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(This is a draft that I don't know how to follow, HELP. And sorry for the shitty translation, I used Google translator.)

Felix opened his eyes with difficulty, his head was killing him and he didn't know where exactly he was. He sat up as best he could and felt the vomit rush out. He looked around and saw a trash can, he vomited his insides into his, he can't remember the last time he had ended up this bad. In fact, he doesn't remember how he got here.

"Hello party boy." Farleigh's voice reached his ears and he couldn't help but gag more. "You lost a little control last night."

"Go away-" Another gag. "Fuck..."

Farleigh walked over to him and rubbed his back. When he was finally able to stop vomiting he realized that his cousin had brought him water and pills, for someone like him to be so kind he must have had a great time last night.

"You look like shit." As kind as always.

"I feel like shit." He took the pills and drank the entire bottle of water. "What did I do so much last night? I don't even remember how I got here." He looked around, he was at the Saltburn pool, apparently passed out on the floor near the beach chairs.

"To recap, you drank like three liters of who-knows-what, you made out with half the party, you disappeared for like three hours, then you came back, you drank more, you threw up in the pool, you kissed more people." People, not girls, oh no." You kinda came out to your parents." Shit." Seriously buddy, I saw like four tongues in your mouth at the same time, then I lost you for a few hours, I heard you got into a couple of fights too." Farleigh shrugged. "I found you about twenty minutes ago and after checking that you were still alive, I went to bring you something." He put on that shit-eating grin that he hated with all his heart. "You put a nice show Fel."

"Fuck you."

"Don't be hostile to me, it's not my fault you went crazy." He hated that he was right.

"Whatever."

Felix sighed listlessly, everything hurt, he could barely remember anything about what happened last night. Farleigh left after making sure he was well enough, he got up with difficulty and walked to his room, he needed to sleep for the rest of her life.

He went in and locked the door, he took off his angel wings with difficulty and then collapsed on his bed, he didn't want to face his parents today, or ever, although they probably won't mention it ever again.

"Felix? Are you okay?" The door that led to the bathroom opened and there was him, the reason why he had decided to drink himself to death. Yesterday's discomfort was no longer in his system, he was too tired to be upset, instead there was only pain. He didn't need this, not now.

"Yeah." He responded as best he could and turned around, the pills were taking effect, his body didn't hurt as much anymore, and he could think more clearly, the weight of ollie's lies were eating away at him.

"I just...wanted to apologize...for everything..." Oliver spoke with a broken voice. He turned around and saw him better, he seemed devastated, his eyes were red from crying, his hair was a mess and his clothes were messed up. He felt bad, he always felt vulnerable around Oliver.

"...why you did it..?" He asked, he wasn't quite sure what he was getting at, but he was calm enough to listen to Oliver this time.

"I don't know...I just...I just wanted to be your friend, and there's really not much to tell about me, you know? I'm just a regular guy, with a regular family, who has a hard time making friends... "Oliver walked to his bed and sat in a corner away from him. "I was afraid that if I didn't give you an interesting story...you...you...you wouldn't stay."

Felix rubbed his face and sat on the bed. "Ollie, you lied to me about your life, I thought you trusted me and that's why you told me those things, I thought we were close." He felt hurt, he felt like his best friend was a stranger, his entire friendship felt like a lie.

"And I do! I trust you, I told you things I never told anyone." He whimper. "You're the only friend I've ever had Felix...I couldn't risk losing you, I couldn't...A-and everyone puts a show for you, why should I be different? Since I had less chances..."

Felix shifted in his seat, uncomfortable in his own skin. "What makes you think I would reject you if you didn't lie to me?"

Oliver hugged himself. "I know you, you would have been bored of me, I'm not very interesting Felix, if I didn't give you a story where you are the poor boy's great savior then you wouldn't have noticed me."

"Ollie- shit, do you really think that about me? I'm not cruel Oliver. I liked you before you lied." And he did, Oliver was interesting, someone easy to talk to, who didn't take him for an idiot, he could spend hours and hours talking to him and never get bored. Oliver was the first person in his life who seemed interested in really getting to know him.

Oliver shook his head as he choked back a sob, "You would have thrown me away, Venetia said so, you would have thrown me away like Eddie. I would only be your friend for the summer and then you were going to replace me."

"That's not it- Ollie I've only brought two people to Saltburn in my life, Eddie and you." Oliver turned to look at him for the first time in the entire conversation. He seemed shocked. "Look, when Venetia is upset with me she usually says bad things about me, okay? And Eddie...it's a...personal issue." Felix shrank in place. "Look, I admit it, I felt a little uneasy morbid taste for the sad stories you told me, but I... I really like you- I liked you and I wanted to help you, you know?" He sighed rubbing his forehead, "And now...now I don't know if anything you said is true, I believed everything you told me, I told those lies to my parents Ollie, I thought you needed help." Felix had never opened up like that with anyone. "I...I thought you were honest, I thought you weren't like the rest, that you didn't lie to me to get something out of me. I...don't want to trust you anymore..."Felix looked at Oliver. Who looked like he was about to cry. "You hurt me..."

Oliver cowered in his place. "I..." And then he started to cry, Felix's heart squeezed in his chest, he crawled over to where Oliver was and placed a hesitant hand on his shoulder. Had Oliver always been this tiny? Part of his hand almost completely covered his ollie's shoulder. "Most of the things were true..." He whimper. "Is there something... Is there anything I can do to make you believe me? I'll do anything Felix, I swear...anything..."

Felix looked at him empathetically. And he hugged him, unsure of what exactly he should do, he wasn't sure, but he definitely didn't want Oliver out of his life.

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