#like 2017 was an absolute garbage year for me as a functional member of society and for her to not have noticed ANY of that is..... oof?
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my mum still wont talk to me so im really glad the ‘line’ here was ‘not volunteering for a thing i dont want to volunteer at’. im glad we’ve established this.
#im sure she'll get over it? i hope so. its a lil unnerving#and i do think i was maybe a bit rude in refusing to help but i dont want to apologize for the fact im not helping yknow?#because like..... thats? my choice? as a fucking adult? that i dont want to do this thing? jesus#its almost as though my mum still thinks im her little baby circa fucking 2015 and has ignored 3 years of ~development~. fuck#like the anxiety thing. she'd have to be actively ignoring me to not realise that my general mental state sharply declined after#my father has hospitalised the first time. like SHARPLY. /SHARP/ decline. i was clearly in a bad place for like 90% of 2017#like 2017 was an absolute garbage year for me as a functional member of society and for her to not have noticed ANY of that is..... oof?#like did she just think i wasnt a morning person??? that wouldn't technically be wrong but considering ive been more vocal in 2018#at fucking 7am than i was in 2017 at 11am should highlight that the vocality is less to do with exhaustion and more to do with nerves#and that since my mental state has improved so much over the last couple of months im naturally able to talk more in the mornings#hhhhh listen my relationship with my mum is Complicated
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