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slike what can you do i can fucking Run from it even more i can pretend like its Not A Thing but the reality of the fucking situation is a big old: Welp. like there’s really nothing i can fucking do and nowhere i can fucking go and who Cares i should just die but i never fucking do fucking. dumbass fucking Idiot dumbass me and i dont know man i dotn fucking kno m just. a joke i know im just a fucking joke and slike. who doesnt fucking th ink that???

man i dont know m fucking just sobbing and i keep fucking writing bi g fucking. rants stupid fucking rants like its gonna change anything like its going to Fucking Matter and i know it wont i know it wont but Bursting and i jssut. i odnt know what im just 

like m just Mad and upset and yknow when you just. Wish you werent a fucking joke. wish you were like... i dont even know if it ufkcing  makes sense. yknow when u just wish u were Equal to everyone else- you werent so fucking det ached, and you weren’t so. Inferior. slike man m jsut. sic k and fuck ing tired of eveyrone fuck ing rub bing in my face how fucking wor thless i am and slike. half the time they dont even fucking realise theyre doing it??? and i cant SSay anything because i know it doesnt matter i know ym fucking word is Zero i know it and i hear it in their fucking voice that they think everything that comes out my mouth is stupid fucking hors eshit. i hate it whne the people that “”Care”” think  im nothing but a delusional fucking wreck and dont even lis t en to a god damn fucking Thing tha t i ahev to say, because all my thoughts Ever fucking are to them  - everything that i am  - is complete and utt er fucking garbage nonsense because im stupid, and they know be tter and what does anyhting i fucking say even Mean because im so worthless. and i know im fuckin worthless because God Knows they aint fucking. treat me like i fucking am and im not saying i dont deserve it?? because i probably do. like if everyone acts like that then it isnt them thats he problem. im comfortable with the fact its me and my fault and i dont know but maybe im not because im so fuck ing upset all the fucking tiem about it and i cant just take it i have to be a brat and i have to fucking cry constantly about not being Enough about being so fuck ing small and pathetic and i dont know man ifucking

i wish i’d just kill myself i wish i Did all the fucking time or i wish i’d ran away before properly not just come crawling back when i was scared im a fucking idiot for thinkin there was anything back here and i know theres nothing anywhere but i dont fucking know i dont fucking know i’d love a fucking bullet in my skull right about know and slike man man man i jsut fucking so sick of jsut existng m so sick of jsut . being Here and tangible and having too Breathe and exist and on top of that m so sick of my self i just fucking want to strangle my self iGOD i jsut wanna hit myself so so fucking bad i feel fucking sick i wanna Vomit and yknow when ur just. gettng stressy and upset at your own fucking body just fucking feeling the MADDENING impulse to fucking rip it and chip away Bit by fuckig Bit because its horrible its ha Horrible thing to exist im fucking stupid im so so fucking . im so mad at everything that i am like yknow when youre just like- why cant you be something worthwhile for once why did you HAVE to be so fucking incomepetent so ntohing so fucking worthless, why is it that no mtter howw hward you try you fucking get nowhere and get nothing and no one fucking gives a shit REALLY not really youre an idiot and everyone can taste it and thats aaaalll you are [wwooooowowoowowoowowowoow] DARN my fuckign. like i fucking know i know i know mmjsut.    sssssssss