So…when I was reading your tags, I couldn’t help thinking of the time this summer I read something so beautifully written I actually just broke down crying…not bc it moved me but bc it made me so depressed that I’d never write anything that wonderful. It wasn’t a sobbe fic, tho I have been overwhelmed at the skill and beauty of other people’s writing so many times (and desperately wished I was that good); it was the opening paragraph of Fahrenheit 451. Not what you’d expect, lol. I don’t know if that’s what you meant when you mentioned reading about them, but that’s what I thought of. I never had this problem before I started writing. I could just enjoy it. Now reading makes me think about writing. So interesting. <33

No omggg that’s exactly it!! But with me it’s with fics and not so much books which is weird bc in my mind it’s like with books everything is so beautifully written and it’s makes me feel emotions but I know that that’s because they’re an author and they’ve gone through multiple drafts and a whole editing process and it’s also like their whole job to write and make it good yk so when I read something like that from a book I’m able to enjoy it and not really be thinking about my own writing

But when it’s fics I can’t help comparing myself sometimes bc we’re all doing this in our spare time and we all have our writing process and dwindling motivation but the end result still makes me cry bc everything everyone (including you) writes is so wonderful 🤧 now, I have learned to just let the comparing go and not worry about it so much but I still have the people pleaser in me that’s like I have to write what people want and what I think they’ll like and I have to write it beautifully up to the standards of my own writing bc now it feels like there is an expectation of how my writing is supposed to sound like skdjjd my username is literally Createdforyou AKDJDBSH

And that’s why I was so into drawing the past couple of weeks because with drawing there’s like no pressure for that at all. It’s just a bunch of lines. I look at a picture and I try to recreate the lines and shading, that’s all, and I’m not really worrying about it being perfect bc after all it’s for my own enjoyment. So, I think I have to learn to do that with my own writing and be self-indulgent sometimes and write something messy and not polished once in a while idk skdjdj like I have been writing on the side but I’ve just been taking my time

But another thing I wanted to say is that this fandom has given me a lot of comfort the past two years and I’m so thankful for all the support and kudos and comments and when they come from such talented writers (again you included) it just reassures me that how I’m writing is okay and ahhhh idk 🙈 just makes me all 🥰🥰💕🥰💕🥰💕 inside so thank you for that!! 💕💕💕