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widevibratobitch · 9 months

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ive been havin a worrisome amount of Gender Thoughts in the last few weeks. or months even. im this close to just shaving off my eyebrows completely. i need to do Something. i need Change. and therapy.

#bleaching them aint enough they grow back too fast #like ive been doing this ridiculously feminine gender expression and been treating it like. kinda of drag or sth.#but it does fuck with my brain a little i think. because im not like. pretty. and it kinda makes me wish i actually were? i cant get over it #im so tired of wanting to look pretty all the time its stopping me from really leaning into the unhiged strange and offputting vibe i crave #also i miss my emo bitch with heavy eyeliner era. like dont get me wrong this is fun and all but sometimes i really just wanna wear black #also i keep thinking about dying my hair something really dark. maybe even black yeah. who knows. but it just occurred to me.#white? maybe? i do like being blond but. white? that could be something? and if i actually do shave my eyebrows too?#that could really slay #god. god do you see the insane acrobatics i am forced to perform just because you didnt give me a moustache?#i feel like a nice moustache would really cure all my life problems. i mean. so would being skinny but thats less likely to happen so.#*i keep thinking about DYEING my hair. i do think about normal dying too but that's not part of my Gender Dilemma

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