but hope makes you stupid doesn’t it?

I got out of my bed I never had this much energy while leaving for work but for this, the Adrenalin was getting the best out of me. Walked to my closet pulled out a pair of track pants and jogging shoes and looked at the watch it was 6:09 pm, the evening sun was there but would soon be taking a leave. After gearing up I walked out of my apartment and down my building the kid I saw on the street before was no longer there, in the back of my mind I wanted to have a closer look at him but anyways. My phone showed the mysterious place was 1.5 km from where I was. It was a local forest called the Northern Valley forest, where I heard the schools of the area organised camping trips and small communal barbecues were also a part of the deal there. I researched more about it as I was making my way towards it. The search said it also has a small lake somewhere inside where locals went for leisure fishing and boat races. Looks pretty harmless I thought to myself while scrolling long enough a news snippet caught my eye and my brisk walk halted on its own “A 25 years old woman disappeared in the Northern Valley Forests” screamed the headline. Reading further I found that it has been 15 years since that incident and as the sources said she was last seen by a group of camping kids in the forest. That’s all. No name no identity nothing she was reported missing by her paper boy after he saw weeks of paper were collected at her front door and no one to pay for it. It was later found that the name she was living with was an alias. No one know who she was or where she went. She just vanished into thin air. Not a sign of her since then. Reading that should have made me question my decision but as someone once said curiosity killed the cat well it’s going to kill me too I thought to myself and resumed my walk towards my probable end. Maybe I was looking for an end, an end to all that has suffocated me all these years.

Squashing all these thoughts deep down I took a deep breath and continued walking looking at the map in my phone I was finally at the edge of the forest half a kilometer more and I would have reached the much anticipated “another reality” I chuckled to myself. While standing at the edge and figuring out where to start from and analyzing the vast expanse of green in front of me I felt a familiar voice from a distance whispered something was it my name? I questioned or something else. It was nothing unusual to me, living alone for as long as I can remember there are times when I hear voices or whispers to be precise, it is all in my head I say to myself and leave it there but this whisper it was more than that. I felt that it knew me way too well and wanted to know more from me. I turned around to my left from where that sound came and I saw no one but the chills down my spine were evident enough to tell me this little adventure will be something I never bargained for. The thought that I may die still didn’t left my conscious but the temptation of what I’ll stumble upon at the end of this journey was the only driving force pulling we towards it.

My journey began. I started going in the direction from where that whisper came from. After walking for five minutes I saw my phone to check the time it showed 6:38 pm. It started getting dark and my phone was at 8 percent “fuck” I said to myself. I should have charged my phone the thought ran in my mind the network signals were also unreliable but then if I was in trouble here who would I call and the bigger question was who would actually come for my rescue the answer to that very question made me head towards my destination with an even more determination which I never knew was in me.

Another 5 mins and I would be there.

While I was making my way towards my destination I heard strange voices which were different from what I heard while coming here, I saw my phone it said another three minutes straight and I would reach my destination but these voices were intriguing me so I went after them. After walking for a few meters I peeped through the bushes and saw silhouettes of two human like figures I looked closely and realized they were kids barely fifteen their backs were towards me and they had a bow and were pointing it at something which I was not able to see clearly. For a clear view I stepped a little forward and the dry branches beneath my feet made a sound loud enough to startle both of them and they stood in front of me with their bows pointing straight at me. A few seconds passed and I stood there like a deer in headlights one of them went “Lower it down Carl it’s clearly not a boar” he sighed. “Oh no! That deer we were chasing escaped. Jesus!” Carl said in a remorseful tone. “Today was not our day pal” said the other one. They both left without saying anything to me just giving me a look of detest. That was strange I said to myself.

Getting back on my track and making a promise to myself that I won’t wander around the forest I looked at my phone and started going towards my destination.

The forest was getting dense with every step I was taking further into it and with the onset of the darkness I was feeling a bit unsure about what might come ahead.

My phone screen said another minute and I would be there where “another reality” lies.

I heard that same wisp again and this time I was sure it called out my name and I felt the same chills as before but this time I didn’t freak out I was more inclined to follow it as somewhere in the back of my mind I could sense the it knew me and all my problems will be taken care off once I meet this person who is calling me with such a familiarity.

The pace of my walk increased and I was heading towards my “another reality” with fast and confident steps. “You have reached” my phone which was now at 4 percent stated. It was quite dark now and to make out where I was. I switched on my phone’s flash light and started examining the place. There was nothing special about this place it was just a clearing with a few logs of old trees kept horizontally on the ground that made it feel like it was a camping site but not a frequently used one cause the area around the logs had shrubs growing which are generally crushed by feet while camping as well as the fire place had all sorts of small grass growing around it which is usually not the case. Spent the next couple of minutes examining that place but could not find anything that would suggest or point towards an “another reality”.

To be honest I was a bit disappointed that I couldn’t find anything but what was I expecting from a stupid google search after all I told myself. I gave the place one last glance and started heading out when my eyes went on something which was shining quite promptly in the moon light I went there and looked closely to see what it was. A piece of glass is what I figured out after picking it up and examining closely it occurred to me it was from a broken watch. Looking around I found another small piece near that big log of wood which was hollow from the inside. It belonged to a big old oak tree which looked like was taken down by a huge storm years ago. Probably the locals have chopped it off tidily to make it a camping site which was now abandoned for years and time took its toll on that poor tree just leaving it hollow on the ground. I used my flash light to see inside that hollow log, I checked it before though but didn’t find anything.

“There was something shiny again that I saw inside that log” I said to myself. Before I knew I found myself going inside that log which was big enough for a person to manoeuver while bending a little forward.

As I was moving inside that log with my phone in one hand and using my other hand to keep balance similar chills which I got from that voice before were evident right now but I didn’t hear anything. I found what had caught my eye, it was another piece of glass I looked ahead and saw something and immediately knew what exactly was there I just rushed towards it and picked it up. It was hard to believe what I was holding in my hands and the shock that came with it was inevitable. The thing what I was holding was a broken watch same as the watch I was wearing right now the sweat on my forehead was unmistakable right now. The real horrors set in when I saw the time on the broken watch it was 6:53 pm and well the panic was right there when the watch on my wrist also shouted out the same. As soon as I realized this and tried to comprehend what further to make out of it my phone’s battery gave out and I was left in the dark inside that log and suddenly that voice was prominent again. It called out my name “Lilly!”. I was so terrified and started sobbing inside that log trying to make my way out of it by crawling towards the other side as it felt like it was never ending journey that I just signed up for. The moonlight which was so prominent before was no longer visible. It felt as if the ends were closing down, the log felt like it was compressing and will swallow me up whole. I was crying out loud and was not able to breath properly because now the claustrophobia was prevailing, I screamed “Let me go! I don’t want to die in here! Please let me go, I beg you!”. The voice spoke to me again “Lilly you finally found me. I was waiting for you for the past 15 years. We both will be set free if you are willing to help. You will help me Lilly, right?”. Things started to fade out of my vision and I felt as if was going to die my lungs went soar and every breath was harder than the previous. I recognized that voice and it didn’t ease my panic further as that voice was no one else’s but mine.

“We are united finally. We will make it all right. We’ll have what we always wanted……….”.

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Beater Pinkfridge Journal Log 2

We came to the Lake of Tears, it was huge and covered in fog, it gave me the creeps just being there, we began looking for a way across.

Everyone had been pretty silent during the travel to the lake, Brandy had given the bard some weird shrooms which seemingly put him in an unresponsive stupor, so not having to hear him mouth off constantly was great, the elf continued to be elusive.

Walking around the lake sent chills down my spine, the area was dead and lifeless, it didn’t look as if anything had lived there for a long while, and no sign of a witch either.

The tablet had stopped glowing as bright but I still didn’t trust it, the whole situation had me on edge which wasn’t helped by Brandy telling us he sensed a large and dangerous presence in the dark waters of the lake.

Soon after he told us that we noticed a row boat coming towards us with an old stranger on it, he pulled up on the shore and eerily stared at us saying nothing much at all, we debated whether we should get on the boat or not, I being of a sensical mindset decided to stay on land as I prefered living, Brandy however wanted to get on the boat like a fool, so he and Haruki got on the boat of death while I walked around to see if I could find some other way across.

David just kind of followed me around drooling the whole time while holding the tablet, must have been some powerful shrooms to but him in such a state, though I actually prefer him like this.

It felt like danger was in the air so I thought it would be safer to disguise myself from any threats that may seek to surprise me, I decided to disguise myself as a turtle to confuse any would be attackers that could be lurking in the fog, it did however make traveling around the lake much slower.

I did eventually come across a corpse face down in the dirt next to the water, I couldn’t find any signs of what may have killed the man but I did find a note promising rewards for rare artifacts, if I had to guess I’d say he came looking to swipe stuff from the witch and sell it.

It was at that point I saw the rowing boat approaching once again with the old strange man, no sign of Brandy or Haruki though.

I would have just left if it weren’t for the fact that neither me nor a catatonic David could last five minutes in the wilderness without Brandy or Haruki protecting us with their druidy powers so reluctantly me and David got on the boat and sailed across the black lake, expecting death to emerge from the water at any moment.

We sailed up to a small island with a hut on it, me and David exited the boat and approached the house, I knocked on the door and a woman opened it, the witch, Brandy and Haruki were also inside and seemed fine, the witch invited us in and requested the glowing tablet, Brandy assured me it was all right and so I instructed David to give the witch the tablet.

As a reward the witch created some kind of electric lute for David which had he not been in such an unresponsive state I’m sure he would have been ecstatic.

Then the witch told us of a beast that dwelled within the lake, the beast with many heads, the Hydra, which incidentally was also the witches ex husband, something about it once being human or something, it was all just so bizarre but yeah, anyway hydra was in the lake and would most likely kill us all when we try to leave.

At that point the witch ushered us all back onto the boat but I managed to grab some jars with an explosive warning sticker on them as I was leaving the hut, Brandy turned into a ferret or some kind of creature and sat on the witches shoulder and we all set off onto the water, which seemed like a massively stupid idea to me but I’m not one to argue with a witch.

The witch then put her hand on each of us and somehow improved our abilities, ferret Brandy got really bulky and I suddenly felt my reflexes become heightened as if I was moving slightly faster than before, it’s hard to say if anything about David or Haruki changed seeing as they just sat silently.

then the witch vanished in a flash and left us stranded in the middle of the lake, which was now beginning to rumble and bubble up.

A Hydra head raised out of the water, then another one and another, seven in total raised on every side, towering above, looking down at us hungrily, teeth as sharp as razors, it was then that…

Well actually I’m rather tired as I haven’t slept since we started this journey so I’ll continue my writings come morn.